Everyone says your sweet sixteen is going to be amazing, well not mine, it started pouring two minutes after the party started, thanks mom for the bright idea to have it outside, no one showed up, nor texted me a reason why they didn't and my crush of, well, since freaking middle school just dropped the bomb that he's moving as soon as school ends, two months from now, because he wants to be spontaneous and I couldn't say anything but good luck because he or anyone really doesn't know I'm not straight and will probably be disgusted with me if I told him I wanted to stay because my heart is gonna be shattered when he leaves.

My hair was still dripping down my fresh shirt when my phone was thrown across the room and into the bathroom attached to it, the back slamming into the tub with the sound of the case bouncing of it, tears where on the verge of spilling from the corners of my eyes but I refused to let them, so what if this day was shit? I have plenty more birthdays to celebrate that won't be, but it still hurts, because everyone kept getting my hopes saying this day was going to be great and something big was gonna happen and then life decided it had other plans, everyone who promised to be there a million times didn't even have the decency to tell me they couldn't make it, even if it was fucking last minute that's better then ghosting me.

My sweater sleeves covered my fingers as my hand aggressively wiped my cheeks and eyes when the tears couldn't be contained anymore, thank goodness I was home alone so I wouldn't be bothered, I sobbed until my eyes were too puffy and red to hide and I was on the verge of passing out, almost doing so until there was a bang on the door.

I stood up and lazily walked downstairs, looking into the peephole to see Jay, my stupidly adorable, dense as shit crush in that leather jacket he's had since it was way too big to fit him, my hands unlocked and opened the door before my brain even realized it, he looked a bit sheepish but smiled brightly when his eyes landed on me.

For two seconds.

"What's wrong?" He asked, now frowning.

"Nothing-"

"Then why are your eyes and nose red?"

"Doesn't matter, why are you here?" I leaned on the doorway, still extremely tired.

"Because it's someone's birthday and I care about him" He smiled again then looked into the house "where is everyone?"

"They didn't show" I sighed, staring at his boots "figured they had better plans then keeping promises"

"I-... Gale I'm so sorry, if I knew I'd been here sooner" He moved forward.

"It's fine, it could've been worse"

I could feel his eyes on my face never raised mine, we stood in silence for a moment before his arms wrapped around me and lifted me up, my legs instinctively locked on his waist and my arms draped tiredly on his shoulders before Jay walked in and shut the door, my eyes closed as I listened to him take off his boots and walk around the house.

First there was the sound of a grocery bag gently landing on the table, then the creak of stairs and finally the sound of him plopping on my bed, "Gale"

"Hm?" I hummed.

"You're obviously tired, so lay down and take a nap, I won't disappear when you wake up" He commanded softly.

I whined but got off him anyways, shifting so my head was on his lap and curled up, not even bothering with the blanket.

"Don't you want a pillow instead of a thigh?" He ran his hand through my hair so gently it was like he was afraid I'd shatter like glass, then added when I didn't answer "fine you can sleep on me but you need to learn to break this habit"

I smiled lightly in triumph then rubbed my cheek on his lap, getting comfortable as the hands of sleep pulled me deeper and deeper into unconsciousness, me telling myself I'm gonna kick his ass when he leaves in two months for sending me mixed signals these past six years was the last thought I had before passing out.

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My eyes fluttered open, staring at the wall for a minute before my body turned around to look at Jay, he was focused on his phone with a bored expression on his face, probably immediately after I was peaceful knocked out he laid on his back to wait for me to wake up and probably stayed like that the whole time, he's the type of person to do that every single time unless he ate something that made his stomach upset, then he'd wait for the person to fall asleep and silently run to the bathroom, I smiled softly at the memory of that happening the night of a bad TacoBell run, he still had no idea I saw that because he accidentally woke me up while trying to move my head.

"Finally awake sleeping beauty" His voice broke through my trance and my eyes flicked to him with that big beautiful smile on his face.

"Of course prince Philip" He laughed at my response.

"You always say that"

"And it always gets a good reaction" My hand traced his bicep up to his shoulder then squeezed.

His eyes glanced at my hand then my face "that is true"

We stared at each other in silence for a moment before Jay's phone went off and he glanced at it, slight jealousy entered my mind but was quickly pushed away, he can text whoever he wants and take his eyes off me whenever he wants. I sat up then slid off the bed, going into the bathroom to relieve myself and grab my phone, twelve minutes later he's still in the same position as I left him staring at the tiny screen, a small pout formed on my lips as my feet carried me out the room and downstairs into the kitchen to see what he'd left in here.

"Gale don't open that yet" Jay appeared magically just as I was about to look in the Walmart bag.

I looked at him as he came closer and moved the bag out of my reach, "I thought you were busy with your phone"

"Amelia can wait" The mention of his annoying little sister made me roll me eyes, "did you buy a cake?"

