If you guys wanted to know why Jordan asks Korali about her feelings and if she's angry so often! That picture explains why^^^^. The song is by LIGHTS called Child. I hope you guys enjoy this chapter. It's the longest one I've written in a LONG time. PLEASE COMMENT AND VOTE! FOLLOW ME ON INSTAGRAM -lalamusicisme On Twitter-lalabookss and fan me on here!

Wolves are wild and so are we

We grow and change from who we use to be

We'll love more in time and change

Nothing ever completely stays the same.-me

Korali's Pov.(Not edited)

"Well you're definitely sick or something. Probably just a cold." Peter suggested, pouring more milk into his blue bowl.

"Weres—we don't get colds remember?" Kaliko laughed over her slip up, but Peter didn't pay any mind to it. He just continued eating his cereal and yawned.

"I have to use the bathroom, I'll be back."

"Well thanks for telling us, we wouldn't want you to get kidnapped in the apartment," Peter drawled sarcastically, which I rolled my eyes to. He beamed a toothy grin at me before pouring more cereal into his bowl. He had been eating cereal for about an hour now. I'm surprised the box wasn't empty and he wasn't full. That boy had a tape worm.

I got up and left the room, when I got done peeing I realized I started my period so I fixed myself up and then left the bathroom after I was refreshed. I sighed knowing that this was going to be a long week.

I dragged myself out of the bathroom slightly moping before plopping back down on the chair at the island.

"Where'd the soul mate go?" Peter asked.

"He left early this morning."

"My friends, Hunter and December, literally do that 24/7 those are the fifth sheets I replaced in the last two weeks."

"Oh that's nothing," Kaliko laughed. "The amount of condoms those two go through in a day would put Zeus to shame."

"Can we not?" I croaked, not wanting to go on that subject.

"Can we and just say we didn't?" Was Kaliko's cheerful reply. We all laughed our chatter dispersing into less raunchy topics.

When Kaliko and I had to go, we gave Peter our hugs and waved goodbye.

I jumped off the front steps of his apartment building Kaliko at my side. "So, what was Jordan here for?"

"Well, we were going to have a... nightcap. But that was canceled by Peter knocking on the door."

"Oh, not that." She winked, "I'm talking about being in the city." She gestured with her hand to the greater L.A area.

"Oh, he was visiting some old pack members." I replied with a sigh. He didn't talk about it much, but I hope everything was okay. He only said 'good' and honestly with Jordan that could go either way. It wasn't necessarily a normal person's good. It could well they attacked me like I expected, good. Or we were civil and it went fine, good. Either or.

"Something tells me it runs a little deeper than that?" Kaliko question hopping into her car. I followed her lead and said, "Definitely. And someday he'll tell you the full story." And let's just hope that's before something bad happens.

Kaliko pulled up to her parents' house and we jumped out of the liberty our shoes slightly kicking up dust. We were greeted by a house full of family, including Kaliko's 8 siblings. Bane, Jason, Calandra, Fay, Cade, Lavi, Ano, and Moana. That was the order from oldest to youngest. Kaliko was born before Ano but after her brother Lavi.

"I didn't know that you guys had left that late at night yesterday," Jason smiled, pulling me into a big bear hug. He was tall and hulking. His thick frame being something girls drooled over. I remember when I was younger having the biggest crush on him. He had the same triangular nose as his brother, yet his hair only fell a little past his ears. He was pure muscle and at 26 he had a mate and two children already.

Calandra, Fay, and Cade were triplets, yet they were all nothing alike. Calandra and Fay looked alike with long dark brown hair and brown eyes, yet Calandra was thicker and Fay was thin. Cade's hair was short, he was the quiet sort, being shorter than his brothers but still taller than all the girls.

Bane, the oldest brother, was 27 and was as tall as Jason, but ten times skinnier. He was like a friendly giant. Short buzzed hair, tattoos littered his body and he had met his met a little later in his life than most.

Lavi was a bit of a middle child. He didn't quite fit with any of the siblings' personality wise. He was the adventurous one, being a little too wild and a little too free spirited. He rarely took anything serious.

