a.n.

ok fair warning this chapter is not romanticized, dont make it that way. dont romanticize abuse or rape. this chapter doesnt fully portray rape but it has themes of it, please no hate, i have warned you so here is your trigger warning. 
Thanks for reading

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rey's p.o.v.

I gasp awake beads of sweat covering my body, I open my eyes but am met by darkness once again. the dry cloth still shoved uncomfortably into my mouth causing me to gag,
where am I?

I sense someone walking in my direction and I lift my chin to them to tell them I'm aware of their presence

"you know that wasn't very attractive rey of jakku" the voice announces to me

I mumble incoherent curses and jerk around in the chair trying to loosen the restraints on my arms and legs.

I stiffen and hold my breath, the person is now right next to my head and is breathing quite heavily, making me feel like prey under the hold of my mysterious predator.

"you know I usually like to keep the cloth for the bedroom, but with you I can definitely make an exception." he whispers near my ear making me shudder in disgust

he forcefully pulls the sack off my head and throws it to the side he scales me, looking me up and down licking his lips

" even more so knowing it'll absolutely kill ben solo, but you won't mind would you?" he asks venom laced in his voice

I look around the room trying to find something to knock him unconscious, for just enough time to get out of here, but no luck. my brain is in shambles I can't seem to concentrate on the red head circling me, my vision keeps blurring in and out and voices are screaming in my head trying to tell me what to do,

telling me this isn't right rey, ben would be disappointed with you, 

then in the front of my mind the loudest voice screams at me, the voices I deal with telling me I deserve what is happening to me that I'm worthless I deserve the treatment the redhead is showing me.

your precious ben isnt here to save you, you have to save yourself

he traces my shoulders and brushes his pale fingers across my collar bone leaving faint kisses on my neck and ears, I try to shake him off and scream at him through the cloth receiving nothing but a dark chuckle

" you dont mind this do you rey." he whispers

I shake my head  rapidly, this is not what I want no please someone, fear takes over my body and I start to shake a few tears escape rolling down my cheek

he kisses the tears off my cheeks " no need to cry scavenger I will take care of you, unlike your pitiful boyfriend."

Those words rang through my ears making me feel sick bringing back memories I've tried so hard to push back

the tears will not stop and I cant stop shaking, I cant think my mind is blank I no longer feel like myself, I feel myself slip away a piece of me I didn't even know existed, something I hadnt felt slip since my parents left

He pulls the cloth from my mouth and I gasp from holding in the stuffy air, he kisses the sides of my lips as I try to jerk my head away from him.
He jerks my head to look directly at him, his grip on my face tightening as he forcefully kisses my lips he shoves his tongue in my mouth
I bite down hard feeling a bit of blood left on my teeth

"Why you son of a -" he raised his hand to slap me

I look in his eyes freezing him for only a moment "you will let me go and forget I was ever here" I announce
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I stand in the door way and listen to unkar and his cretins discuss money when something catches my attention

"Come on unkar 20 credits" one of them bargains

Unkar grunts and shakes his head "she is my most skillful scavenger I will not" I smile at him standing up for me, he usually took a dislike to me

"Hmm well I just wanted her for the night, how about 1000 credits for a bit of affection" he chuckles darkly and pulled a clanking bag from his coat

I stared at them usure of the situation it had only been about 10 years since I was left on jakku and I've never heard this kind of selling before what were they planning?

"Hehe yes you will enjoy her her body is at it's ripest and it will give you much pleasure"unkar grinned and snatched the money from the buyers hand

What's going on here what are they buying?
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Screams rang through my ears, I fought long and hard to push him off me but he wouldn't stand for it

He had taken me, I was lifeless I had no idea what had happened I trusted unkar and he told me he would treat me nice, so did the man laying beside me his arm locked around me trapping me in misery, the last thing I remember was the sound of ragged breaths and endless pain.
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I unfreeze him causing him to slap me across the face my head hitting the side of the chair with immense force
I seeth  and spit at him

"You will let me go and forget I was ever here" I command to him

He completely disregards my command continues on, he lowers himself to my waist and I begin to sob there truly is nothing for me to do, I wish I would have never left jakku in the first place, I wish I had never met kylo ren.
he ignores me and lifts up the hem of my shirt leaving wet kisses on my skin

" I will treat you better than that traitor kylo ren ever did" he whispers into my skin as he begins to unbutton my pants

I stiffen and release the last of my tears, I cant move and i cant breathe I stop struggling and let out a whimper as he pulls my cargos to my ankles leaving me vulnerable. the only thing covering me is a old wraps a tan t shirt and black under wear. my vision blurs over completely I squint my eyes shut as tightly as possible, as a still small voice tells me how disgusted it is with me. The same voice that yelled at me as a child telling me I was supposed to protect my body and I could do nothing to stop him

I look down and see him unbuckling his belt still kissing my hips, I squirm and try to scream

He pulls his hand back and leaves a large red print on my cheek
"You'll thank me for this someday scavenger"

I can't breathe, I can't see, this was supposed to be a special moment my first time, but he is disregarding that he knows what he wants and will take

I am numb

Another part of me breaks off

I am numb

No one will want me

I am numb

I am nothing

I am numb

It won't matter if I died today

I am numb

to my left I hear the clamering of a metal door falling to the ground and more footsteps come towards us, the redhead is torn away from me leaving a gush of cold air to encase me, I feel the figure pull my pants back up buttoning them and wiping the tears from my eyes, I flinch at the contact afraid of whoever is there too afraid to look.

"honestly hux I thought your mother would have taught you a little consent." he spits

he stalks in the redheads direction, a loud smack echoes through the room causing the redhead to stagger " that was for disobeying my orders"

" this is for touching my scavenger!'" he shouts venom laced in his voice

The crackling sound of a lightsaber fills the room and the redhead falls to floor, the sound of ragged breaths scarred forever in my mind. 

a.n. pt 2

there ya go i finally posted again, ive decided ill probably be posting every friday and saturday i will try to stick to that schedule as much as possible, i hope you please hang with me the story will get better tomorrow i will post bens pov of this scene. i hope you all dont hate me im sorry this is such a short chapter but i hardly could right this without getting upset but here you are 

please enjoy the story 

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