January 5th, 2020

John-...you didn't deserve this-... you deserved all the love in the world. I loved you so much and I couldn't put my ego aside for a minute to
tell you. I'm so sorry...for.   everything. I know you wont receive this letter, but I just need closure. I should have been there to protect you. To tell you not to go fight those idiots. I should've been there...

                             Love, Alex