Ano was the pretty boy who was still growing into his personality. He was playful, never serious, but had a charming way about him. The kind that was dangerous to the female kind.

Last there was Moana. She was the youngest and the baby of the family. Obviously being spoiled like no other. She was 14, but the sweetest you'd ever meet. She was unlike any middle schooler, I've ever met. No one was more kind.

After catching up with Kaliko's family and celebrating Calandra finding her mate. He was a nice Indian guy named Parth. He was a little jumpy but otherwise he was sweet.

First Kaliko's brothers started up a game called pass the sister. Parth even joined in. They picked up a woman of the family and tossed them to each other. When Ano almost dropped me because he was joking too much, we decided to go outside and hash it out.

Turning into my wolf I circled Ano who still had yet to change. Moana was sitting atop of the family's car watching with worried eyes.

"Place you bets!" Fay yelled, a board and marker in her hand. My name was on half and the other's was Ano.

"I call Kore easily," Bane replied crossing his arms over his chest.

"I'll give it to Ano." Lavi challenged, "Korali looks a little frailer since we've last seen her."

"Well we know Kaliko is going for Korali, it's her best friend," Calandra concluded running a hand through her hair. Cade silently sitting next to Moana with sincere concentration. They each handed over their money, even Kaliko's parents giving up their dollars. I couldn't lose now.

Ano finally transformed  into his wolf, launching himself at me. I dodged it, causing him to roll over quickly getting back into attack mode. We circled each other for a second before pouncing at the same time. 

The key was to pin each other. We never played to actually harm, we would never do that. Especially since males usually had more of an advantage. But they expected more of me, especially now that I was in Jordan's Ruthless Pack. That was more of a legend now, seeing as they didn't really do much and kept to themselves now that Jordan's mom was no longer in a position of power. But I now understood why it was important to keep that rumor going.

We both landed on each other turning each other's body quickly to absorb the blow of hitting the solid earth and also to try to pin someone. When neither of us could make a solid restrain, we got back up again, shaking the dust off our fur and circling.

"Go get him Kore!" Jason cheered, causing a growl from his younger brother.

I jumped up making it seem like I was going to pounce on him, when he tried to lift up to counterattack I slammed my body into his sideways causing him to land on his back disoriented with my paw on his chest.

"And Korali wins!" Calandra cheered, Parth chuckling at her enthusiasm. Ano got up playfully pushing me. I grabbed my clothes in my mouth nodding my head at Lavi who opened the door for me to get into the house.

"I'm going to win next time!" I heard Ano's voice call.

"You're just going to lose again. She comes from the Blue Ashe Killer Pack now, remember." Cade reminded and I could hear Ano's "ow" So I knew his brother had hit him.

I went to the bathroom to freshen up when I noticed that I wasn't bleeding. When we left Peter's house, I had a slight amount of blood and a bit of cramps so I thought I had started my period. When I saw none, I almost panicked. I've never been late and I've never had irregular flow. I was heavy and already behind by a week. I didn't want to hyperventilate, so I splashed a bit of water on my face before breathing out and facing the family again.

Kaliko looked at me oddly for an hour before cornering me and asking what was wrong.

"Kaliko, don't overreact or panic. But I think I need to run to the store." I whispered low enough so that no one would overhear us.

She looked at me questioningly. "I'm late." That's all I had to say for her eyes to widen and for her to try to drag me out the door.

"You two are leaving so early?" Kaliko's mother asked and I almost frowned with the want to stay.

"Yeah, we have to get back to the pack, there's kind of an emergency," Kaliko rushed, technically she wasn't lying.

"Oh, okay well visit soon, sweet Kiele (Gardenia Flower)." I smiled at the use of my nickname. "Here have a lily!" She handed over the white flower and my stomach turned at the sight.

"I'm going to have to pass, I have no wish for fertility, trust me." In any meaning you'd find, the Lily meant fertility. Also it meant virginity, but after that. It was said that the milk from Hera's breast dripped a little while she was feeding Hercules and created the flower. Some also contributed it to sexual energy because the flower's look. All I know is that it had all to do with what I didn't need right now.

