[Kurt]

I opened my eyes.
Okay, that's basically what happened, but I didn't open them voluntarily, if I can say so myself. The blinds in front of the windows was being pulled apart, letting the brightening light sweep through the window, hitting my face, forcing my eyes to open. It wasn't pleasant, and I had just dreamt a wonderful dream. Blaine and I was singing songs, but we looked like puppets. Actually now that I think about it, I think it was a good thing I woke up at the time I did, because god only knows what kind of turn that dream would've taken.

" Oh good you're awake" the nurse, which was named Holly, said to me as she went over to my bed. " We've already called your dad, and he will be here any minute to take you home. Now, I need to talk to you before he arrives if that's okay with you"

I just nodded my head, and pushed myself into a more sitting position.

" Listen Kurt. It was sheer luck that you survived this. If your step brother hadn't found found you the time he did, you would've died. Now, I'm not going to lecture you about the dangers of self harm, because you've already experienced that. But I am going to tell you this. " she paused for a second, looking at the door as if to make sure that no one was listening. In fact, no one could've, because of the thick walls this hospital was build of.

" Whenever you feel like life is pulling you down, tearing you apart, I want you to call this number, okay? " she said, giving me a piece of paper. I looked at her confused. The number itself did not resemble any hotline number  I already knew about, but it looked like a regular number. She clearly saw my confused look, and answered the unasked question floating in the space between us. " It's my number" she said

" Okay, thanks but I don't need it" I just said, putting the piece of paper down onto my lap

" You may think that now, but it's easier for people who have done it once, to try one more time. And we don't want another episode like this to happen Kurt"

" But why do you care. If it did happen again, it would mean that I'm only helping you doing your job that you have an education for" I said dryly

She bit her lip slightly, letting out a sigh before she looked directly at me.

" I know what you're going through Kurt. I've been there myself. The exact position you are in now actually"

" What do you mean ... by.. the exact same position. " I asked her even more confused

" I tried to kill myself when I was 15, but I failed.. obviously. At that time I didn't have anyone around me.. quite literally. My parents were both in jail, and none of my friends knew about my condition. The nurse that was helping me back then, gave me her number and told me I could call her whenever. She was a kind lady, and it helped me so much. She was actually the one to encourage me to be a nurse " When she finished talking, she looked at the clock before she looked back up at me. " It was you mother Kurt."

Wait, what did you just say? I thought to myself.

" How do I know your not bluffing ? " asked her before I could stop myself.

" Her name was Elisabeth right? You and her used to have tea parties with apple strudels and pies, real ones, and you used to always bring you favorite teddy bear, a frog if I remember correctly. She was also the first person you came out to as gay, am I right ?"

Okay, this woman was starting to scare me. There was no way in hell that she could know any of that, because quite frankly, my mother was the only person who knew. I had to believe her, I simply had to.

" Y..yes. Thank you" I just said, when my brain had finally remembered how to make a coherent word.  She gave me smile and squeezed my hand slightly.

A few moments later, my dad came into the room, wearing a big smile on his face.

" Are you ready to go home?" he asked me

" Yes.. funnily enough I am" I answered back.

" I will go and fix the releasing papers. It won't take long" the nurse said, leaving me and my dad alone.

" I was thinking we could drive by that diner on the way home and get the milkshake you used to love. I could also pick up some food you'd want that as well" my dad said " But only if you want to Kurt"

" Dad ... thanks. I .." I started saying, wondering about what I wanted to tell him next " Do you think we could drive by Lima Bean? Then I could bring a cup of coffee to Blaine as well"

" Coffee? When did you start drinking coffee" he said letting out a chuckle " But okay. We do what you want"

" And then I want you to drive me to school" I finished before my dad could anything else " Please"

" School? Are you sure you're ready for that. I mean, literally just got out"

" I'll be fine. Just please dad. I need to go there" I pleaded, looking him directly in his eyes

" Sure. Whatever you want Kurt"

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The car drive to the school felt short. Okay, to be more honest, it wasn't short at all. In fact it quite long due to the fact that it was late in the afternoon, so there was a heavy traffic. And that we took a detour, stopping by the Lima Bean before my dad drove me to school. When we arrived, my dad stopped the car, and looked at me seriously.

