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"Are you sure you want to come with us, sweet one?" Harry asked, looking up at Louis with furrowed brows from his desk chair

"Answer hasn't changed since the last forty time, babe" Louis told him, a fond smile on his face as he looked down at Harry from his position on the desk

"Ah, so that was just my wishful thinking?" Harry quizzed playfully

Louis grinned at this "Oh, most definitely" he replied, raising his eyebrows at Harry in a challenging way

Harry hummed in reply "Sure I can't tempt you in any way?" He quizzed

"Absolutely not" Louis told him "Though I am a tiny bit worried about flying" he admitted

Harry blinked at this "Flying is absolutely awful" he lied "The worst experience in the world" he blurted "It's traumatic, honestly, I would rather shoot myself in-"

"Harry, shut up" Zayn cut him off quickly, striding into the man's office with a stack of papers in his arm "Ignore him, Louis" he added softly, dumping the pile of papers onto Harry desk next to Louis and leaning forwards to rest his chin on boy's shoulder "He told me that it did a loop-de-loop as it set off" he said

Harry smiled in amusement "Your own dumb fault for believing it" he stated

"So it doesn't do anything crazy?" Louis quizzed shyly

Zayn snorted at this, drawing back and wrapping his arms around Louis from behind "Of course not" he promised "It's all smooth sailing, darlin', trust me"

"Smooth flying, actually" Harry corrected in a muttered tone, causing for Zayn to glare at him

"The point is" Zayn said to Louis "It's absolutely fine" he promised "Harry even made sure we fly in his best jet this time 'round" he added

"You did?" Louis quizzed, eyeing Harry with a shy smile

Harry shrugged guiltily "Even if I don't agree with your decisions, doesn't change the fact that you deserve the best" he pointed out "The flight will be perfect, little one, I'm sorry for trying to scare you"

"Yeah, you'd better be" Zayn scolded "What you playing at, arsehole? He could have passed out or something" he snapped

Harry glared at him "Shut up, Zayn" he huffed

Zayn frowned right back at him "How 'bout you shut up for once?" He quizzed

"Boys, play nice please" Louis cut in, looking between them with a pout "C'mon" he pleaded

Harry threw Zayn a final scowl before turning to Louis with a smile "Sorry" he muttered

Zayn ruffled Louis' hair in an apologetic way "I'll see you later, bro" he promised, giving the boy's shoulder a soft squeeze before leaving the room

Once he'd gone, Louis raised his eyebrows at Harry expectantly, making the older man shuffle uncomfortably

"You gonna give me that look, baby?" He quizzed "Really?" He asked, lips twitching into an amused smile

Louis nodded at him "You said you'd stop being so mean to everyone" he reminded

"I said sorry" Harry defended and Louis smiled softly "M'just stressed about all of this, alright?" He explained "I-I don't like the thought of you coming with us"

Louis pouted at this, slightly offended "Y-you all keep telling me that I'm one of you guys and then stuff like this happens and I'm meant to just s-sit back and stick my head under the sand like it's not happening" he stated

"Louis, that's not-"

"Well it is happening, and it is a part of my life now" he argued "What's it going to take for you to finally include me as one of you?" He asked "O-or am I just going to be second best forever?"

Harry fish mouthed at this "That's not-" he cut himself off, swallowing "I-I didn't mean to-"

"I know" Louis cut in softly "I'm sorry" he mumbled

"Don't be sorry" Harry told him gently "I didn't mean it that way" he promised

"I know" Louis repeated, reaching out and making grabby arms for Harry "I know that you didn't mean that, but it still feels like that" he admitted

"I don't mean for it to feel that way" Harry stated softly, pulling Louis forwards so that the boy was on his lap on the office chair

Louis smiled at this, resting his head on Harry's chest and snuggling into him "Well then, could at least pretend to be excited about me coming with you?" He questioned, looking up at the man with doe eyes "Please?" He quizzed "For me?"

