(The song above isn't because of the chapter itself, but because I really liked it and wanted you to listen to it too! ♡)

Hey everyone!
I don't feel too good today, and I was very close to not updating which is a shame. However, I am back. I read back on your kind words and have come to the conclusion that I should just push away my sadness. So thank you all! ♡

Thank you to Fesafi for the kind spam that you left on the last Chapter! They were really nice.

-》BE THANKFUL TO THEM AND SHOW SOME LOVE TO THEM BECAUSE WITHOUT THEM THERE WOULD BE NO NEW CHAPTER 《-

(Also may I say please don't assume I'm a happy person from the hearts and the exclamation points I use. I'm a really sad person thank.)

Thank you guys for 6k reads. Who knew this book would come this far?
I sure didn't.

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Your eyes flutter open, still crusty with sleep, and you wipe your eyes squinting. You were tired, but you could smell food from the kitchen, so you decided to get up and check out the beautiful scent that was just waiting for you to eat it. You removed the blankets-

The blankets were pretty heavy.

"What the fu-" you then turned and saw Susie sleeping behind you. You didn't remember sleeping with her last night. You try to shake off the sin thoughts but then something else distracted you. " If I can't remember what happened last night, did anything happen?" You were a bit awkward and didn't want to know what had happened if anything did happen.

"Good morning, Y/N!" Ralsei says, barging into your room. You smile. "Morning Ralsei."

"Oh! Did you two have seeeex?"
《Inspired by WoojinsHands ;) 》

"No Ralsei, we didn't. That type of thing takes ages to develop. Like you have to love them A L O T, To trust them enough to do that."

Ralsei looks at you confused but interested.

"And also, sometimes you're uncomfortable with it because you're showing them your body, you know? Things that you're so used to hiding, in other words."

You just realised that you educated Ralsei as well. So you roll your eyes and shrug, telling yourself that you didn't really give him any sexual details, so it was fine. Ralsei smiles in understanding, and leaves because he smelt the food.

You can hear Ralsei and your father conversating about the beautiful day today. You smile, your father doesn't usually talk that much, but he seems talkative today.

"Ughhh, can you guys shut the fuck up? I'm trying to sleep here.." Susie says, clearly not wanting to wake up at all. You mentally agree with her, but you still told her that you guys had to get ready for school. "Susie you have to get up for school." She looks at you, her hair messy and her eyes visible. "You sound like my mom." You smile and shrug. " Well you can't sleep forever." Susie smiles. "Watch me." You fold your arms and she pretends to go back to sleep. Then she opens her eyes and looks at you, knowing that you wanted her to get the hell up. Your eyes pierce daggers and she smirks. "Okay fine fine.. I'll get up. Ugh."

You looked at her worried, hoping that she meant actual sleep. She winks at you and ruffles your hair, before picking up the clothes her parents left and then going to use your bathroom to get changed into day clothes. You didn't know why, but sometimes you get the depressing aura around her, but maybe that's only an excuse that you made for yourself because of the fact that you only have butterflies around her too. You look at her as she leaves the room.

Man, she was just amazing.
("Y/N, you're ugh- never mind.")

You decided to get changed yourself, into some comfortable clothes. You take off your sisters button up and just put on a plain white shirt with loose jeans. You didn't care about what to wear today, and you needed to cover up your cuts and brusies, that seemed to never actually heal due to your neglect of looking after yourself. You sigh, realizing why your father is constantly worried about you all the time. So you grab the first aid kit from your dresser and begin the daily routine of taking care of yourself.

"Psh, daily routine my ass." You say to yourself, disapointed that you couldn't even do the simplest to give a damn about yourself. The antiseptic hurt like hell, but it had to be done. It's karma for what you've been doing to yourself lately, which is falling over and being a dumbass without talking care of the damage.

You covered the brusies with sticky bandaids that covered the entirety of them and the smaller cuts you put just a bandaid on. You looked like a trainwreak, but you loved it. You pose to yourself in the mirror.

"Hell Yeah!"

"AAAAAAAGHH" You say, turning around to the purple monster you knew and loved. She was leaning on the door frame, arms folded and smirking. Sadly her hair was covering her eyes, so you couldn't see them anymore. She laughs. "Hey, at least you're confident enough to pose to yourself." You pout. " Don't you know how to knock? Jeez!" She puts her hands up in defeat. "Just saying." She then says.

"Oh and uh, put your pants on."

She then closed the door and leaves, and you just melt onto the floor, not knowing what to say. You didn't even realise that you were still in your underwear.

And might I add, in front of Susie.
And no don't say I can't add that. I DETERMINE YOUR FATE HERE MUAHAHAHAH. Ahem. Anyway, carrying on.

You wanted to scream, but you didn't. You just put on your pants while imagining other alternate ways that whole thing could've happened.

She could've pulled a phone out and pretended to take pictures.

She could've stolen your pants making you run around the house in your underwear.

Or maybe she could've come towards you and-

"GOD NO!" You say in your mind. You decide that maybe that wasn't the best option to think about. Maybe somewhere somehow, you'll let yourself drown in your own fantasies. But for now, you need to go to school.

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"Section 14 of unknown under heavy editing. Please proceed to office for further information."

"What is she doing?" ■■■■■■ says, placing a hand on his chin. He seems confused. He doesn't know what to say.

The room is still as empty as you remember, with its white yet every possible colored walls. Everything was not as it seems here.

You see the office and you see your fate written as every second went by. You don't know what to think. You don't want to see this. You want to see it form, you do not want to see how.

"All the feelings you have is indefinite." ■■■■■■ says to you.

He is speaking to you through silence. But you understand completely. Of course you understand completely. You're Y/N. You'll continue to understand as long as you exist.

As long as we exist. I wonder, dear Y/N. How long you'll let us shape your fate. Will you ever have enough of our beautiful cliches?

Will you ever leave for something you have proven to yourself is better? Will you, Y/N?

She is crying, and so is she.

She can hear, but is deaf to your words.

She can speak, but she is mute.

She can write, but you can only read.

She is crying, and so is she.

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Hey!

Guys, my headphones have busted. I'm so dead inside oh my gosh.

I swear I can't live without music and this is going to kill me for sure.

Thank you guys for 300+ votes. Bless all of y'all. ♡

Thank you guys for bearing with me.

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