I just failed. Something that I have been working on for so long and hard for just slipped out of my fingers.

Have you ever felt so good but you are just ruined seconds later? Like a beautiful flower only to be dried up and dead seconds later? That's what I am. Dead.

I don't know how I could screw up so bad. No one will understand it, but they would try to. It's so sick.

I will be honest, I am not ok. I feel the ticking time bomb in the back of my head waiting to go off. Waiting to just destroy me. What I didn't know was that there were 2, and one just went off faster then the other.