2 years later

Time passed by. 1 year to go I thought to myself. I knew someday I could move out and experience how it is to be outside. No one would want to adopt me now, I'm too old. I laughed everytime I thought of nobody wanting to adopt me. I didn't make any friends because I knew that they would just leave me alone here so it made no sense. "You're getting adopted." The owner of the adoption center said to me. I jumped up and down so happy and in shock.

You wish it was that easy but she was just dreaming.

I woke up realizing that I actually didn't get adopted. I walked downstairs. The floor was cold. "Ah, good morning Yuri!" Said Tai. Everyone at the adoption center simp for him but he only liked talking to me since I didn't simp for him. "Good morning." I said back to him.

"BACK OFF" one of the girls said to me.

"Girl chill, you're acting like I just kissed him."

I looked through the corner of my eye and saw Tai blushing. I started to blush too so I put my hands on my cheeks. "I didn't mean it like that..." I said to him nervously. He smiled and then walked away. I got my tray and went to go sit by myself to eat breakfast. How could this day get any worse? When I said that, it got worse. Lexi and all of her friends came up to me telling me that I can already stop talking to Tai because I'm not even pretty. I just acted like she wasn't there and she slapped me in the face. I didn't let that slide so I got up and pushed her and cut of a piece of her hair using my knife and then I kicked her to the ground leaving a scratch on her arm. All of her friends ran away and I revived 5 hours of detention. At least they won't mess with me anymore I thought to myself once again.

5 hours has passed, they finally let me out. I saw kids laughing at me when I walked out of the detention room and tears started to fill my eye. Tai came up to me and tried to comfort me but something happended. He hugged me and I felt myself blush more than ever before. I wanted to push him back but I just couldn't he just hugged me so tight. I just hugged him back and I saw him blushing too. Were we meant to be or not? Maybe I should stay away from him so no girl could come up to me again and I go in detention again. Besides I wouldn't want to simp for him.

"I'm going to head to my room." I said.

"I will comfort you."

"Erm, no need to do that."

"I insists."

I didn't really like the idea of Tai going inside my room but I didn't want to be rude so I had to say yes. It gave me the thought of when my mom said I'm always trying to make others happy and forgetting about myself when I got off the swings to make someone else use it. She slapped me on the face that night. I didn't want him to see my diary because it didn't have a key to it. I have always written in my diary since I was just 3. I wrote how my mom abused me and how I hated it so much and every time she slapped me I always put pictures of the bruises I got. He was just walking around, I didn't see why he wanted to stay here. 

"I think you should go.."

"Why? I just came here."

"I don't want the other kids to think things about us and then I go back to attention again. It wouldn't be my fault if they see you here."

Tai walked out of the room. I kind of felt bad for telling him to get out but I just didn't know how to tell him in any other way. I guess I didn't want nothing to do with him, he would probably get adopted because everyone loves him. I missed Erica so much and I wish she could just come back. I had pictures with me and her on my phone. Every time I was sad all I did was just go on my phone and look at all the memories we had together. It was just about to be lunchtime and I didn't want to see Tai again, he might just be mad at me since he walked out of the room looking angry. Maybe I should make him an apology card and give it to him. I decided to walk out of my room again and maybe go play with the other kids, I didn't want to be alone at this point and I knew being friends with Tai wouldn't be such a good idea. I walked downstairs and I saw Tai once again. Wouldn't he just leave me alone? I'm getting tired of him. I felt so mad at that point. I felt my face turn red and he looked at me and just ran away and whispered something to the other kids that made them laugh at me and he laughed at me too. I think he told them that I liked him or something that is not true. I felt so mad that I did a double kick on him and smacked him so hard that he started to cry. I had a flashback of when my mother used to hit me while I was hitting him. I quickly helped him up and he pushed me back and told all of the other kids to beat me up. Suddenly I felt like it happened all over again. Everyone was slapping me and I couldn't run and it just seemed like they were all my mother. I held back my tears hoping that I'll turn 18 soon to just get out of this horrible place. I didn't know how bad adoption centers could be if you stayed in one for 12 years. Everyone hated me and I missed Erica so much at this point. I actually started to cry, everyone was laughing at me but I just couldn't hold back my cry anymore. At least I knew that Tai didn't want to be my friend anymore but now I couldn't make any friends. I hoped Tai and everyone in the adoption center got adopted so I won't have to see them anymore. I hoped what Erica said would actually be true, I wouldn't want Erica to see me like this if she was to come back. All I know is that Erica is living a better life than me. Suddenly I felt a pain coming through the same shoulder that Erica pushed. I lifted up my sleeve to look at it and it was all bruised. HOW SENSITIVE WAS I TO STILL FEEL A PAIN I FELT 2 YEARS AGO? I started to panic and the nurse saw my shoulder. She called me in.

"What happened to your shoulder?"

"I- I am not sure, my friend pushed my shoulder 2 years ago but she didn't push it that hard but I still feel the pain to it."

"I'm guessing that you have a medical concern, here is some ice."

"And what is ice going to do...?"

"Ah, I don't know they just told us to give it to kids when we don't know what else to do but to scream and run."

I felt like I wanted  to smack this lady, she is so freaking dumb. I had to hold back my temper before I actually get in real trouble. I just walked right out without saying bye, she looked mad at me but I didn't care. Like if someone is dying , you can't just give them ice and tell them that they will be okay and then they will die the next minute. I slammed the door so hard on my way out. I saw her writing something on paper like I was going to get a detention slip. I didn't care besides I got a better life to live out of this place.