A/N: This chapter will contain mentions of self harm. If this can trigger you in any kind of way, I suggest you not to read this chapter❤️ I don't own glee or any of the characters

" That bowtie was really cute" Rachel said as she greeted us into her home. Rachel herself was wearing a limegreen dress with some weird arm. Although we were not on speaking terms, I should've told her that that outfit was not a good one.

"Thanks Rachel, I got it on sale!" Blaine said and gave her a hug

" I'm so glad you guys could come... especially you Kurt" Rachel said, this time directing it more to me. I just gave her a small smile. " So we're still waiting for Tina og Mike, but everyone else is here. Can I get you something to drink?" She asked us

" A beer maybe" Blaine said and hung his jacket over the hanger. He looked at me and smiled.. " You want something, Kurt?"

" I can mix it myself" I muttered

" Okay, just make yourselves ready and come down to the basement.. you remember where that is right Kurt?" Rachel asked. I just gave her a nod, and then she left.

" Kurt.. if you're really that uncomfortable, we can just skip this. We can go to my house and watch a movie or something ? " Blaine began

" No, I'm okay. I just need a drink " I said

" Okay.. if you're su—"

"I'm sure"

We went down to the basement where most of the glee club had arrived, and from the looks of it, it seemed as if most of them were drunk already. Brittany and Santana was sitting on the couch, their lips locked, Mercedes was sipping happily on her drink, Puck and Finn was dancing, or at least something that looked like it. Artie was strolling around in his wheelchair, clumsily bumping into people and furnitures, his hair all messed up and his glasses almost falling off his face. Quinn was in an heated argument with Sam. To say it in a different way, everyone was acting the way they usually did. Annoying and loud.

" Hey Blaine! Man, it's so great you could come" Finn said and gave him a hug. He then looked at me " Oh.. Kurt. I didn't know  you would be here... look I'm sorry for what I said this morning... I didn't mean it , you know that" Finn said

" Whatever Finn" I said and walked away leaving a really confused Blaine behind. I just couldn't deal with Finn right now, maybe later when my alcohol level was higher. Just maybe, because let's face it, Finn was a jerk.

" Oh Kurt! Its great you're here" Artie said, his glasses almost falling off of his face.

" Yeah Kurt, we didn't expect it, but its really cool of you to be here" Puck said rather loudly, others are nodding their heads in agreement. I gave them all a small smile, and just walked away.

I went over to where the drinks were standing, and took out a cup. In the cup I filled it up with vodka, something I had brought to party myself. If I was going to survive this evening, vodka was the alcohol I needed, not some lame beer. I took a sip of the cup as Blaine walked up to me.

"Kurt, are you sure you're alright?" he asked with a worried voice

« Dont worry Blaine, I'm okay» I reassured and took another sip. I could already feel the alcohol have an affect on me, and it felt good. "Lets dance"I said and grabbed his hand, and led him out onto the remade dance floor.

We danced for a while, before our feet got too worn out and tired. As we were about to sit down, Rachel yelled out.

"OKAY! So Tina and Mike finally came. So we can now play some games! Who wants to play spin the bottle!" Everyone was cheering and soon we all sat on the floor and a ring. An empty beer bottle laying there innocently between us all.

Rachel was the first one to spin the bottle, and it landed on Finn. They shared a sweet kiss, before Santana grabbed the bottle and spun it. It landed on Sam, who in my opinion did not look so happy about it. In fact, Quinn didn't look so happy was well, and I actually wondered why.

Santana almost threw herself at Sam, holding him tight as they shared a kiss, before Quinn dragged him away from Santana. This made Santana angry.

"Just for the record Quinny, it isn't something he hasn't done before with me you know"

"Oh just shut up Santana" Quinn shot back

« You telling me to shut up? ... I will go all Lima Heights on you.." Santana said back. Quinn flung herself at her, but Finn and Puck managed to get the two fighting girls away from each other.

Blaine was the next person to grab the bottle and spun it. After a few seconds, the bottle lost its speed and landed in front of me. I could hear everyone in the room start screaming of joy, someone was whistling and someone was trying to say encouraging words to both Blaine and me.

Oh shit. Blaine is going to kiss me

I looked over at Blaine and he just looked at me carefully. I wanted to kiss him, I really did.