Harry smirked without realising, looking down at Louis fondly "Anything for you" he replied, and he meant it

***

The day of the France trip came soon enough and Louis was near enough trembling once they were taking the short car journey to the private airport

"Sweetheart" Harry said softly, placing his large hand on top of Louis' bouncing leg to still it "What's wrong?" He quizzed

"Nothing" Louis replied shyly, leg still shaking

"Baby" Harry pressed, resting his head on Louis' shoulder "Tell me" he urged gently

Louis pouted, resting his head on top of Harry's "M'scared" he whispered, only letting Harry hear "Only a tiny bit" he added quietly

"Baby" Harry repeated softly, rubbing at Louis' thigh and giving it a gentle squeeze; Louis whined softly, nuzzling into Harry's touch "It'll be fine, my love" the older man promised "Give me a kiss, baby" he said, tilting his head upwards to kiss the boy softly "I'll look after you" he assured, continuing to rub Louis' thigh in a soothing way

"You told me that it was scary" Louis whined, cuddling into Harry's side

Harry felt a sudden pang of guilt at this "I was kidding, Louis" he promised "It's not that bad" he told the boy

Louis was still unsure but nuzzled into Harry's side nonetheless "Better not be" he replied "I'll never trust you again" he warned

Harry smiled at this "Wouldn't blame you" he stated "Though I assure you that it'll be fine" he said once more "I'll do everything I can to ensure it"

Louis smiled right back "Know you will" he promised "M'still a little nervous" he said

Harry nodded in agreement "Remember the first time I flew" Harry told him "I was shaking the whole flight" he said, taking Louis' hands in his own "Didn't help that I was alone" he added

"Where were you going?" Louis asked him

"Mexico" Harry answered

"Alone?" Louis quizzed, brows furrowed

Harry nodded in reply "Yeah" he said "Had to ensure my first deal with another boss" he explained "I was beyond nervous" he admitted "It either went well or they killed me"

Louis frowned at this "Makes me upset" he admitted "You know, to think of you like that" he explained, cuddling into Harry to comfort the man, and somehow forgetting about his own nerves

"Came out the other side, didn't I?" Harry quizzed, leaning his head onto Louis' "Found you" he added softly

"Found me" Louis repeated gently, taking one of Harry's hands in his own "And I found you" he said

Harry hummed in agreement, giving Louis' hand a soft squeeze in a reassuring way "Found each other" he stated "And thank God for it" he added, smiling

Louis nodded, fondness evident in his smile

"Are you still scared, little one?" Harry quizzed, pressing a kiss to the boy's hair

The blue-eyed boy shook his head softly "No" he answered, and it was true. Because what was there to be afraid of with Harry by his side?

***

"Wasn't that bad now, was it, my love?" Harry quizzed, stroking Louis' cheek softly

Louis shrugged slightly "It was quite nice" he stated "But my ears feel funny" he told Harry, rubbing at them in frustration

Harry smiled at this, taking Louis' hands in his own "It'll pass" he promised, holding his hand out for Louis to take

Louis gladly accepted the man's hand, letting Harry lead him towards the hotel that they were set to check into "Where are the boys going?" Louis questioned, noticing that the car that they had rented hadn't pulled up alongside them

"I sent them out" Harry stated, smiling at Louis "Though we could have some time alone" he added "You look exhausted, sweetheart" he said softly "Thought I could take care of you"

Louis couldn't help but blush as he smiled "That sounds nice" he replied, letting Harry lead him into the hotel, he blinked in shock as Harry opened the door and revealed the interior "This is beautiful" he said

Harry hummed in agreement "It's a shame that we don't come here more often" he admitted "It was one of my first holiday homes" he added, looking around the hotel that he'd bought out

Louis looked around the open plan hallway with winding stairs and a visible living room "You have more?" He quizzed

Harry listed the placed where he'd secured a holiday home (from Canada to Jamaica) as he gave Louis a tour of the house

And after they'd done, Harry ran Louis a bath and ordered the boys to bring food back with them when they came home

Harry was never the romantic type, per se, but with Louis he wanted to be his best self; he wanted to make the boy happy, wanted to make him smile, more than anything else in the entire world

And so he found himself adding random ointments and expensive liquids to the bathwater and sprinkling rose petals around the edges in a decorative manner

Harry was never the romantic type. But he'd sure as hell try his best for Louis

His sweet boy thanked him profusely before getting into the bathtub. Harry knocked before re-entering the large bathroom to shave in the mirror across from the bath

He used a straight edge razor alongside white foam to shave off the remains of his beard, which was beginning to get far too stubbly for his personal liking

"Would you like to get in?" Louis asked softly, clearly shy at the suggestion

Harry blinked in shock, not knowing what to reply for a second "I-I don't know" he admitted "Is that what you want?" He asked gently

Louis seemed nervous at Harry words "I-I mean...uh- y-yeah, I don't mind if you don't" Louis stuttered out, the words catching in his throat

