Guys, after about 3 whole hours of dancing to "Kiss and make up" while sick in bed, I am back. Just wanted to quickly shout out to Kavpink18 for the loving and inspiring words that helped me stop dancing to "Kiss and make up" and actually write haha.

And thank you, for continuing to love and cherish this book. I never thought we'd get to 2.22k reads. That's crazy. Tommorow is the day that literally signifies a week of this books first chapter publish, so for that, I couldn't possibly thank you guys enough.

But enough of my blabbering, let's get on to the chapter shall we?

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Susies POV:

It is one thing for me to remember, but it is also one thing for me to forget. I know why Y/N is continuously daydreaming. I, myself couldn't possibly NOT know the look. I've known it for a long time and the feeling that comes along with it is not a stranger to me.

Confusion is not a stranger to me.

To be able to see Y/N confused is almost painful, as it looks like she's trying to demand her mind to somehow make everything clear to her, yet her mind is her and her mind is confused as she is. Why am I thinking like this? Why am I thinking so much about her? It's driving me crazy.

She's driving me crazy.

To be confused is painful. No matter what ever you may be confused about. I would know this. Continuously being confused about your own self image really comes in handy sometimes. Susie rolls her eyes. But just seeing Y/N daydreaming...

Whatever she's daydreaming about, must be bittersweet if she keeps letting herself think of it even though she's mentally hurting herself with information that is stuck in her own mind. She needs to stop it. I need to stop her.

"Y/N...are you okay?"

What a question to ask, right? To ask someone who's obviously suffering if they're okay seems stupid to me, but seems normal for everyone else. It's like basically forcing someone to say that they're absolutely fine when they're nothing but hurt all over. I hate the question with very fibre of my being.

But I am conflicted about Y/N, so I use a question that I'm conflicted with on her. Because there are limits to this world.

Of course I would know this.

But...if she is a world..

Even much, if she was mine.

Would she be limited?

Or would she continue on forever?

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"Oh yeah, sorry, Yeah I'm fine." You look over to Kris who speaks to you. "You've been acting strange." You look at him. "Wow, big words coming from mister "I never show my eyes" and "I don't talk that much" "

But you knew he was right, that dark world messed up your mind. Ralsei walked over to you sitting down on the grass next to you and smiles. "That's okay Y/N. You looked worried about something. You must be thinking about how to solve it somehow!" You show a hint of a smile.

"I wish I could sort myself out" you say in the lowest voice. You look down. Kris heard it. Ralsei looks at you. "What was that, Y/N?" You shake your head. "Oh, nothing. Anyways, we literally just skipped school so..I'll just get the project information from some other student."

Susie speaks up. "Perhaps go over to Noelle? She's bound to know everything about the projects." Kris nods in agreement. You nod and get up.

"Well see you guys.." You spin on your heel and walk fast, but slow enough so it doesn't look like you were trying to get away from them, which you were.

You hear Susie say "NOELLE SHOULD BE IN THE HOSPITAL BY THE WAY VISITING HER FATHER."

"I...well damn."

You were going the opposite direction.

You turn around and go toward where you remember the hospital was. You didnt really have any reason to go there since you barely got sick so you only went for regular checkups. Also, you just moved back here, so its been a while since you've seen the inside. You wondered whether Kris still played the piano for the patients like he used to.

You see Noelle exiting the hospital and she looks toward you. You smile and wave, she waves back and you run toward her. She looks away.

"Please...don't talk to me." Noelle says, looking down at her shoes, clearly not wanting to say that to you. You look at her confused. "What....what did I do?" She looks at you, and shakes her head. She then uttered the most hurtful words you never thought would come out of her mouth.

"What you did...? You existed."

She pushed past you and walked home, luckily dropping the phamplet with the project report information. You pick it up, about to tell her she dropped it but you thought it was hopeless. You looked at her, you couldn't help but agree.

You didn't know why you existed. Or why you liked Susie so much. You turn around to go home.

Oh no.

You accidently said that out loud.

With a worried Susie, standing behind you.

"Ohhh shit" Kris says, clearly amused.

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KISS AND MAKE UP, KISS AND MAKE, K-KISS AND MAKE UPPPPP-

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*dances with a runny nose and high fever.*