Oh.. uh hay all. You know something? I wasn't at all in the mood to make this recording today, I think the whole slowly being starved to death is actually effecting me. I've had no food or drink for three days now and boy, what I'd give to have even a glass of water right now... but fuck me right? You all wanna hear of my miserable life. Well fine then.. I was gonna tell you about my kid but before I do I think I'll tell you about my time in the asylum.

Don't be fooled by the name 'asylum' it was actually a youth correction facility but it drove me pretty much to insanity, so same thing truly. When I first went there I knew from the get go that I was going to hate every minute of that place... the smell, the lousy doctors and the never ending click clack of that bitch nurses heels. It all just grinded my gears.

That one doctor ... Doctor Dedoris. Oh how he and I clashed..

I swore though, I'd never take those pills. I'd eat them up, hold em and soon as he was gone, I spat them back out . Horrid taste they had. Now you're all probably thinking , but the pills could've helped stop your voices. No, I found out what those pills did as soon as the new boy was placed with me.

Me and Lyle got on great, made fun of the doctors and bonded over things. It felt so nice to have a pal that you could communicate with in a place filled with loons, then again, for me ... anyone would be grand.

Course, that's why life is shit.

One day, me and Lyle mouthed off a bit too much. The doc came in and I shut up but Lyle..he didn't care, he just went on and on and on until he turned round . I kid you not, he turned to me and grinned.

"Look, it's a miracle. Pigs can sense when the truth is getting out."

After that , I didn't see Lyle for a good number of days and when he came back...he wasn't my friend. He couldn't even be classified as a human anymore. All he did was sit there and obey the doctor. It was like he'd been robotised, and that taught me the scariest thing of all.

Not even the doctors were to be trusted.

I got found out one day. Dedoris came in and checked the plant pot , found my spat out pills in a heap. I looked him in the eye and I squared him up.

"You might be able to fool the rest of them, but I will never allow you to control me."

I snarled and he rubbed his temples.

After that, the testing began... I would rather not go into some of what he done to me, if I'm totally honest. I can't stomach that I allowed it and I feel shame every time I remember it. So yes, I think that's all for my time at the asylum.

My kid, my boy...Jerry.

You know, I always hated kids. I found them so annoying with their constant crying and whining but at the same time, I did love the little bastards. I guess that's why I done what I done back then.

I was in the middle of a break in when I heard a baby crying. I was actually in a mind to murder it and put it out of its misery, soon it'd have no parents anyhow so it's die slow and painful . Where if it slit its neck, it'd be fast. So with this in mind , I headed to the room and when I saw him I stopped.

...he looked just like Liu. Same eyes, same hair..he was like a replica.. I took a moment to think as well. The baby had been crying and crying and no one came to its bed to see what it needed...if they weren't going to tend to it then I would.

I soothe him and I played with him until he slept again. I came to my decision , I'd take the kid and I'd raise him. I'd not let anything happen this time..I'd be there unlike his parents. So I killed his birth mother and father and I stole him.

We lived in peace for so many years...then..then it all came to a halt and that day is a day I will not be able to live with myself for allowing it.

But I'm done for now. I just feel really tired and my eyes are getting really heavy. I want so badly for just a drink..

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Seems Jeff is starting to suffer now..