Harry wiped the remaining shaving cream from his face with a damp face cloth before striding over to Louis and kneeling beside the tub. His fingers reached out to touch Louis' chin, tilting the boy's head up to look at him

"Baby, there's nothing I'd love more if you're sure that you feel comfortable" he answered softly

"M'comfortable with that" Louis promised "With you" he added quietly

Harry smiled at this "That means everything to me" he admitted, reaching out to stoke Louis' damp cheek softly

Louis smiled, face still flushed a soft pink shade

"Want me to get in now?" Harry questioned, slowly withdrawing his long fingers from Louis skin

The smaller boy nodded slowly and Harry smiled right back, saying nothing as he left the room and returned in a towel mere seconds later

"Wanna move forwards, sweetheart?" He asked softly, touching Louis on the shoulder when he returned "That alright for you, little one?" He quizzed

"That's alright" Louis repeated gently, moving himself forwards so that Harry could climb in behind him

Louis didn't look when Harry dropped his towel, allowing the green eyed man the same privacy and respect that he always gave. And so Louis felt Harry before he could see him, the way his legs splayed either side of Louis' own, the way his chest felt against Louis' back

"Is this okay, angel?" Harry questioned once he was seated

"Perfect" Louis promised, leaning back into the man

And Harry could feel Louis, all smooth and flushed again him. Every inch of the boy was magic, dark and dangerous and entirely worth fighting for

Harry wrapped his arms around the boy messily, just holding him close. The feeling that Harry got in his heart was overwhelming; just to hold Louis was enough to make any man cry

But Harry wasn't any man. So he didn't cry. He smiled

He felt it in his chest. Pure affection and appreciation for the boy in his arms; he never wanted to let go

"Baby, you're suffocating me" Louis joked, letting himself be held by Harry, completely allowing the man to wrap his arms around him

"Just want to hold you forever like this" Harry whispered against the damp skin of his neck, slowly withdrawing himself

Louis leaned back into his touch "Didn't have to stop" he said softly

Harry hummed softly "Thank you" he said quietly, wrapping his arms back around the boy

"For what?" Louis quizzed gently in amusement "Letting you hug me?"

"For making me feel worthy of you" Harry whispered

***

Of course, after some time had passed, Harry got out of the tub, wrapping a towel around himself before closing his eyes as he held one out for Louis, letting the boy stand before he wrapped him in it

And then Harry let him dress in the bathroom as he himself dried off in the bedroom; when Louis finally returned he was wearing Harry's white shirt. It swallowed him, the top half practically falling off of his shoulders and exposing his sharp collar bones, and the bottom half almost reaching his knees. His hair was still damp and his skin was still soft and Harry gazed at him in awe

Louis looked different like this; in this city and this light. The golden boy, glowing as if his skin was made of the stars. Harry could stare at him for an eternity and never grow tired of his sight. How pretty he was in all white, like an angel with only the purest of intentions. The way he smiled was infectious and Harry couldn't help but smile back

He was lightning. Beautiful and frightening; he made Harry scared and vulnerable all at the same time. Nothing else, no one else, made him feel this way. Louis was someone who Harry wanted to protect at all costs; he'd give his life, if necessary for Louis' own to be preserved

"You're staring at me, Harry" Louis said shyly, looking down at his feet and smiling

Harry melted like candle-wax "You're beautiful" he said simply

"Stop it" Louis mumbled, hiding his face in his hands in embarrassment

Harry looked at him, eyes hooded and dazed "I can't" he admitted, blinking at the boy in awe

"You're beautiful, but I don't do this to you" Louis told him "It's embarrassing"

"I can't help it" Harry said, voice soft "Come here, angel" he added, holding out his arms

And Louis was, an angel that is; at least in Harry's eyes. A guardian angel, a saviour and everything that he needed for redemption

Louis finally walked over, radiating light as he did so "I wish you wouldn't" he said quietly, climbing onto the bed besides Harry and laying against him

"Wouldn't what?" Harry quizzed, wrapping his arms around Louis "Be kind to you?" He joked "You're entirely out of luck, little one, because I'll treat you this kindly until the day I die" he promised

Louis hid his face into Harry's chest, whining lowly "You're just-ugh" he whispered, pressing the words into Harry's skin "You're making me shy" he admitted, curling into the man's side "Stop it"

