(Tw: alex johnson, mentions of bad hygiene, a lot of jealousy and comparing self to others and trauma.

I dont mean to shame people who cope with beeing energetic, but I am tired of trying to be cute and high energy. Your coping is very valid.)

Alex was tired.

He was sicken tired of everyone prefering his fun and cute and sweet sister.

So what if he didnt cope cutely? He shouldnt have to.

He is allowed to not be all bubbly and brigth and happy all the time but why does everyone still love literally any more fun member of his family?

Why does he have to be cutesy and fun so people like to spend time with him?

He was tired out. His act was draining and he was close to lashing out at someone.

Why cant he be drained and not fun for once?

He knew why. Hed bother people

But hed wish for once to not be cute. For once to not to act adorable and cute and shy when really he had no more energy.

For once not in public beeing a cute nice sweet guy.

Just beeing himself.

But that wasnt gonna happen.

After all, suffering should always be pretty.