(Tw: mentions of c//ting, mentions of hitting your kids (not ab/se), mentions of sorta not caring for sh as a parents, i sorta whine abbout my trauma reaction so please be carefull if youre trauma made you mature faster, internalized (ig) ableism. Trust me, i know its not healthy but this is a vent)

My parents dont care. My dad told me today he knew I was cutting and that he didnt care enough to watch out. My mom hit me on the fingers when I was younger when I bited my nails but she didnt when I sh.

I am so immature. People who are traumatized are supposed to mature quicker. Arent supposed to be whiney kids who cant talk when theyve been mildly upset. Arent supposed to need headphones all the damn time. Are supposed to be nice and kind. Not selfish and lazy and harsh and rude.

Why cant I be their sweet prodigy I once was? Why cant I be their gifted little angel who cant do wrong? Why cant anyone believe me in any situation?