Your eyes opened and you were surrounded by darkness. You couldn't see anything, remember anything except that you were a telekinetic. You had no name, you were a agent of Hydra and your mission was to kill the Avengers, and at least kill Captain America.

-flashback to three weeks ago-

You and the rest of the Avengers were making your way to the last Hydra base you would be taking down this year. It was supposed to be in and out, but things took a turn for the worst. You were separated from the rest of the team, and your boyfriend, none other than Captain America himself, started to panic.

"(Y/n) where are you! (Y/n)!" Steve yelled into his mic.

"Stevie, I'm-" You started to say but was knocked out by a Hydra soldier and carried away to a different base. During this time, you were beaten to the point where you couldn't fight them off any longer, and your memory was wiped.

Steve lost his mind during those three weeks. He rarely ate, slept, or did anything but cry or punch and anniolate any punching bag in all of New York City.

You didn't know any of this going into your mission. There was only one thing on your mind. Kill the Avengers. Rumlow dropped you off in front of the tower and you entered the building. Making your way up to the living area was easy, and so was locating your targets. They all were sitting together in the middle of the room. Like cows lined up for slaughter. Pulling out one of your many guns, you took aim for the Captain's head. You pulled the trigger, but he moved to the side and it missed him. Taking aim at the other Avengers a fight ensued. You shot the Captain in the stomach three times, Black Widow in the arm, and Iron Man's suit many many times. The Captain kept calling you '(Y/n)', and you didn't realize what you were doing until it was too late. You stabbed him, and he pulled you down for a kiss.

"I love you (Y/n)." You froze.

"Steve? D-d-did I do this to you?" You asked quietly.

"It wasn't your fault. Hydra took you-"

"Oh my god. Stay away from me! I-I-I could hurt you again."

"(Y/n). This wasn't you."

"But it was Steve! I hurt all of you, and especially you!" You yelled and started running towards to the exit.

"But I love you!" You heard Steve yell as the elevator doors closed.

"I love you too, that's why I need to go." You whispered behind all the tears that cascaded down your face and you ran. Ran far far away, to a place you never thought that you would go to again. Your parent's farm in Minnesota. You parents had died a few years ago and left the farm in your name. You didn't mind as it was an escape from the Avengers and NYC in general.

-five months later-

"(Y/n), he's still not doing anything. You need to come back." Natasha said and Wanda nodded. The two had visited you multiple times, giving you updates on Steve each time.

"I nearly killed him Natasha! He would never forgive me, and I don't forgive myself. I love him, but I just can't go back." You said.

"Maximoff. Do it." That's when Wanda used her powers on you. She showed you everything that Steve did in the past five months. He rarely slept, ate, or even took missions. He was very depressed, and whenever somebody would try to confront him, he would respond violently. When your eyes saw the familiar sight of the living room, you broke down. You thought that he would be better off with out you, but you forgot rule 51. Sometimes, you're wrong.

"I'll go back."

"Good. Now I have an idea." Natasha sounded like she was creating an evil plan. It kinda was. You were now on your way back to the tower in a short red dress that hugged you in all the right places. The plan was for you to arrive late to Tony's Christmas party that was tonight, and to surprise Steve. You took a nap on the quinjet ride back. Thoughts were swirling in your head about what Steve would do. Soon enough you arrived and made your entrance. Waiting a couple minutes after Natasha and Wanda entered, you pushed the doors wide open and everyone looked at you except two people. Sharon Carter and Steve Rogers kissing.

"Steve?" You voice came out barely above a whisper. Steve pushed her away and whipped his head around to see you standing there. The tears started and you ran back to the quinjet. Before the hatch closed, Steve jumped in and saw you in a ball, crying. It broke his heart to see the woman he loves so devastated.

"(Y/n). Please look at me doll." He croaked out. Voice strained with emotion. You looked up at him with a tear streaked face, and a truly broken heart.

"I guess Nat and Wanda were lying earlier." You mumbled.

"They talked to you?"

"Have been at least once a week. Why?"

"They never mentioned it. Tony even told me yesterday that he thought that you died. That you killed yourself. Nobody told me anything but to move on. But I couldn't. I love you so so so so much (Y/n) that I can't put it to words. And Sharon threw herself at me before you walked in. I didn't kiss her back because the only person I ever want to kiss is you my love."

"They told you I died? Is that why you didn't sleep or eat?" You asked and he nodded. "Oh Steve. I never stopped loving you, I just thought that you'd be better off without me after what I did." Looking into each other's eyes, you saw that the love you two shared never left. You said and pulled him down to kiss you. Your lips met to an emotional and sweet kiss that quickly turned into a heated make out session.

"I missed you (Y/n)." He said. You were currently straddling the super soldier and could feel his erection straining against his pants.

"I can tell." You giggled and moved your hands from his abdomen to his chest in a slow and sensual manner. He groaned from underneath you and soaked in the feeling of your hands roaming his body. He thought he would never feel those hands again. Soon, he grabbed your wrists and pulled you into a deep kiss. One of possession and fear. You could feel the dominance, and it sent a wave of pleasure though you. Pulling away, Steve looked into your eyes.

"(Y/n), you made me realize what it is to love a person in this weird world that we live in. Loosing you made me realize something else as well. I love you and I can never live without you. So (Y/n) (L/n), will you marry me?" He asked, looking down at you. Your eyes watered and you couldn't believe what was happening.

"Yes. Yes, Steve, I'll marry you." You sputtered out. The two of you kissed once again and you went to take Steve's shirt off, but he stopped you.

"I don't want our first time to be in here." He said. The two of you were dating for six months before the Hydra kidnapping. You two had never been intimate before, and you both knew that you were ready to take the next step. Unlocking the hatch, you were greeted by the rest of the Avengers.

"Congrats punk. You finally did it." Bucky said and it was followed by silence. You were shocked that Tony and Pietro managed to stay quiet this long. You couldn't take it and you were horny because of a specific super soldier.

"Okay here's what's going to happen. I'm going to make love to my fiancée, next I'm going to kill Stark, followed by catching up with the rest of you. Minus Nat and Wanda. I'm pissed at you two as well." You stated and made your way to Steve's room with him in tow. Let's just say that the two of you were hear into the early hours of the morning. The next morning the two of you made your way to the kitchen with smiles on your faces. You were greeted by the others, while Tony cooked. He was completely oblivious to your entry. Sneaking up behind him, you gave him jumper cables and he screamed like a little girl and jump up a few feet.

"This is only the beginning." You whispered in his ear.

"You're not going to kill me sweet cheeks, and what could Capsicle do in bed that I couldn't?" Referring to the multiple times he tried to get you to sleep with him.

"Lots of things." Steve growled and was ready to attack.

"You can kill him this time babe, but next time he's mine." You told Steve and kissed his cheek. That was when Steve bolted at the billionaire and the latter ran, but proved ineffective. Iron Man was decommissioned for a month and a half.

"That was me being nice." Steve said then picked you up and carried you two your now shared bedroom.