So, you're all back to listen to this second tape? Haven't you got lives to live, must not be exciting if you're picking these up heh. But as promised, I'll reveal some more about my life to you . It's funny you know, you live your life not expecting anything, you don't grow up expecting to be a killer you know. I never. In fact, I wonder myself at times. What if my brother and I NEVER took that route to school that morning ?

What if I pestered Peter to give a lift? What if I ordered a taxi. All the things that happened, might've not happened. I'd grow to be like, an accountant or something. I wouldn't have been sent away. Just those things, they go through my mind. Then again, had I never became what I am. I'd never have met her.

I don't grow fond of people easily. They have to have certain qualities and certain types of personalities..but her, she was different. Now I know people can tell me, how? She's just a girl and probably not any different than my other victims that I'd killed prior. But, it was in the sense she'd approached me without any fear. She spoke to me like I was a normal person and after all I had lost...I craved that kind of relationship.

Mind you, I never seen her in the sense of lust. I was like 15 and she was 10, but just talking to her, hanging out with her...I felt my heart stitching itself shut. I was healing and I had never wanted that peace to end. Which was why in the end, I chose that I had to kill her. I couldn't let that person grow up and see the evil of this vile world. So I attempted to kill her, attempted I said.

Looking in her eyes, the betrayal and the terror...I faltered and she fell. I turned and I ran. Praying she just died there, neck broken and painless. I always had that about me, I couldn't stand crying from women...it was often why I ripped the tongues and eyes out my women victims. The look on their faces just bothered me so much, I had to stop it. So with her, it was even worse. Especially when she cried out.

"You're scaring me, STOP IT JEFFEREY!"

It just jilted me. She was my first true friend, and I had ruined that for myself. I was scared and I was a coward...a bug fucking , retarded coward.

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Sorry, I got lost in my anger there. But this girl, her name was Krystal Olivia Alcove. I thought that she had died that night, no. No not only had she not died but she'd been taken into custody for protection against me. I found her years later when I was meant to kill some rowdy teens and instead...I found the girl that I'd left to rot in the dirt. My mind stopped working and I kidnapped her.

I didn't know what I was going to do. I was hell bent on killing her but in my heart and in my head, I knew that I couldn't do it to her. She'd been the first girl to accept me and show me kindness...so how could I do that to her? Yet...she'd changed from how we were as children. She wasn't pure anymore...but that was fine. I knew I could make her pure again.

My method was harsh and most would call me a monster. But I just couldn't lose her again...she was MY friend..she didn't need anyone else but me to care for her. The world would, just hurt her. She was safer down in that cellar with me to provide for her.

But , in the end. I let her go. I had let that emotion over step it's boundries and it killed me to see her so miserable. I yearned for her smile that just faded away. So I did the only thing that I knew would bring it back. That song by that bloke was right in the end.

"Only know you love her when you let her go, and you let her go"

I would never say such words but..the pain was in the actions. I loved her. I still love her and letting her go was one of the hardest pains to ever carve itself into my chest. I promised myself that I'd never let my heart become entangled with that horrible feeling again ...I kept it up for a while but then..,

He came into my life and well, that pain started all over again.

But you know, I'm tired of feeling like my heart is getting stabbed with a knife. That's enough tape for you lot, you can survive for another night. But one more thing, if you ever have that one love..one person you'd do anything for. You make sure that you tell them that , because the mistake I made with my kid...it almost cost me his life.

Ugh, I'm done for the night. End of second tape.

Jerry..Jerry son I'm so sorry for what I did to you... I'm so ..so sorry...wait..ugh fuck this things still on, shit damnit!

*clicks it off.*

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