Harry chuckled at this, holding Louis tighter "Making you shy, baby?" He quizzed, pulling back slightly to catch a glimpse of Louis' reddened cheeks "Look so pretty when you're all flushed for me"

Louis tilted his head up to look at the man "Shut up" he said softly, tone whiny, frustrated and entirely shy. He lifted his head up further to kiss Harry softly, their lips meeting for a couple of seconds

It was Harry's turn to flush pink, cheeks tinted to the colour of a rose petal and lips quirking into a smile as Louis pulled back and pinched his right cheek

And well, Louis could make Harry shy too it seemed

***

The following day was a lot less relaxed, with four gang members discussing their plans for what to do next

"I miss our planning room" Niall complained "This isn't even 'plan worthy'" he stated, looking around the dining table with a pout

Zayn elbowed him "God, shut up" he grumbled "Honestly" he tutted, shaking his head as he flicked through a file

"Find anything?" Harry quizzed, eyeing Zayn hopefully

Zayn shrugged "Nothing we didn't already know" he admitted "Though it does help to look back at old files with a fresh view" he stated "Makes you see thing in a way you never did before, you know?"

Harry hummed in agreement "Yeah, I know" he said "Got a fresh view on anything in particular?" He questioned

Zayn half nodded "Just forgot how many people hate us" he joked "Apart from that, it comes in handy to know the nearest warehouses that we had listed in here" he added "Always a good location to start looking"

Liam nodded "Close by as well" he cut in "And word on the street is that they've been busier that usual lately" he added

"Who said that?" Zayn quizzed

"Paul" Liam answered "Always has something useful to say" he stated

"Clever fucker" Niall added in "Always right as well"

Harry smirked at this "We'll check out these warehouses" he said "But I do have somewhere to go today" he added

"Where?" Zayn quizzed

"Nothing important" Harry replied with a shrug and Zayn glared at him

"Harry, where?" Liam quizzed sharply, wanting an answered

"None of your business" Harry snapped, scowling at Liam

Louis sighed at this "Harry" he said softly "Where are you going?" He asked from across the room

Harry looked over towards him quickly "Nowhere of interest, little one" he promised "Just checking some things out around here"

"You should take someone with you" Louis instructed "It's not safe" he added

Harry smiled at this "I'll be fine, sweetheart" he promised

"You can't promise me that" Louis replied "Take Zayn"

"Darling" Harry said softly "I will text you every hour" he assured

"Every half hour and you bring me back some ice cream" Louis bargained

Harry smiled at this "Deal" he said easily

***

Harry was a liar

And it hurt him deeply to even admit it

He lied to everyone around him. His friends, his inner circle and the one he loved the most. It was no longer a choice to tell the truth, as it was too hard to do so

He had his own theories on what had gone wrong in France and he intended to fix them on his own, as he was the one who had caused them in the first place

Harry didn't want to tell the group; didn't want them to know that he'd let them down once more due to his poor judgement. It was bad enough the first time

Unsaved number: I'll be there in five

Harry sighed, eyes fluttering shut as he let the wind blow through his hair as he stood on the familiar rooftop

This is what freedom should feel like, he thought to himself. Except he felt trapped in a way that only concerned his soul. He was damned anyway, he knew that; killing anyone was a sin worse than no other, but to kill a soul that wasn't as disgustingly evil as the rest. That was one thing he'd never done

The hatch swung open and a man climbed through, a warm smile spread across his all too familiar face ~~~

"This gives me the craziest sense of deja vu" he said, walking over to Harry and crossing the rooftop

Harry hummed is the at this "Apart from this time it's just me" he said "Me and you"

"Definitely deja vu" he replied "I'm talking five years ago and velvet sheets" he added with a smirk "Careful, Styles, I'm a taken man this time around"

"So am I, Yanis" Harry stated

Yanis hummed "So I've heard" he replied

"I'm here with one job" Harry told him "And this time I won't let sentiment cloud my judgement"

"What are you talking about?" Yanis quizzed

"I know what you did" Harry replied simply

Yanis shrugged "I'm not following" he stated

"I know" Harry repeated "Don't deny it, I know" he said

The look on Yanis' face faltered slightly "Know what exactly?" he asked

"Why don't you tell me?" Harry replied

"I think you've gotten the wrong idea-" Yanis started

"I've got nothing except terrible regret that I spared you the first time 'round" Harry cut him off

Yanis' eyes widened immediately "Woah woah" he said quickly "You're mistaken" he blurted "Whatever you think, you're mistaken"

"You lied" Harry snapped "There's more of them and you led them to me in England!"

