Tw: ab/se, heavy mentions of s//c/de (bait and real issues), relationship issues

I know i am beeing very silly and stupid here.

(Part 1, the ab/se (not from my girlfriend at all))

I cant play the adult anymore. I cant just grow up anymore. I cant pretend that I never noticed what they did. I cant just ignore my mental health anymore because its getting so bad the s//c/de tendencies come back but they never cared. They never will. After all, if they cared they would not let her be here. She who threathend to kill me and physically ab/sed me for years and years. They dont care. Then they wouldnt threathen to leave all the time or to k/ll themself. They wouldnt always claim I am lazy and act like I just dont want to.

Part two (no ab/se)

I just want my gf back and to hold her and cuddle her and love her and stuff