Me and Japan have been together for 5 years though it felt like he was never around.

but he felt a bit-

distant

My heart felt colder as the days went by, he only cared about work and that is all he will ever feel  for.

because to him-

I barely matter.

we don't even sleep in the same bed anymore,

He sleeps in a spare room and i sleep in our supposed bedroom where we used to sleep together, make love together, cuddle together, watch TV together, dream together.

but overall

being together..

he only wants or needs me when he finds something he needs me for,

whether it's cooking, cleaning or even a few quickies.

but never loves me.

...

we had another argument ending up with him leaving the house fuming slamming the door on his way out, enough is enough. I can't stand being ignored anymore, He needs to pay attention to me and love me, not neglect me. I cried on the couch, curling up into a ball remembering all the times we spent together; when we first met, our first date, our first time living together, our engagement, our wedding...

I woke up not realizing I fell asleep. i got up and did all the house chores, cooking and setting up the table but lastly, taking out the divorce papers. I've planned this for a while now, i'm tired of just being here wasting my life away for a man who faked his vows and had his flame of love for me extinguished by an unknown reason.

i sat at the dining table waiting for when he comes home,

"honey, im home" he says as he closes the door and takes off his shoes, setting them near the front door. his accent being known, that same accent that i still love. i almost tear up but sigh and shrug it off "hello love, we need to talk" i say.

 He sighs annoyed and tiringly "what is it now-""have a seat before having a fucking attitude with me Japan" i say annoyed at his antics. he rolls his eyes as he took a seat in front of me but still many chairs away from me. i place down the divorce papers as i close my eyes to prevent form tearing up. "what's this?" he asked as I placed a pen over the papers. "I want a divorce- for us.. we can't keep living like this anymore, you have your work and i have mine. well if i can even call it a job since my only job is to please you. i just can't keep living like this anymore with you only talking to me when you need me. I-" I open my eyes to see him..

Crying..

He's crying..

The last time he's ever cried was at our wedding but form joy... this type of cry was a sad one..

"I-I'm sorry, so sorry. for making you feel neglected and used-" he says tears falling down his eyes. "i'll stop working and become a house husband- I'll let you do as you please just please give me another chance. I'll make it work i swear just please don't let me go- I don't want to lose you- I-" i hugged him "I'll give this relationship another chance, just one more. if i gave you another i would only end up with more heartbreak" i sobbed into his shoulder as he cried in mine.

We ended up sitting in silence, not the upsetting one but just comfortable silence...

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A/N it looks a little rushed? in my opinion it kinda does but let me know what you think! remember- request as many times as you want :)