" Well come on guys! Just do it" Puck yelled out

Blaine looked at me again and said with a calm voice

" Only if it's okay for you Kurt" 

Before I could really understand what was going through my head, my head was shaking up and down, to indicate that I was okay with it. Blaine scooted closer to me, and leaned in. His face came closer and closer to my face, and I felt myself holding my breath. I noticed his eyes were closing and I did the same.

Then the most magical thing happened.

His lips touched mine, and it felt soft and warm. They smelled like spearmint. He quickly deepened the kiss, but of course leaving out any form of tongue. And to match his movement, I kissed back. It felt so good. And it felt so right. But it ended too quickly.

Blaine suddenly pulled back, and then the feeling of his lips on mine disappeared. I suddenly felt cold, missing the great feeling.

" Dude! That was intense" Finn said and high fived Blaine who was laughing lightly.

" Awe Kurt, you're blushing" Tina said, and I just blushed even harder.

" Can we like do something else " Santana suddenly called out. " Can we like play beer pong or something" she got up and walked over to the tables where the props for beer pong was already set. " Me and Brittany against Quinn and Sam. I will go all Lima Heights on your sorry asses"

Everyone quickly got up on their feet to witness the competition. But Blaine and I was still sitting on the floor. I don't know why Blaine was there, but I was more or less paralyzed of what had just happened.

" Kurt... there is something I need to tell you.." Blaine suddenly said. I nodded my head and we walked off onto an empty room. " Listen, I need to ask you for a favor"

" What is it Blaine?" I asked starting to sound more concerned

" It's .. ah.. do you think I could crash at your house for some days? It's just my dad a-and.." But blaine didn't manage to finish that sentence, because the tears was now streaming down his face

" Oh my god Blaine... what happened ?" I said putting my hand in his back and leading him to the couch.

" You remember how I never told my dad that I was gay, right? It was only my mom and Cooper who knew" Blaine said, his head looking down at the floor

" Yeah, I remember. " I said

" Well he figured it out.. a-and he started yelling at me.. saying shit like it it's a sin you know .."

" Well then he needs to be educated " I said still rubbing my hand on his back

Blaine cried silently for a few moments before he took a deep breath and talked again.

" I know... but I'm scared Kurt" he looked up at me, and his eyes were just like a puppy's. So sad and so scared

" Why So? He can't do anything to you Blaine "

" But that's the thing Kurt. He said he would rather have me dead than have me as his son... what if he means that?"

" Blaine, listen. You're dad is a jerk if he thinks that you chose to be gay or that it is a sin. Like who would choose to be ridiculed and mocked for it? He will come around eventually, and if not, then he's not really your father. " I said

" Thank you Kurt" and he gave me a hug

" You can stay with for as long as you need.. but I'm telling you, it's going to be hard"

" What do you mean?"

I don't know if it was the alcohol that was speaking for both of us, but I felt brave enough to tell him. Everything.

" I'm a fuck up Blaine. I fuck up things and I'm just a mess" I said

He was about to retort, but I put my hand up to shut him up.

" No, let me finish, or else I might never say it aloud again. I'm depressed. I'm lonely. I'm sad. I'm suicidal Blaine. And I have all this pains.. pains on the inside of me, inside my heart.. that I don't know how to get rid of. My father is so angry at me because of how I behave, my brother Finn says he cares but he doesn't. Carole is just too kind for me. And instead of dealing with the problems, I drink them away. I do stupid things to my body ... I-I'm ruining myself completely and I don't know how to stop. I just want it all to stop" I said out in almost one breath.

" Kurt.. I .. when you say you do stupid things to your body.. what exactly do you mean?"

I put my hand away from his back, and grabbed the hem of shirt. I then pulled the sleeves up, revealing the scars.

" I .. paint with silver .." I said

" Oh Kurt..."

" No.. don't say anything.. I-I know it's bad.. and that I shouldn't do it, but it's hard to stop.. it really is"

" How does it feel.. when you're doing it?"

" It hurts.. but it feels good at the same time. It feels as if I finally have control.. control over something ... I know it's sound stupid bu—"

" It doesn't. Yeah it's a stupid thing to do... but it's doesn't sound stupid"

I looked up at him and saw a small smile formed on his lips.

" We're going to help each other out Kurt. Because let's face it, we're both fucked up by this world"

And with that he gave me a thigh hug. I never wanted to let him go. Ever.

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A/N: Finally and update!! Yay!! What do you think? And do you think the will manage to help each other out? ❤️ comments and votes are appreciated