" I want you to call me when you're on your way home Okay? "

" Okay dad" I said and gave him a quick hug.

I grabbed my bag tighter to my shoulder, and started walking toward the choir room. I knew there most likely wouldn't be anyone there, because it was still in the middle of the last class.

I reached the choir room, and it felt so familiar. But at the same time, it felt so out of space. The room, which only contained some chairs and a piano, was like home. In this very exact room, things had happened.

The choir room was my sanctuary. It was here I made friends. It was here I made enemies. But the most important part; it was here I felt loved.

I knew that I had the tendency to overdramatize, and that usually led my to piss of the others. But somehow, even in the darkest of the dark, I knew I was loved. And that's what probably gutted the most. To know that you, deep down, was loved but the ones around you. And even then, you managed to screw things up so badly.

I looked over at the clock hanging abouve the door. It was still 20 minutes until the class would end. Therefore, i went over to the piano, sat myself down, and touched the tangents.

It was beautiful. The piano I mean. It was amazing how something so simple, something white and black, could make extremely beautiful music, if one knew how to play it. I let my fingers swim over the tangents and pushed one of the carefully down, all while my head was searching for the perfect song. And then I started to sing.

'Share my life, take me for what I am
Cause I'll never change, all my colors for you'

I thought of Blaine. Blaine who had to suffer this. He who had to deal with me ruining my life

'Take my love, I'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are, and everything that you do'

I took a deep breath, closing my eyes, and pretended Blaine was there to listen

'I don't really need to look, very much further
I don't wanna go, where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
I can't run from myself, there's no need to hide'

Why did I do this to Blaine. Why did I try and kill myself. How could I've been so stupid to think it would work. I even managed to fail doing that

'Don't make close one more door, I don't wanna hurt anymore

Stay in my arms if you dare, or must I imagine you there

Don't walk away from me

I have nothing, nothing, nothing

If I don't have you, you, you, you, you'

It was weird to know how much one single person could mean to you. It was weird how one person could make you feel so many emotions at once, that you could explode.

'You see through , right to the heart of me

You break down my walls with the strength of your love'

It was true. Blaine did that.

'I never knew love like I've known it with you'

I opened my eyes, and to my surprise, the whole glee club was now sitting in the chairs, filling the empty space between me and them. Everyone was there, even Mr. Shue who uses to be late.

'Will a memory survive, one I can hold on to'

I looked directly at Blaine, who from what I could see, had tears in his eyes. I took a deep breath, stranding by fingers draping over the piano

'I don't really need to look very much further

I don't want to have to go where you don't follow

I won't hold it back again, this passion inside

I can't run from myself, there's nowhere to hide'

I noticed Blaine starting to get up from his seat, but Rachel grabbed his arm, pulling him back down. All the while his eyes were locked to mine

'Your love I'll remember forever

'Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore

Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there

Don't walk away from me, no
Don't walk away from me'

Blaine ripped himself out of Rachel's hold, got up and started walking toward me. I finished of the song, tears streaming down my face. And Blaine? Well let's just say he looked like a real lost puppy.

'Don't you dare walk away from me

I have nothing, nothing, nothing

If I don't have you, you, you, you

If I don't have you, oh oh'

As soon as I finished, I got up from the seat, Blaine fling his arms around me.

" I'm never walking away from you Kurt. Don't think for one second I will, okay. I know we've had a rough path, but I would never leave you. Not in a time like this, not ever" Blaine said, holding me tightly. I could feel him trembling. Trembling of sadness and love.

" I know Blaine. I.. " I pulled away a from the hug, and crashed my lips onto his.

