So.. 🍁🍂October is here!🍂🍁

And apparently from how it's started... it's a month I don't like. Idk why everyone else likes it. Although I have to say, free candy is awesome! Wanna know a fun fact about me tho?

I've never been tricker-treating a day in my life.

Ever.

It's not because we don't believe in it or anything. We just live... out in the country. And before that we lived... in well a bad place. I've seen some... ya.. stuff at 8:00 in the morning and gun shots were a common thing. Yeah not a safe place for kids...

I'm just glad I'm alive 😂 although I had been riding my bike when I was like 10, around that area and there was this guy in a good that followed me around... I'm not even kidding... and then people who would invite you into their house. Older men... not nice men.

So... I love the country XD my neighbors.. are bunny rabbits! I'll have to get a picture of them for you guys.

Hate the WiFi tho.

That's a little insight on my past.

Welp, beware. This next part might turn into a rant. I just really need to talk about a few things. Not really for you guys. Just for me. (So I'm talking to myself basically)

What on earth is wrong with people!? Not irl people. But people on wattpad! In this very community that I've come to love with all my heart! But get frustrated when stuff like this happen!!

What on earth has happened to FORGIVENESS?? Does no one know the phrase "forgive and forget"?! Cause I'm about sick of this! No matter how evil or sinful we are-

(and believe me: it's not just ONE person fault for a TWO way sin! You can't just blame ONE person!) take away some of that pride and look at yourself! )

-God died on the cross for us! Whether you believe in him or not, a Christian or an atheist. God died for us just so he could take away your sin and mine!

I know I'm not a good person. And believe me you people don't know the half of it. But come on... more people have hurt me in this life then you know. And right now. I stand here having forgiven the one person who weighed me down for so long! You know why? Because forgive and forget. I didn't want that dragging me down my whole life so I put it behind me. God forgives our sins and forgets it. So why can't you do the same? Christian or not.

To those of you who actually know what I'm talking about: stop. Just stop. You've hurt me. You've hurt him/ her. So much that they are just done with things.

Seriously, I leave with this...

Forgive and forget. You can have a happy life. So can they. We all bleed the same. Especially on wattpad. Brothers/ and sisters alike.

To a second part.... I'm aware what I may say may be hypocritical or fake of me. And I realize that. But I promise I'm working on doing the same. Forgive and forgetting. And you know what I have... but this... still hurts:

Story time:

So for the past month I've been getting closer to this girl in my high school. Because last year... she was part of the influence of my... 'depression' I guess you could say that. But this year we started anew and stuff and we actually became friends and stuff- because we forgave each other and left it behind us.

But for the past two weeks: she's been missing.

No one knew where she was. If she was okay. Or even alive. And of course I've been super worried. I asked a teacher about her the week ago. And the answers I got were vague. Basically I knew she was alive.

Well, I came today, and the first thing I'm told is...

She's gone.

I can never legally see her again. She transferred schools.

And the last thing she told me was "I've got your back."

I called her for two weeks. I texted her. I tried her mom. Nothing. I'm not mad at her. Just hurt...

And idk how to finish this.. so I'm leaving now. Two of my good friends are gone. Without a last word.

If you say I have nothing to cry about. Your wrong. Dead wrong.

-commander out