You turn around to where you heard Kris' voice. Your H/C hair effortlessly turning around with you. Your E/C eyes looking toward Kris with the most surprised face you could ever possibly do. You were about to shoot a "What the fuck", but then you realise what you said out loud.

And who you just said it in front of.

Susie looked more confused then you were, but you could also see how flustered she was from how she looked down, her hair still in her face. Of course she was, the words probably came out cheesier that what you meant it to come out as. You look toward Susie, an explanation on the tip of your tounge.

"I can explain"

You wanted to say that to her, you wanted to explain what you felt, but then you didn't. Because if you did, Noelle wouldn't ever forgive you.

"I just come out of nowhere and like Susie...Of course she's mad. Of course she hates me. It's like someone just coming out of nowhere and turning your life upside down simply because they're in it. It's only been one day and I already like her a lot.. It's not fair, for her or for...

Or for me."

You swallow your pride and look down, clearly vulnerable. Susie approaches you, wanting....wanting to..

You don't know anymore.

So with the numbness of your mind taking over, your body goes into autopilot. And normally autopilot means....to run. Run away from your problems that you can't solve. Or the problems that you don't want to solve. You don't want to solve this problem at all.

You want Susie to be your problem, and your lover.

A bit too much to ask for.

But you don't run and for a moment you're just standing there, wondering why you haven't hit the gap yet.

"Why aren't you moving?"

Your feet stay in place, and you look at Susie in awe and fear. She made you feel safe and unsure all at the same time. You feel guilty all of a sudden.

Your feet grow heavy and you feel your brain slowly disappear. Your eyes look around, everywhere it's bright. Too bright! Your skin feels like the sun is burning it to a crisp. Your cheeks are red and thoroughly flushed. You look around, not able to feel your legs anymore.

" ■■■■■■!!"

Blurry is all you can see, where is Everyone? Then..

It all turns to black.

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Your F/C dress is thoroughly wet from the rain. You let yourself have a memory of your mother, you let your brain pull her files out of your filled file cabinet. It seems to be labelled "Bittersweet priority, Number 890, file 3 of 109." You didn't know your brain had a file cabinet in it. But then you realised something.

This dream is Lucid.

You grab a hold of yourself, and look around. It was the park that you knew and loved so many years ago, except that you were present and she was past. You can see your past self right in front of you. The young, dark, Y/N. You shudder a little, you remember how hard it was for you to talk to people at this age. You're in the rain, all alone, just sitting there.

You know this, but why is this memory still coming back? Why does it keep taunting you to look at this again and again and again. You want it to stop, and you know it wasn't the dark world that messed with your mind.

You're messing with your mind.

You're making yourself think of all this, you're making yourself-

"NOOO! STOP IT!!"

The place grows silent. You can no longer see your young self, the rainy day, or anything. Just black and white. Just a black and white room. The only thing that has color is, you look around, is her.

She is here.

"Susie....?" You say. You know that this dream is still Lucid, but you didn't know that you imagined Susie. You blamed that on your over thinking. Susie stands there, with D/N.

(Remember your doll name from earlier!)

She wears a yellow rain jacket with a clear umbrella. You feel the first drops of rain come down from the non existent sky. You feel the grass that's under you that wasn't there before. You're sitting down in your F/C dress with tears streaming down your face, still vividly remembering the reason why you were crying that day.

Everything is what is was, but not what it is.

Susie holds out a hand and says those words.

"Y/N...are you okay?"

And before you could even say or do anything, everything grew white.

"File- Bittersweet priority, Number 890, file 3 of 109. Progress= Unforgettable."

You look at the file cabinet.

There was only two files labeled "Bittersweet Priority". The first one named "Mother."

There was another one named..

"■■■■■"

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You hear the faint voices of people around you, all familiar. You open your eyes.

"Y/N! You're awake!"

It's your father. You feel like it's been a long time since you've seen him even though it's only been a day. You look around, utterly confused, but then you see the familiarity of everything. Your F/C colored walls and D/N perked up lovingly on your dresser. Your desk full of messy papers and your sisters fan fiction books.

Heard her latest one was an x Reader she was writing for a video game character. Never read it, so you left it.

"Dad....what happened?" He smiles gently. "Your lovely friends here carried you home saying that you fainted infront of the hospital." He smiles to you and Kris, Susie and Ralsei, who was patiently sitting next to your bedside.

"Is your head okay, or is it just one of those days?" You shake your head and sit up. "I feel fine, it was just one of those days." He nods and smiles. "I'll cook dinner for all of your friends here." He turns to them. "All of your parents have been contacted, except for .... Ralsei was it? Who are your parents?"

Susie and Kris started to low-key panic. Ralsei coolly says, "I ran away from them...they're really abusive." Your father looks at Ralsei in sadness, and then lights up. "Would you like to stay with us? It's only me, Y/N and her sister here so it would be fine. It's okay if you don't, though." Ralsei perks up.

"Yes Yes! Of course!"

Your father smiles at your friends and then to you. "Well then that's settled! I'll go make dinner." He goes on ahead, leaving you and your friends alone.

Kris clears his throat, a resounding sound in the awkward silence.

"So Y/N....ready to spill the tea? You look at Kris, surprised. Is he into gossip? or is he doing one of his sarcastic shenanigans again? You imagined him wearing acrylics saying "periodt!". It made you smile.

You try to offer some sort of defense, but you soon realised how worthless that would be. You sigh. "Okay.. fine..."

You look toward Susie, a serious yet loving look on your face.

"Have I met you before today, Susie?"

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Hey everyone! Thank you guys for your support for this book! Today is the day that means that I've been working on this book for a week. A week! To think that a project that was meant to just be for fun ended up something that so many people consider important, makes me feel so happy and I'm so thankful for all of you, I sincerely am. I know that the constant "Thank you's" from me can get very annoying, but I'm serious with every fibre of my being that I am thankful. And that I've been able to reach so many people with such a small project that I didn't even take seriously at first, it's...It's really heartwarming. Im going to be honest, but the reader is based off of myself and how I would handle desicions on my own. Some of you guys say that you can relate to the "reader" and well...that means me. You relate to me..and it's.. It's really nice. Lol.

But now the reader is you, and you only.

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