It was magical.

Although we had shared kisses numerous times before, it had never felt like this. It was genuine. It felt like home. I pulled apart, catching my breath.

" I love you so much Blaine" I said, cause Blaine to crash his lips onto mine again, before pulling apart

" I love more Kurt. You.. you are my soulmate... and I ... I'm just so happy your back"

" Me too" I said smiled at him " Oh and by the way I brought you coffee!"

" The usual?"

" Of course" I said and gave him his cup, which now wasn't hot at all anymore.

" Kurt. That's song was really beautiful! And it was perfect for our weeks assignment as well" Mr. Shue said

The others also went over to me, and it all ended up in a round of them giving me hugs.

" We are really happy you're back Kurt" Quinn said

" Yeah. We were all so worried about you" Mike said, smiling at me

" You scared us. I mean really did it this time man" Puck said

" I don't know what I would've done without you Kurt. You are my boo" Mercedes said, wiping away some tears that had fallen down her cheek.

" I... I'm so sorry guys" I just simply said " If someone had told me cutting your wrist would hurt that much afterwards, I wouldn't have done it. I mean I even ruined my new Alexander McQueen shirt" this lead to them laughing. And it felt good. It really did.

" So Since Kurt started off this weeks assignment... probably unintentionally, who would like to go next!" Mr Shue asked after some time

" I would like to" Said Blaine, and went over to the piano. He sat himself down, adjusting the seat so it would fit his height. While the others, including me, was seating ourselves down in our chairs, anticipated about what Blaine Warbler would sing.

" So, I don't think it will come as a surprise that I dedicate this week's assignment to Kurt. "

" Yeah, yeah we know Blaine Warbler" Rachel said, making us all laugh again.

"Kurt .. while you were in the hospital, I .. I didn't know how to breath anymore. I couldn't understand how I would be able to live on if you died... and it was hard. But, I wrote a song one day, so here it goes"

Blaine started playing the piano gently, but at the same time with so much passion.

'I've been alone
Surrounded by darkness

I've seen how heartless
The world, can be

And I've seen you crying
You felt like it's hopeless

I'll always do my best
To make you see

That baby you're Not Alone
'Cause you're here with me

And nothings ever gonna bring us down
'Cause nothing can keep me from loving you

And you know it's true
It won't matter what it'll come to be

Our love is all we need to make it through'

Blaine pauses for a second, then lifted his head up, facing us.

'Now I know it ain't easy
But it ain't hard trying

Every time I see you smilin'
and I feel you so close to me
And you tell me

Baby, your Not Alone

'Cause you're here with me
and nothing's ever gonna bring us down
'Cause nothing can keep me from loving you

And you know it's true
It won't matter what it'll come to be,
our love is all we need
to make it through

Well I still have trouble
I trip and stumble trying to make sense of things sometimes
I look for reasons
But I don't need them
All I need is to look in your eyes
And I realize

That baby I'm not alone
'Cause you're here with me
and nothing's ever gonna bring us down
'Cause nothing can keep me from loving you
And you know it's true
It won't matter what it'll come to be,
our love is all we need
to make it through'

Blaine finished it off, leaving us all with a wet eye or two. He smiled brightly and walked over to me. He grabbed my hand, looked me directly in my eyes, and smiled.

" I meant every single word of it Kurt. You are not alone. Not anymore. Not ever"

" You are not alone either Blaine. I'm never saying goodbye to you" I said and hugged him tightly.

Even if Sebastian had his plan, even if Karofsky had his mission, nothing could stop me from feeling loved and wanted. And that was entirely because of Blaine.

Blaine got my heart, and he took care of it. However, if there was one thing I wish I would've known, was exactly how much that would be challenged in the next few weeks. Because to be honest, it was turning back to being hell. Only this time, it was ten times worse.

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A/N: Surprise!!! What?? I actually updated😅 hope you guys enjoyed this chapter. Comments and votes are always well appreciated

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