I blinked then stood silently thinking, but before I could come up with an answer he stared grabbing stuff from the cabinets, "never mind, whether you do or not, one you made yourself tastes so much better"

I smiled and leaned on the counter, Jay absolutely loves baking or making food in general, I've suggested that he go to culinary school because it'd be such a waste if he didn't get a chance to let this spark turn into a flame but he insists on keeping it a hobby, my mind focused on reality again when he set down a bowl in front of me, "as cute as you look daydreaming I'm putting you to work birthday boy, start mixing the dry ingredients"

I nodded as my cheeks flushed at his comment, he's always calling me cute or adorable and things like that so I shouldn't still be blushing at this but it got me every time.

We spent the next two hours messing with each other while making the batter and cooking dinner while the cake baked, I hadn't even realized it was chocolate, my favorite, until Jay set it on the counter to cool off, "perfect"

A smile spread on my face as he searched for something while I finished my food, watching him slide the chocolatey goodness onto a plate and opened a bag of seedless cherries, once he was finished he gently slid it to me, the number sixteen was on top using most of the cherries, "happy birthday G, hopefully next year isn't shit" Jay looked at me with a sheepish smirk.

"Hopefully, although I wouldn't mind if this day repeated itself"

He snickered then handed me the cake knife, I cut two pieces and gave him one, everything was peaceful in the comfortable silence as we ate, it was always like this with him, there couldn't possibly be a moment where it was tense or awkward, sure there was a disagreement here and there but it was impossible to stay mad at him, or at least for me it is, my heart started to beat so loud I could feel it in my ears as my eyes landed on his face, he wasn't paying attention to me, his focus on his plate that was nearly empty with a small frown like he was thinking hard about something, the urge to kiss that expression away grew until I had to look away and clutch my chest to calm down, the sound of Jay chuckling only made it worse, "don't tell me you managed to get heartburn from a cake, I didn't even put cinnamon in it this time"

I could feel my face turn beet red and looked at the floor "it's not heartburn"

"Then why are you holding your chest like that?" He still sounded amused but now slightly worried.

"N-nothing I'm fine now" I stuttered after pausing a bit.

I couldn't exactly say "because you look hot as fuck right now and I want to kiss you" that'd be weird and dropping two bombs at once, I heard him sigh then feel him pat my head, "you're so random at times"

I pouted and looked at him with my eyes slightly narrowed, he just laughed, "don't give me that face, you know it's true"

"Meanie"

"How am I a meanie when I just made you a cake?" Jay snickered.

"Still a meanie"

He playfully rolled his eyes, those gorgeous, gorgeous eyes.

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Two months later

Shit shit shit! I woke up late, only two minutes late but still late.

I barely gave myself time to wake up as I rushed getting ready then running downstairs, almost tripping but thankfully my determination to get to the train station before six thirty didn't let me fall, "hold on young man" My father called out just as I finally had on my shoes properly, "where are you going?"

"Need to get to the station, now" I stood up and flung the door open "I'll call you to pick me up"

"Now wait a minute-" He didn't get to finish as I shut the door and began running to the train station.

I probably should've called a lyft or something but I didn't want to have to wait on someone and I was making good time on foot anyway, finally after running the distance of two marathons like a two headed demon was chasing me my feet skidded to a halt on the platform where everyone waited for the trains, with surprisingly fifteen minutes to spare.

My eyes scanned the crowd and landed on Jay sitting alone on a bench, his jacket next to him as if saving a spot, I walked over to him and sat down before I passed out, "woke up on the wrong side of the bed?" He asked with a smirk.

"No, just didn't take a car here" I wheezed.

He chuckled and ruffled my hair, "you really need to stop and think sometimes, running is good but your house is two minutes away from here by car"

"I woke up late"

"Why didn't you say anything? If you texted me I would've had my dad pick you up, the train is being delayed anyway" His tone turned slightly stern, as if he was scolding a child.

Even that is gonna be something I miss about him, "I was barely awake when I ran out the house"

He sighed and shook his head, "try to wake up before you make decisions while I'm gone"

I just nodded and the conversation died, we listened to the sound of chattering and footsteps on wood, thoughts of what life was going to be like when he's gone filled my mind, some of it was good, like finally not feeling like my heart was about to burst everytime he came out the shower, but there were a lot of bad ones.

No more sleeping on his lap, no more all nighters when we just feel like it, no more surprise visits to his house when I'm feeling lonely, no more me taking bets of how much of a certain thing I can eat before feeling sick and him scolding the hell outta me for being stupid, no more him appearing when I'm upset and need someone, no more comfortable silence, no more of anything with him, sure he'll call me and probably visit but for how long? He's going to move on in life and I'm going to be stuck missing him like a dog misses their owner when they leave for work, except he's not leaving for work, he's leaving the state to move, sure I'll get over it but it's gonna hurt like fuck for a while, like now.