"You will," she smiled forcing the flower into my hand. I wanted to drop it like it burned me but I contrived smile and Kaliko pushed me into the car. As soon as I was buckled she floored it to the nearest store, which was target.

We ran into the store heading to the isle with the pregnancy tests. We grabbed several of different kinds and hoped for the best. I paid for them with money that Jordan had given me before he left. He told me I should want for nothing and some other things that I couldn't think of without getting hot.

"Kore? Kore, what's going on?" Kaliko asked breaking me from my daydream.

"Huh?"

"Staring into space with this dreamy look on your face is not as important as seeing if you're conceiving or not!" That definitely took my mood down a couple levels. I nodded and we got back in the car heading to the pack house. It was the safest place to try these out without anyone noticing. The Alpha room had a built in bathroom and Kaliko frequented so much that no one thought anything of it.

We tried walking into the house nonchalant before Zahara's orange hair hit me in the face, when she hugged me, almost knocking my purse filled with pregnancy tests to the floor. Luckily Kaliko had a close hold onto it as well.

"Hey Zahara, what's up?" I asked trying to come off calm and collected. On the inside I just wanted to get this over with.

"Well Amiella, Luton, Max, Cailo, and I thought that we should celebrate Jordan's birthday."

"I don't know if that's a good idea," I frowned in thought. "Jordan is still on the fritz with the whole sister spotting and his mom," And if I'm pregnant that'll probably kill him. "And everything is a bit stressful. He'd probably just want a quiet night."

"That's why we should do it!" She was excited, not discouraged. "You've been throwing curveballs at Jordan since you got here. He needs that. He threw you a birthday party. He asked me and my sister to help him. Sure it came off a little manipulative, but I think his intentions were good."

I thought about it for a second. She was right. I was going to keep Jordan on his toes. "Okay, it sounds like a good idea. Let's go for it."

"Yay!" She beamed jumping up and down. "I'm going to go tell Amiella!" She skipped off and as soon as she was out of view Kaliko and I hustled up the stairs and into the room. After slamming the door, I went into the bathroom alone, let out a breath and sat on the toilet. I could hear Kaliko's feet pacing against the hardwood floor and that wasn't helping.

I peed on several of the sticks that we bought and sat for a moment with my head in my hands. I sat them on the sink not even bothering to look at them. When I heard a bell chime from Kaliko's phone I knew that time was up. Yet we still sat there for more than a minute in silence.

"Soo what does it say Kore? And why am I outside the bathroom like I'm not your sister." Her voice was slightly muffled by the door before she tried the knob.

"I don't know. You come in here and read it. I don't have the courage." My heart was pumping rapidly and I didn't feel so good.

"Alright calm down, its most likely just a false alarm." I heard the door open and Kaliko muttered something in Hawaiian before picking up the plastic stick. "Well these could be wrong."

"Oh no. I think I'm going to be sick." My stomach lurched slightly but only enough for me to gag.

"Morning sickness?"

"No." I shook my head before placing it in my lap. "This is not good news Kaliko."

"Why in hell isn't it? You're mated, your mate loves you—he's practically obsessed. I wouldn't be surprised if he masturbating to your pictures right now."

I looked up at her with a face full of confusion and anxiety "Why are you saying that as if its completely normal?"

"Because it is. Why do you think people send nudes?"

"I never really thought on it. And I still don't want to." I placed my head back in my lap.

"Soo when are you going to tell Jordan? Or your parents? Oh and the pack? I would so do one of those cute announcements with the colored balloons in a box or cut the cake open and its the color."

"Wait wait wait. Kaliko calm down. First I have to ease this on Jordan. Second the pack I'm iffy on. My parents, we're still not on talking terms and its complicated." The stress was monumental, and then I had to help plan a party? Oi.

"Ease Jordan?"

"This is one of his biggest fears and things he never wants to happen," I muttered it into my lap, but I was sure she could hear me.

