OML sorry for the late omfff

Anyways, I'm using free McDonalds Wi-Fi while waiting for my parents to pick me the hell up from the shopping centre.

Not sponsored by McDonalds.

Uh, OH BTW UH,
For some reason I brought this purple button up shirt because I wanted to look like Susie?

You don't need to know that uh-

Enjoy!

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"Y/N? Is everything okay in there?" You tense at the question and shout at your father in your head.

"Does it look like everything's okay?? Does it look okay? Tell me that!"

But you don't. You just stay tense, and you stay in place, not really knowing what to say. So you just ask him to leave you alone and to talk to you later. He leaves, telling you that there's some money on the dinner table for the chocolate that you supposedly liked. You hear footsteps leaving your room.

"Y/N, may I come in?"

Moon. You did not hear her.

"...."

"Y/N. Susie called me and told me what happened. Please, open the door. I won't tell dad, if you do not wish for me to tell him."

You were going to ask why Susie had Moon's number, but you waited for another time to ask.

"....fine. Please, come in."

She opens the door slowly, her hair still the same reddish color it was the first time she dyed it. Her eyes were full of worry, and her hands were full of comfort and love. She kneels down to your level, to which you were bundled up on the floor, and comforted you, hugging your form close and playing with your hair.

"You know Y/N...

She looks at you. In love and in care. You know from this that she really does care about you. Because she does, and it's simply a fact that the universe chooses you to know.

"Whether you think it's your fault or not, is not important right now. But what is, is the fact that you blame yourself for everything, which is not healthy."

You look down, what was she getting at?

"Okay, for example, you and Susie and the mayor's daughter all share a cake, right? And you're the one that holds the butter knife to cut the cake equally. But you drop the knife on top of the cake and the icing ruins."

You look at Moon, some of the things she says doesn't make any sense at all to you, she smiles, seeing your evident confusion.

"After that, ...." she pauses, turning to reconsider her words before she says them. She is pleased with her mindset of words and keeps speaking.

"...and then, Susie has a panic attack or something."

"what the hell, Moon?"

First of all, you would think that Noelle would be the one to have something like a panic attack, and secondly, why a panic attack?

"You know I'm not good at examples, Y/N! Anyway, what I'm trying to say is, if you blame yourself for the cake icing and the panic attack, then you're wrong."

"Yeah, because I didn't cause that panic attack!" You say, stating the very obvious.

"Exactly! But Y/N. Everytime you do something that doesn't mean to affect someone else, and they get hurt, you blame yourself for all the predicaments in the solar system."

"Like, you weren't meant to hurt Noelle with your feelings. You just loved Susie. You didn't mean to hurt her, and because you saw her hurt, you blamed yourself. But that wasn't your fault at all...."

"...It just took her a longer time to accept what cannot be restored, which is, her chance with Susie."

"..."

You didn't know what to say, you didn't know whether you understood or not. Her explanations were so...

Complicated.

"Anyway, Susie's here." Moon says, checking her phone and smiling. You didn't expect her to be there, but she was, because you could hear your dad answering the door and saying "OHH HELLO SUSIE!" out loud so you could hear.

You supposed he caught up with the  feelings you had for her.

"Just so I know, how did Susie get your number?" You say, half curious, half suspicious. She smiles softly.

"Oh Y/N, you're the only hope for dad to have grandkids in the family, I can't possibly go out with anyone, much less Susie."

Oh no, she caught you with that one.

Moon gives you one final squeeze and stands up and walks out of your room.  She gives you one last wink before leaving and going to the sitting room.

Moon whispers to Susie, but you can't hear what she said.

You can hear Susie approaching. So you look away, you didn't know what to say to her if she saw you like this, but you felt humiliated. You felt shame, but amongst all the angst, you felt butterflies and relief that Susie was here.

You just wanted her to be here, where she belonged.

In your empty arms.

This made you flashback to when Moon was sharing a drink with you, she said something like...

"May all glasses be full and may we all be replenished of thirst."

She was a really weird person.

"Y/N...are..."

"I'm not okay."
(My Chemical Romance anyone? No? Okay.)

Susie approaches you and lifts you off the ground, hugging you. You were not expecting that, and her warmth, her beautiful existence, her presence in your life and more.

Everything felt like it was hitting you. All of the memories and feelings with and for her were like softballs, but they were all thrown at the same time. You tighten your grip around her, your eyes closed and your lashes moist.

"I'm glad you're here." You say, your words cracking with honesty and love.

"I'm glad I'm here too." She says, still hugging you and tightening her grip around you. She could feel your tears, and she didn't want you to cry, but...She understood the necessity for feelings to be expressed. So she just hugs you, now sitting down, and pats your back gently.

"I can't believe I'm saying this, Y/N. But..Please, continue to cry if it makes you feel better."

You wipe the remaining tears with your arm and you smile at her, your eyes shining and looking straight into hers. "I'm not crying because I'm sad, that's over."

"I'm just really happy that you're here. Susie please stay."

Susie rolls her eyes and smiles, her hand wiping away the hair that stuck to your face from the tears.

"I wouldn't leave you. You're strictly my priority"

Maybe, you should've left the file name alone. ♡

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Hello goofy goobers!

I've been picked up. We're waiting for my grandpa to buy toothpaste, but he's taking a long time.

Also! Thank you for 10k reads, what the fuck???? Like I don't deserve that at all? Aaaa tysm you're all beautiful and I love you all! ♡

Just know that without y'all, there would be no updates. You are all angels.

Ilyasm.

(W H E E Z E

WHEN I TYPED THAT IT AUTOCORRECTED TO "ORGASM".)

ilyasm = orgasm.

Oh nooo.