(Small warning; I am in distress so sorry if this sucks

Tw: Alex centric oneshot, several moments were he was left, implied sa (not heavily) physical ab/se, suitbait mention, abandoment, and mild distrusting of s/o. Kat is not named here)

I am used to beeing left alone

I barely remeber every single time.

There was once were I just had given mom her birthday gift and she threw it at me and left angrily

Or the time she stabbed my eye out. I remember her just leaving, along with my sisters

It is common that I am left behind.

It happens again and again

For every reason in the book.

Making me cling to every person who even mildly didnt plan to leave.

But i am still doubtfull.

Even of them. Why of them?

Why cant I stop doubting to be left alone?

Maybe it waw one to many times my mother threathend to just Pack her bags.

Maybe it was one too many times she threathend to k/ll herself

But at least they wont leave, rigth?