"Oh. This is bad then." Kaliko tsked, sitting against the door.

"Ugh, with his momma drama this is definitely the wrong time."

We stayed in the Alpha room and thought of scenarios that weren't going to happen the whole night. Kaliko took me home the next day and when I got to the door I didn't even get to open it. Jordan has chucked it open and had me in his arms before anything. I giggled and the onslaught of kisses on my face. He kissed me as if he hadn't seen me in months when he just seen me the other day.

I told him that I was tired. It was about 9am, so he guided me to our bedroom and left me there for a while before checking up on me.

I was wrong. So wrong. And I felt so guilty about it. I sat in Jordan's bed all day and when he came to check on me I acted like a scared rabbit; jumping when he touched me. He frowned and pulled his touch back, which I felt bad about but I didn't say anything.

I was nervous, uncomfortable and I needed to tell someone. Kaliko already knew, but I wanted someone closer to Jordan, like Max or Cailo to give me guidance.

"Are, uh, are you okay?"

"I'm fine," I rushed causing him nod and get up from the bed.

"Is it uh—a hormonal thing?"

"Some what. Jordan don't worry about me. I'm fine." He took that as an answer and I thought that by our generation, men knew when a girl said she was fine, she wasn't. But Jordan was raised an antisocial-recluse so I understood that he wasn't going to get it.

After about 2 hours in the same position I knew that Jordan was worried so he called Max and Cailo. When they saw me curled in a small knot at the end of the bed. I closed my eyes tightly ready to get this huge bomb off my chest.

"Kore? Kore are you okay?" Cailo asked worry lines masking his face. He pulled the cover from me slightly.

"Yeah, what's up Flower? Jordan kind of sounded panicked through the mind link," Max added.

"I'm pregnant." I muttered into the blanket.

"Huh?" Max asked but Cailo got it. He stood there frozen, looking at me as if I had said I was Jesus and ready to fight the devil on our rooftop. I was pregnant, not crazy. Well for Jordan, it'd be one and the same.

"Are you sure?" Cailo rushed starting to pace rubbing his hands in his hair. "Because we have to be sure before telling Jordan and causing him to go into a psychogenic shock."

"What the hell is going on?" Max asked confused. He looked me over not understand what we were talking about.

"She has it in her," Cailo voiced in a grave voice.

"Wow, thanks Cailo make it sound like a STD."

"IT?" Max asked still confused.

"She's in a gestation period." Cailo said going around the common word for it.

"What the hell is that?" Max asked frustrated by that point. I could tell he wanted to punch Cailo so I quickly replied.

"Okay Cailo, stop being a doctor." I sighed placing my left palm on my forehead, feeling a headache coming along. "Max, I'm Jordan's worse nightmare right now. I'm pregnant."

"What?" Max said it as if I was joking. As if this wasn't a serious moment.

"You two are stressing me out" I rolled onto my back letting out a heavy breath.

"Well don't do that! You could miscarriage" Max scolded me and I looked at him in disbelief.

"Well, it's kind of hard not to stress when you try to prevent this because your mate is absolutely terrified of the fact, and you basically had to reassure him it wouldn't happen and it happened."

"We're fucked." Cailo said suddenly.

"Pretty sure I was, and that's why I'm in this situation."

"Okay Kore ew," Max gave me a look of disgust and I rolled my eyes.

"What? Your virginal ears can't bare it? Suck it up. I'm the one with the problem."

"For one, the pup is not a problem." Max snapped glaring at me. I raised my eyebrows.

"Defensive over your niece or nephew already aren't we? Well that's good. When I'm widowed they'll need a father figure."

"We have plenty of time before you start showing we'll we'll just have to ease Jordan into the idea of being a parent" Max pointed out, which was a positive.

At least I knew that I had them on my side. But Jordan was a main concern. I didn't know how he'd handle it. This could end very very badly. He could go crazy like Cailo said. He could decide to send me away. That sounded more Jordan-like. He'd send me and the baby away thinking that it'd be better off for us that way.

