Yes... Ruff.

Ruff day.

Seriously I feel so done with trying yet every single day I keep trying. I tell myself I'm done yet here I am doing it. I argue with myself to just give up. You'll never get better, you'll never improve....

I try with everything. And I'm so dang frustrated... I keep failing. It's discouraging. It really is.

My friend told me just give up. You say he's a terrible friend for saying that. He's not. He's honest. He's blunt. He's real. He's absolutely right. Cause this is ridiculous.

And I did.

But then he told me. "I didn't mean give up completely. I meant. Take a break. Collect yourself. Get focused again. Cause right now. You are trash. Your anything but sane right now."

"Why did I say this?"He said. "Because I know you. I know you're better then that. You're running yourself into the ground. You need to stop. You are so much more so what the heck are you doing giving up after you've come so far."

And he's right.

There's my insert of a ruff day and bottled up stuff I've been dealing with.

-commander out