Arish's pov:

"Uhh nakabukas bag mo" rinig kong sabi niya, hindi ako kumibo at hinayaan lang siya, i hate how my heart is betraying me right now by beating so fast that it could burst out of my chest.

Naramdaman ko yung pag lapit niya saakin "Bukas bag mo" agad akong umiwas at nag lakad palayo sakanya ng kaunti para ako na mismo mag sara ng bag ko.

Habang natagal mas lumalakas lalo ang buhos ng ulan, sa lahat ba naman ng pwede kong makasama ma stranded dito sa waiting shed si Dwayne pa talaga

"You play so good" bulong na sabi niya tama lang para marinig ko, tumingin ako sa palda ko at naking medyo basa yun sa talsik ng ulan kaya pinag pag ko ng kaunti bago siya lingunin "It's been a while since I played" sabi ko hindi ko at agad na nag iwas ng tingin dahil nakakatunaw yung mga mata niyang nakatutok lang saakin.

"Out of all the songs na alam mo, why did you choose to play that?" My heart was beating rapidly, ano sasabihin ko? Bakit nga ba kasi yun yung tinugtog ko?

Why wouldn't i play that, i love that song. It reminds me of him.

"A-ah that's the song that I'm good at playing kaya yun nalang" palusot ko na sana nga nakalusot, nakahinga ako nh maluwag nung tumango siya. After a few minutes of our uncomfortable silence ay tumila na din yung ulan, finally!

"Sabay na tayo" he said but I didn't respond, I just started walking while he tried his best to catch up my pace.

I heard him groan "Can you at least slow down" I stopped and let him walk pass me.

"Come on ayaw mo ba ako kasabay umuwi?" Kumunot ang noo ko at umiling

He sighed at inunahan ako mag lakad at hulihin ako "Can we atleast talk?" Ngayon niya pa gusto makipag usap sakin, kung kelan nakakausad na ako ng paunti unti.

Pumikit ako at huminga ng malalim bago salubungin ang tingin niya "Ok. Talk." I crossed my arms together and planted a bare bitch face, he took a deep breath before speaking "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you. Umiwas ako para mawala na yung feelings mo saakin kasi I don't want to hurt you, alam mo yan"

He didn't mean to hurt me, it's not his fault why he can't love me the way i want him to love me. It's never his fault, nag mamahal lang din siya.

Ang sakit nanaman. Ang sakit marinig, ang sakit pala marinig.

"Naintindihan ko" sabay lakad paalis sakanya dahil ayoko nang makita niya na naiyak ako dahil sakanya pero hinila niya ako pabalik at niyakap "I'm sorry" he said as he captured me in his arms, the familiar warmth and scent lingered. I missed this, i miss him.

But, please wag ka na mag sorry ang sakit sobra "It's ok, it's not your responsibility to love me more than friends. It's not your fault if you can't love me the way that i love you" sabi ko habang mas humigpit yung yakap niya.

Tama na yakap Dwayne, baka mamiss ko lalo to, i pushed him a little to break that warm hug "Masaya ako para sayo" deretso akong tumingin sa mga mata niya "I won't force you to reciprocate my feelings. I just want you to know na masaya ako para sayo, sainyo. Kung ano mang meron kayo ni hanna" I smiled painfully.

Every step i take feels heavy, seeing him go to his street, watching his back until i can't see him anymore.

Ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko, alam ko na nga yung sagot, but I still chose to hear it from him "That hurt" I whispered as I held my chest.

I just laid in my bed as I cried my heart out. I prayed so hard that the Lord will take the pain away, hanggang sa nakatulog nalang ako.

When i woke up i felt a bit fuzzy dahil sa luhang nailabas ko kagabi.

"Anak, kain na" katok ni mommy kaya bumaba na ako para sabayan siya kumain kahit wala akong gana.

"Yung gitara mo pala anak naka tambak lang sa guest room, baka gusto mo gamitin ulit? I mean it's been a while since I heard and saw you play" I smiled sadly, playing guitar and singing became one of my past time nung kasama ko pa lagi si dwayne dito sa bahay.

My heart can't stop beating nang maalala ko yung mga after school jamming namin dito sa bahay ko.

But then again, guitars and music reminds me of him. He embarked his name and face in those guitar and music, kaya everytime i see and hear music and guitars siya na agad naalala ko.

I shook my head not looking at my mom "Ayoko na po mag gitara" I ate a spoon full of rice and chicken.

"Bakit naman? Ang galing mo na kaya. Magaling mag turo si dwayne" she pointed the spoon at me while chewing her food, I stopped eating and looked at her.

She's my mother after all, she deserves to know "Ma, can I be honest with you?" She stopped chewing and held my hand.

Hawak palang niya sa kamay ko gumagaan na agad pakiramdam ko, the warmth from her palms gives me comfort that my eyes starts to form tears.

"What's wrong anak? You can tell me anything" I wiped the tear that fell "Mahal ko siya ma and he couldn't love me back, so I lost my best friend. I'm so dumb, sana tinago ko nalang, sana pinigilan ko nalang" I cried, she stood up and hugged me.

"We can't always have the person that we want. And that's the reason why we grow" she wiped my tears "loving is not all about staying, sometimes love is letting go and being happy with their decision" I nodded "Hindi man kayo para sa Isa't isa at least you get to be part of their life"

Pag akyat ko agad ako pumunta sa guest room namin dahil wala namang nagamit na guest dito naging tambakan nalang namin siya.

Agad kong nakita ang gitara ko na may pirma naming dalawa ni dwayne, agad kong sinuot ang strap at nag strum.

"Marunong ka na ah" kommento ni dwayne habang pinapakinggan ako sa pag tugtog.

"Galing nag tuturo eh" he laughed.

Ngumiti ako ng mapait "Nakakamiss".

Pag lapag ko ng gitara nakita ko ang isang kahon na sana hindi ko nalang binuksan.

Memories will live, but the person that we made our first chapters with is no longer part of the next.