"Easier said than done Max, but we're going to have to figure it out."

***

I traipsed along the hallway and into the Alpha and Beta room. I wanted to see if there were any old books and pictures that I hadn't seen. I was avoiding Jordan at this point. My stomach grumbled, but the kitchen was a place that I'd probably see Jordan. I was being moody and I didn't want to make him think I was angry at him. But I was just nauseous and tired and the news was weighing down on me.

After doing some digging around I found a dusty book in a cabinet underneath a couple of old wedding announcements. I coughed from dust, before opening the book noticing some chaotic scribbles of writing and a couple of pictures. The next couple of pages had photographs of pack members, I'm sure, and stats next to them. When I got to a face that was younger than the rest I stayed on it. When I finally found the name in the mess of called handwriting, it all made sense.

Arion.

Her young face beamed at the camera bravely. She had long black hair that rapidly curled like corkscrews. Her brown skin was flawless and she was growing into her looks, her dark brown eyes were small and slightly slanted.

Deciphering the words next to the picture was hard but I managed to get out the word: Warrior. The door opened and I slammed the book shut looking up at the intruder. It was Jordan looking very worried and circumspect.

He slinked into the room slowly and I waited for him to speak. "Are we—okay?"

I frowned, "Why wouldn't we be?"

"You've been really distant today?" I got up with the book in my hand shoving it towards his chest before hugging him. He held me close his face in my hair breathing it in.

"I'm just a little out of it today." His fresh scent of oranges lulled me into tranquility. "I found this book, it has a lot of deranged writing, but it had a file of Arion in it."

His frown deepened and he looked at the old book with curiosity.

"Are you hungry?" I nodded into his chest, not even bother to look up. He was warm and making my nausea go away. "What do you want?"

"A vanilla cupcake with strawberry frosting, gummy worms—not the sour kind, and sour squirt candy on top."

"Korali, that's not a meal, that's a snack."

"That's what I want."

"Well, you haven't eaten today so we'll try real food first." I rolled my eyes to his comment. We walked out of the room hand in hand, before I got the door closed Jordan cleared his throat and said, "We'll have to take a new picture." At first I didn't know what he was talking about, then I looked back towards the room we just came from. He was talking about the family portrait. Unknowingly I placed a hand on my abdomen. Boy if you only knew.

I only nodded.

***

"Isn't this such a heartwarming movie?" I gushed clutching the pillow tighter to my chest.

Jordan spared me a glance. "We're watching Knocked Up."

I was tucked into his side and we were sitting on the couch in the living room. "Yes, but the baby brings them together."

"If it weren't for the baby he'd be a happy loser. And she'd be richer."

"Only you'd see the negative." I rolled my eyes annoyed with his pessimism.

"You've been really strange lately are you okay?"

"Well I—how do you think I was as a child?" I asked suddenly. Maybe this was a shot to ease him into the pregnancy ordeal.

"Curious, persistent at whatever you wanted? Why?" He raised an eyebrow his vision never swaying from the television.

I laughed "What do you think the two of us combined would be like?"

"Hard to say. We're very different." He replied; I could tell he wasn't paying attention. But he spoke a little more. "Your skin, my eyes, your hair, my nose."

"So you have thought of our babies?" I gushed, swooning a bit. I was glad he at least gave some thought, then it'd be easier to transition him into the talk we needed to have.

"Of course. But a thought doesn't mean it's going to happen, thank God." Then he changed the subject back to the movie. "Plus, this movie is showing that an unexpected baby results in problems in life." He shrugged his hand moving to my lower back. A gesture I'm sure was to comfort me but it made me angry.

"You're such a dick sometimes."

"You're getting angry over a movie?" He raised one of his dark eyebrows at me and that irritated me even more.

"No. I'm getting angry because of my feelings." I hit him in the chest getting up and heading towards my old room.

I turned and he was still lying on the couch confused. Tears fell from my eyes and I started to get choked up. "Jordan I'm still holding out for children. You ever thought of that?" I sniffled. "I sacrificed a lot for you."