"I-I-" Yanis swallowed, intimidated by the sound of Harry's voice "That's not true"

"Don't fucking lie to me" Harry growled "Don't even fucking try to or I'll cut out your tongue" he warned "I didn't tell the others what you did but it didn't take me long to figure it out" he stated "Seen as you were the only one who knew about us being here"

"I didn't mean for them to follow you" Yanis rushed out "Honestly, I didn't" he promised "But they just-"

"How many?" Harry questioned firmly

"Harry, I don't-"

"How many are there?" Harry screamed, causing Yanis to jump

"A-a lot" he choked out "Fifteen, maybe more" he added "And that's just in France"

Harry's nose twitched "Why did you lie to me?" He asked finally, voice chilling

"I-I admit that I was a little jealous" he said "You really care about someone" he added "I wanted that, all those years ago and you never cared"

"Did you tell them about him?" Harry questioned, tone firm

"No" Yanis replied immediately "God, no" he repeated

"You swear it?" Harry quizzed

"On everything I own" Yanis promised

Harry nodded at this, visibly calmer as he pulled a gun from his pocket "And you never will" he said

Yanis swallowed, shuffling backwards and holding up his hands in fright "Harry" he said quickly "N-no Harry, fuck! Don't"

"I don't want to" Harry admitted "He wouldn't want me to" he added "But I must" he stated "To keep him safe"

"I'll never tell!" Yanis rushed out "I'd never tell anyone of him" he cried "I promise you, I'll never mention him" he rambled "You have my word"

Harry shrugged simply "I can't trust you anymore" he stated, cocking his gun

"Harry, please" Yanis begged "I'm sorry! I-I- oh my god" he cried "Fuck, please don't do it" he pleaded "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry"

"So am I" Harry told him, squeezing the gun in his hands

"God, please" Yanis shouted "Non, s'il vous plaît ne le faites pas, ne le faites pas" (No, please don't do it, don't do it)

"Stop" Harry ordered "Fuck! Stop talking damn it!" He shouted, clenching the gun between his sweating hands

"Je ne te trahirai plus jamais. Je suis désolé, je suis désolé" (I wont ever betray you again. I'm sorry, I'm sorry) He rambled "Don't kill me! Please don't kill me, Harry" he choked out in panic

Harry blinked away tears and cast his eyes up to the sky "I'm sorry" he replied, voice strained "Fuck, I'm sorry" he repeated

"Don't, oh God don't" Yanis croaked out

Harry squeezed his eyes shut "I'm sorry" he repeated "But I love him" he whispered before pulling the trigger

When Harry opened his eyes, there was silence. A dull sound to match the dull city. Lifeless and grey and dampening with every drawn out second that passed

Harry felt his legs give way and, without thinking, he was on the floor, face tucked into his hands and knees against his chest

"Fuck!" He screamed at nothing, the air swallowing his anger

He glanced over to the body on the floor, blood pooling around it

"Fuck!" He yelled again, throwing his gun to the floor with a clatter and running a hand over his distressed face

The buzzing of his phone was what snapped him into reality

He answered with a hoarse voice "What?" He barked down the line

"Uh, where the hell are you?" Zayn's voice sounded "Louis is worried" he stated "He's asking why you didn't return his texts"

Harry frowned, tearing his phone from his ear to glance down at the screen full of notifications "Fuck" he grumbled

"Yes, fuck indeed" Zayn replied "Where are you?" He questioned once more

"I'm-" Harry cut himself off, looking around "You don't want to know" he stated

"Uh, like fuck I don't" Zayn snapped "Give me the address, I'm coming to get you"

"Is everything alright?" Harry heard Louis ask

"Everything's fine" Zayn told him "He just needs a lift" he lied "Harry, where are you?" He asked firmly

"If I tell you then you can't tell anyone" Harry replied firmly "I'm serious, Zayn" he added

"Alright" Zayn said, tone laced with confusion "Give me the damn address"

OOOH

Larry in this was too much for me :') so cute, I wanna cry

A cliffhanger, kinda! Hope you guys enjoyed as much as I did! The more responses I get to the questions, the quicker I will update as I use these answers for the next chapter! x

Questions:

Did Yanis deserve to be killed? Why did it upset Harry to do it? :(

Should/will Harry tell the boys what he did?

Why did he do that alone?

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