"I can't do this anymore" He sighed.

"what? what do you mean 'this'?" I sat up, a bit upset our cuddling session was interrupted.

"You know you love him, we both do," He said not making any sense.

"I have no idea who you're talking about but baby I only love you"

"No you don't, you love Roy-"

"We aren't having this conversation again Maddie, I already made it clear I don't like him, he's just a friend"

"Liam I'm tired of this, you keep repeating that and you're the best boyfriend I've ever had but I've seen the way you look at him, I can't compete with that"

"Babe, Roy is a friend, whatever you people are seeing is a fucking delusion I'm not in love with him" I sighed, wanting to drop this already, we've already had this conversation more times then I can count and I wanted was to just spend time with him.

"You practically faint when he looks at you! you denying this is like saying bears are hairless!" He sat up, looking hurt and slapping my hand away when I went to hug him "I can't do this anymore Liam, it hurts..."

"Maddie please, we've already been through so much together, don't let a stupid rumor break us apart" I pleaded, I really didn't want six months of commitment to just be thrown out the window like this.

"It's not a rumor! everyone seems to notice but you, I knew you were stubborn when we started dating but god, just move the smoke from your eyes it's so obvious" He raised his voice, getting frustrated.

"I'm pretty sure I know who I love and it's not him! I don't know how this bullshit started but everyone needs to stop believing everything they hear" I was got just as frustrated.

He huffed and scrambled out of bed grabbing his bag and jacket "My point still stands, once you get your shit sorted come find me" He hissed then slammed my door.

I stared after him until I heard the front door then sighed and buried my face in my hands gripping my hair, another one down the drain and I really got used to having him around, I grabbed my remote and chucked it at the wall watching as it bounced off and landed at my feet. my phone lit up and started blaring my ringtone making me look at it but it was from the last person I wanted to talk to during this so I just let it go to voicemail while I laid down and curled up.

I couldn't stop the few tears that fell down my face in frustration while my phone started blowing up, staying there for god knows how long before there was a small knock on my door as it opened, "You done ignoring me now?" a smooth deep voice asked.

I didn't answer and just wiped my face as the bed dipped at my feet, "Same argument?"

I huffed but still wouldn't answer him, he was used to this by now though "Listen, Liam... maybe its time to take a step back and look at the bigger picture, they wouldn't always say the same thing if there wasn't a reason behind it"

"There is no bigger picture!" I hissed, hurt still laced in my voice "I'm not in love with you and that's a fact! I want to punch whoever started this bullshit, it's ruining my love life"

Roy paused then let out a long sigh, leaning back and making the bed dip more, "I don't think anyone started it, I think there might just be a misunderstanding of a situation, someone assuming things and everyone going along with it"

"If it was a misunderstanding then why has it going on for years? we aren't in elementary anymore we have a totally different crowd around us, and yet-"

"Liam I'm going to be real with you, start listening to what others are saying, you're stuck in a pattern and the only way to get out of it is to take my advice, step away from everything for a moment and see where this stuff is stemming from, things like this don't appear out of thin air," he said bluntly.

I looked at Roy, his shoulder-length blackish blue hair looked wet like he just got out the rain, ghostly grey eyes staring back at me with piercing seriousness, pinkish lips set into a frown popping out against his pale lightly freckled skin, his bulky basketball player body laid effortlessly against my bed, torso slightly twisted toward me.

I hate this.

"I've done it multiple times! I even took a whole year break from dating and I still can't seem to see what they're seeing!"

"Then maybe go in with an unbiased view, you keep looking at things like there's a liar when really you need to put yourself in someone else's shoes and look at it that way, you're not getting anywhere seeing through your own eyes"

"God just, stop being a philosophy teacher for twelve minutes and make some damn sense!"

Roy sighed and ran a hand through his hair, pausing again before looking me dead in the eyes and saying "Get your head out your ass and try to understand your boyfriend"

I frowned, there was never a middle with him, either he was speaking riddles or he was being harsh, "You're a dick"

"But you know I'm right" he countered bluntly.