I sacrificed my parents, my pack, my home. And what did he sacrifice? Nothing but a stupid fear that's not even true.

He sat up quickly. "I had a terrible upbringing Korali. I don't want them. I thought you understood me."

"That's selfish."

"No, its smart. Your parents only had one child why do you think that is? Probably because one was enough. And even that seems like too much." He stood up his anger getting the best of him.

"My parents had one because my mom kept having stillborn, you asshole. Not everyone is fucked up like your parents."

That caused a silence between us, the only thing audible was our breathing; our chests rising at the onslaught of hurtful words. That last comment sent thunder into our rainstorm that was now in our living room. Two black clouds, one lachrymose the other disconsolate, casted over our heads and we were going to soak in them.

I should've apologized but I didn't. I merely turned out of the room and went to the bedroom I use to stay in.

I slammed the door like an adolescent angry at her parents for not letting her do something all her friends were doing. My stomach grumbled but I just made a dramatic storm off; I couldn't go back in there now. Really, I couldn't be hurt. He had his views and I knew them. He made that very clear before we mated and he reminded me.

The next morning, I woke up with my back aching and a cranky mood. I didn't like arguing with Jordan. Especially not anymore. And definitely not about his mom. That was a sore subject and it was a bitch move. I also didn't like to sleep without him. We needed to face each other; we were too far along to be avoiding each other like children.

I let out a breath and opened my eyes to to find a cupcake with gummy worms and sour candy on top of my nightstand. The tears started up again. I picked up the cupcake devouring it on my way to find Jordan. When I finally found him in his office he was hard at work typing something. My heart clenched and my lust skyrocketed.

I know I looked a mess. I just woke up, I had cupcake all over my face and I was wearing yesterday's clothes, but he looked so cute when he was concentrating.

"Jordan I'm sorry." He looked up from his desk and just stared at me. I shuffled over plopping his lap and he held me for a moment before reaching around me and setting his laptop on the floor and grabbing stacks of papers and doing the same. I was going to question him before I was whisked on top of the desk and being peeled out of my clothes. Jordan's hands were everywhere.

"Just don't kiss me. I haven't brushed my teeth." I giggled when he lightly nipped my neck.

"Mhm" he drawled, not really caring about my discretion.

"Jordan," I breathed. "The door's open."

"Who cares" he mumbled.

Of course he wouldn't care, he wasn't exposed like a main course. He only had his pants around his ankles. I was almost naked. But it was spontaneous and fun so I allowed it.

Jordan fucked me like porn star on that desk. When were finished my nerves were frazzled and my train of thought was out the door. Jordan gently pulled my clothes on and discarded of the condom.

"Uhm" I started dumbly. He loosened my nerves and I was feeling a bit saner; calmer.

"Its okay," he whispered. "We both said some thoughtless things."

"Yeah." Was all I managed. "Uhm, I'm going go to the garden." I could use some fresh air. We both needed it.

"I'll take you out there. Can you walk?"

"I'm pretty sure. Mr. Over self Confidence."

He cracked a grin that by now I was use to. He helped me off the desk and to my feet. I headed to my room for a quick shower and to put on new clothes. When I walked out of the bathroom Jordan was there toying with my necklace. He was looking at it wistfully and I almost didn't want to interrupt the moment.

"I'm sorry Korali for not being able to want what you want. It's just not in me. It may feel like I'm taking away something that by the werewolf community, is a right of passage, but I—I just don't want children. I know most think that in time I could be persuaded, but I've thought long and hard on this for years. I wouldn't wish this on a child. Not that you wouldn't be a beautiful mother." His smiled went up at me, but it melancholic, it wasn't reassuring. "You'd be a great mother, one that wouldn't give up on their child. You didn't give up on me."

My eyes welled and I nibbled on my bottom lip, this was heart-wrenching. "But I can't say the same about me. I think I'm the wreckage on an island that you had millions of chances to get off of, but you fell in love with the piles of wood and carnage; it forever tied you to the memory of what happen." He sighed running a hand through his hair. "You have so much love to give and I'm honored to be a recipient."