"G?..... Gale? What's wrong?" Jay interrupted my thoughts.

I looked at him confused then felt something wet hit the back of my hand, my fingers reached up and touched my cheek, it was wet, I had apparently started crying without know it for I don't know how long, my sleeves covered my hands and I used it to wipe my face, "n-nothing, I'm fine"

"You're obviously not" He huffed.

Feelings of frustration started to prick at me, I am fine! I'll be fine, why does he have to care so fucking much, more tears rolled down my face only to be quickly wiped away, "it's nothing"

"Gale if it really was nothing you wouldn't be crying in the middle of a train station" Speak of the fucking devil, his train pulled up just as he finished his sentence, "tell me what's wrong"

"Nothing is goddamn wrong! J-.. Just get in your damn cart before you miss the stupid train"

"Listen, if you have a problem just tell me, I'm not gonna be mad or shut you down" He was noticeably getting frustrated too.

I glared at the wooden floor of the platform and sniffed, why can't I just stop these stupid tears, or at least hold them until he's on the stupid train and I'm in bed, "you'll hate me..."

"I won't hate you, we've spent almost every second of the last six years together, now please tell me what's wrong" He softened his voice.

My body shook and the tears ran down faster, he's going to be disgusted with me a just know it, but he's also not getting on the train until I tell him what's bothering me, "I..... I don't want you to leave...."

"That's it?" He said relieved "why didn't you just tell me?"

"I-its not just that, it hurts, my h-heart hurts" He stayed silent so I exhaled with my jaw clenched "I-... I love you Jay, you're my best friend and I've liked you since the beginning, now you're l-leaving m-me, it fucking hurts"

When my eyes looked up from the ground to his face it was expressionless, for the first time since we met I couldn't read his emotions, my eyes fell back to the wood as a sob built in my throat, the conductor yelled for a last call as the few people left got into the train, it was going to leave soon, less then five minutes most likely.

I was about to stand up and leave, assuming he rejected me and the ache in my chest getting too much, when he wrapped an arm around me and pulled my body closer to his, my face hit his chest and finally I broke, no longer caring that I was outside in broad daylight crying like a child who just lost his dog, my sobs were muffled by his shirt and we stayed like that until I'd calm down to the occasional sniffle, my throat was dry and eyes irritated as I pulled back to wipe the mess off my face.

"I-I'm s-sorry, you should probably b-be leaving now, they aren't gonna w-wait for you" My throat hurt just from forcing that out.

"I change my mind" He whispered softly, moving the hair that was stuck to my face.

"Wh-what?..."

"I said I change my mind" He repeated "you think I'm cruel enough to up and leave when you just confessed that? It wouldn't be fair for either of us"

"B-but-"

"But nothing" He pulled me toward him again "I've waited four years for you to say those words, why do you think I told you I was moving?"

"Because it's rude as hell to leave without saying something...."

"Guess I'm rude then, no one but you and my dad knew I was leaving the state, I gave you two months to decide if you wanted to come with me but you never said anything about it besides telling me you'd come see me off yesterday, a truly spontaneous person wouldn't have done that"

"Then.... Why did you want to leave?"

"Because I wanted something new, at the time I felt like if I were ever to get anything I want I needed to start new, but now I change my mind because now everything I need is with me"

The train loudly came to life and started to pull out of the station, confirming that Jay really isn't leaving, for some reason it put a small smile on my face.

"Well I'm glad, because it really would've sucked to not be able to eat ice cream with you at three in the morning again..."

He chuckled, "that was one time, but yes it would suck if we didn't get another opportunity"

I leaned my head on his shoulder and scooted closer "could we...."

"Do it again tonight?"

"Hell yeah"

"I'll ask my dad to stop at the store on the way home" He pulled out his phone.

I smiled more and closed my eyes, "hey Jay...."

"Yeah G?"

"Will you be my boyfriend?"

"Aren't you supposed to take me on a date first?" My eyes opened and I playfully glared at him, he laughed and held his hands up defensively "I'm kidding I'm kidding, nothing on this planet would make me happier"

I smiled again and shifted so I was sitting up then cupped his face in my hands, making him look at me, he raised a brow with a smirk tugging his lips.

That I finally got to kiss.

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Hey guys! This is probably the longest one-shot I've ever wrote totaling up to 3156 words, my thumbs hurt help.

But anyway, some feedback would be really appreciated! I'd love hearing your thoughts on this, was it too sappy? Did the characters annoy you? Do you not like the way I wrote it? Do you want a part 2?

Until next time! Now I'mma go pass out.