"And I wish you weren't" I grumbled then shoved my face into my pillow "I'll go talk to him tomorrow after school, he seemed pretty upset this time..."

"That I agree, he sounded very sad on the phone"

"That's why you're here?" I groaned then rolled over to my back "I really need to stop letting you give my partners your number"

"Eh, they like talking to me" he shrugged.

"No fair, you're going to end up stealing one of them" I huffed.

"Like they'd be interested in me" He rolled his eyes, sitting up and staring at his lap.

"With your looks and sense of humor? you practically have the entire state chasing after you"

"That'd be nice but I'm not that many peoples' type" he sighed then got up "anyway, stop moping around like a widow and do your damn school work, I can see the piles"

"Oh shut it" I groaned and rolled out of bed and pushing him out my room "I'll see you tomorrow, and stop knocking then immediately opening the door or I'm revoking your house key"

He chuckled as I shut the door, the sound echoing in my head while he walked down the hall, I only snapped out of it when I heard the front door close gently and I sighed walking over to my desk and plopping down in the chair so I could get started on my homework.

I am not in love with him.

________________________________________________________________________________At school 

"Maddie!" I run up to him just as he shut his locker.

"What are you doing?" He asked with a hurt and curious look "I doubt you figured it that quick so don't even bother talking to me"

"Well I didn't" I admitted sheepishly and he rolled his eyes turning to walk away "But I did do a lot of thinking last night and, please take me back, I promise to love you extra hard so you never have to worry again"

"It's not about me Liam, it's about you lying to yourself" I was about to deny that but he pressed his finger against my lips "You need to sort out your feelings before going around courting people, not just shove them down and ignore that they exist, because everyone is going to notice"

I paused for a bit then gently grabbed his hand and kissed the back of it "I don't need to do that because I know what I want, I love you, Maddie"

"I know you do, and I could feel it during our time together, but" He slid his hand out my own "You have a love that has been burning brighter and longer than mine and it's hard to ignore it, nor is it fair"

"Babe can you please just trust me for once when I say that I don't love anyone else" I pleaded with him, looking down at his gorgeous face with puppy dog eyes.

He bit his bottom lip chewing on it before his eyes looked off to somewhere else, "Prove it"

"How?" I asked, getting a bit hopeful when Roy appeared next to me with his usual blank expression.

"Kiss him"

"What? why?!" my face immediately fell as I looked between him and Roy, confused on what he wanted to prove with me doing that.

"If you can kiss him and not feel anything romantically I'll believe you and we can continue our date from yesterday, this is your last chance to prove it to me"

"Baby this is ridic-"

I didn't get to finish my sentence as Roy grabbed my jaw and shut me up by covering my mouth with his, his lips tasted like the medical lip balm that burns and his tongue tasted like pineapple upside-down cake, both flavors overwhelming me as his hand snaked from my jaw to the back of my neck and his arm wrapped around my waist pulling me close, I caught myself just as I was about to relax into him and shoved Roy off wiping my mouth, turning to Maddie, "Happy now?"

He gave me a small smile, his eyes glossy with tears but there was a tiny bit of satisfaction in there as he stood on his toes and kissed my cheek "Bye Liam"

As he walked away I stood there dumbstruck, I did what he wanted! why was he still rejecting me? I groaned in frustration gripping my hair tight enough to rip it out and leaned my head in the locker in front of me.

I'm not fucking in love with Roy!

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To be continued...

So that turned out shorter than usual, but that's fine because this is just part one! I'll probably start working on the second one later today but that's a bit if since my brain is like kinda ded right now, I mean nothing another can of coke can't do but I think I should rest a bit, what do you think about this chapter? was Maddie being too harsh in the end? was Liam being a ditz? your opinion on Roy? and what do you think will happen in the second chapter? questions questions questions.

Anyway I'mma finish my soda and lay down for a bit, if I do get my lazy ass up again and start writing you guys are in for a treat! take care and love you guys <3

Also for the love of Jesus wash your goddamn hands, we ain't havin no germs in this household.