I walked the rest of the distance to him and he buried his head into my stomach as I ran my hand through his hair soothingly. That was obviously a non-explosive trigger to his PTSD so easing him into the idea of becoming a Father would be a difficult procedure.

I loved Jordan. But I also already loved the being that we are creating now. The baby wasn't planned and I wouldn't just push this on Jordan if I wasn't accidentally pregnant. But it was happening and I would do what's best for the baby. Even if that meant Jordan and I would have to live separated from each other. If it was my choice I wouldn't have a baby so young, but it wasn't my choice. I was going to keep it because honestly it was my only chance of a baby from Jordan.

I am pro choice, but I was keeping this baby. It's a lovechild regardless of timing.

I either was going to have to work Jordan into the idea better or I had to just spring it on him and deal with whatever he had to say. Either way, this baby was coming.

Jordan lifted his head into my boobs and I laughed. "Let's go to the garden." I grabbed his hand and he stood up, picking me and carrying me outside. He was building a bench for me to sit on and I was planting a couple of new trees. I had gotten them from Kaliko and she wouldn't tell me what they were, just not to plant them too close.

"Tell me about Arion, Jordan."

He looked up from his wooden structure and quirked a small smile. "She was as adventurous as any 14-year-old. We had met when I was five. Cailo and Max were already my friends, but they wanted me to meet this fearless girl they'd met in the pack. She was a warrior, and in the pack that would be what she wanted to do. I'm sure if she wanted a career outside of the pack, she'd be a soldier. She climbed trees faster than any of us, and don't tell Max I told you this, but she'd beat him in fist fight." He spoke fondly of her and it saddened me that he lost such a good friend, so early, and probably because of his mom.

"When did she go missing?"

"It was the summer she was supposed to turn 15. Max, Cailo, and I had planned to take her out to the lake to hunt fish as wolves. She was finally turning; her werewolf-puberty was taking a little longer than ours. I had gotten permission after my solitary time, to go visit her. My dad said he'd distract my mom, but she didn't need distraction. She was in an unusually cheerful mood." He shuddered and blinked rapidly, but I sat in my place.

"I should've known something was wrong right there. I ran to her house, excited to go fishing. When I got there her parents were crying. Nyala was constantly asking her husband 'where's my baby?' When they saw me she asked again. And I shook my head not understanding what she was talking about. She cried into my chest her hands on my back. When her husband pried her off of me I ran out of the house and ran into the forest looking everywhere. When the hour grew late and I returned home, I was too tired to do my exercises and my mom thought that was unacceptable. I remember it clearly. She said 'Who cares if a little girl goes missing. She was a great warrior though.' The last day I seen her was the day before. She told me 'Jordan, stop being scared of the future. We live in the moment.'"

Jordan and I's head both turned at the sound of grass crunching leading from the side of the house. Max came smiling then when he looked at me, he swallowed nervously and avoided eye-contact for a second before returning it again. I shook my head slowly, then he turned towards Jordan. "Uh, an intruder has just been spotted. And they're asking for you."

So you guys guess right. lol Boy or girl? What do you think their child's name will be? Are you excited for what this means for the plot? Who has just been spotted and is asking for Jordan? Did you like learning more about Arion? How do you think Korali should break the news? What did you think of their fight about it? Are you still on Jordan's side?What did you think about Cailo and Max's reactions to it? What should they do for Jordan's bday? Do you want to see more of Kaliko's siblings? Did you like them?

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I'm doing a lot of research into Jordan's condition and how it affects different people because I didn't know anything deep about abuse or PTSD besides the things tv show you. That is a privilege I'm thankful for. Its sad that this happens to people. That tumblr post really showed what I was trying to explain through Jordan's actions. A lot of stories have the abused background but they forget the psychological effects it can have on the person even after they've found their happiness. It doesn't always mean they're going to be abusive too. It can make them feel vulnerable and weak. Just because he's an Alpha and rude doesn't mean he doesn't have vulnerabilities and I want you guys to see that.