White lilies. It was your favorite. I'm not a fan of flowers but I liked lilies and found them as pretty and delicate as you.

Like always, I never fail to bring them fresh and tied with pink ribbons. I reached inside my pockets and grasped the round metal tightly. The coldness that touches my palm seems to remind me of your warm and bright smile. I placed the flowers beside your name. It looked perfect as always.

I found myself walking towards the beach where we used to go to. I took my shoes off and count each of my steps in the sand as memories came rushing in my mind like a waterfall.

One, our story begun

It was summer when we first met. I still remember that day. That was the day that I thought of how beautiful you are when you smiled at me. It was one of the most precious moments that I can never forget.

Two, the unrequited tale of me and you

I acted indifferent at that time and tried so hard to ignore you when you just wanted to make friends. I was socially awkward, you see, and I don't know what to say or do when you approached me and said, "hello".

Three, I just wish our memories won't be

We were strangers and I was always rude to you. I don't understand why you still insist on being friends with me even though I only push you away everytime you try to start a conversation.

Maybe it was because of your smile or your gentle voice that I found myself drowning in your laughter. I don't even remember what exactly happened. All I know is that my heart starts beating fast when you smiled at me and called me your friend. It was magical.

Four, like footprints on the shore

I love it when you would appear in front of our doorstep and bring me along with you to your favorite beach. I love it when you smile while basking yourself in the sun. I love it when you laugh as you played with the waves on the shore. I love everything you do.

I love it when you hold my hand and drag me along as you count our footprints. Those marks may fade when waves kiss the sand but they will remain imprinted in my memory as how you took your place in my heart.

Five, if I could just turn back the time

I always wish time would stop so that I can look at your beautiful face until eternity. When I met you, I came to know what happiness really is. I used to live my life as uncaring as I am before you met me. Sometimes, I wonder why God gave me an angel like you. I was so grateful that it was you.

Six, I'll seize every moment that I missed

Those times we spent together were my happiest memories. I love it when you tell me you love me while your cheeks flush pink. I love the way you smile at me. I love it when you show me your real self. I love how I can be myself when I'm with you. I love your smiles, your voice, and your laughter. I love you.

We were so happy and so in love but...

Seven, our 'happy ever after' never happened

All those wonderful things came to an end. Why is it that good things do not always last? We planned our future together. We promised to love each other until we're old and until our hairs turn white. We had plans but this was not part of them. I always thought I can't own your heart completely but I never planned of letting your hand go. I never...

Eight, I still hope I'm not too late

I always hear you saying you love me but you can't give your whole heart to me. I always knew you meant it when you said you wanted to be with me until the day your heart stops beating. I never knew that day will come this soon. I never got the chance to ask for your hand. It was already cold when I slipped the ring that fits your finger perfectly. I always kept it inside my pocket and it's my greatest regret that I never gave it to you earlier.

It was too early for our love to end and it was too late for the both of us.

Nine, I always look up at the stars in the sky

I sat by our usual spot on the seaside, ignoring the cold ocean breeze. I can still feel your warmth beside me. The touch of your warm and gentle hands still feels as if it was only yesterday when I held them in mine.

For the first time in my life, I felt lost. I knew love when I found you and now I don't know where to go without you.

Ten, wishing that my love could reach you in heaven

Fate was too cruel for us. It never gave us the chance to be together for a longer time. All it gave us was a short borrowed moment of being with each other only to take it back.

Maybe, we we're not meant to be together in this life. If that is truly the case, I promise to love you in my next life and the next. Wherever you are, I hope you're finally happy. I'll be missing you always, my love.

The sunset lying above the horizon seems to invite me and I found myself walking towards the shore. I felt the waves touching the tip of my toes. I looked behind to see a pair of footprints. Only a pair.

My heart ached when reality hit me once again. I swallowed a lump in my throat upon realizing that I was alone. I glanced at the ocean once more and felt envious of how calm and peaceful it is. I held the ring close to my chest.

What's the use of these heartbeats? My heart is only beating for you.

"My Lily, I'm coming home."

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Dedicated to LEGALWIFENIYURI