I can't tell my sister now because she's mad at me again. She'll think it's just an ascuse. Yeah my siblings think I'm lazy but the reason I don't do stuff that much ia because I am not motivated to do anything. I can barely draw some times. Also they keep making me feel worse and pointing out when I do something wrong. I keep joking about falaiure but the thought of failing terrifies me. So it kinda hurts the small bit of an egoI have left. My siblings are really good people,but sometimes they don't know how much they emotionaly hurt someone.