༄✯ 爱重新 —

Ahnji enters the room — a single sized bed for her to sit on was placed. She saw the stuffed toys, blanket, and pillow that rested on the bed.

Once she takes a seat on the bouncy bed, she smiles at the staff and then at the camera.

❝can you introduce yourself?❞

"Yes~ hello, I am Park Ahnji, I am 22 years old, and is an Korean idol."

❝do you know what River of Thoughts is all about?❞

"All I know is that I will be asked different types of questions. I have the choice to answer or pass the question asked to me... Am I right?"

A staff nods their head. "The questions could be personal and you can pass them if you feel uncomfortable. We'll be asking now..."  (Ahnji nods)

❝how did you feel writing about heartbreaks?❞

"I felt overwhelmed and saddened. It was hard to put the emotion of heartbreak into the song. Feeling something so emotionally painful and trying to convey it to words..." (she shakes her head) "It was very difficult."

❝was there ever a reason why this became your main topic?❞

"There is one!" (laughs) "It might sound cliche but I recently got my heart broken. I don't want to be too detailed with it but the feeling it gave me..." (sighs) "It just surprised me that love can be so good, yet so painful. I want to share the feeling that I felt because I know there are a lot more people who felt the same."

❝will you risk it again for love?❞

"I mean — I must if I want a relationship, right?" (laughs) "I honestly believe that love is like a pattern or something that gives you choices to choose. It can have that pattern of pleasure, pain, pleasure, pain or give you choices like 'will you give this person a 2nd chance?'."

"Loving one person is already a big risk. Everyone are making risks when it comes to love. They get into a relationship with confidence about the relationship being long-lasting or anxiety about the relationship being cut short."

❝after getting a heartbreak, can you prepare yourself for another one?❞

"Just like mentioned in the other question — I must if I want to be in a relationship. I'm not sure if I'm currently looking for a relationship after a heartbreak but maybe, in the future..." (smiles) "maybe in the future, I might look for one."

❝do you have any thoughts or opinions about relationships in the idol world?❞

"Oh~ I have plenty." (chuckles) "they're not against the idols though- well, most of it. One of my opinions that a lot of people could agree on is that you should not hate on the idols who are saying. It's their lives and others should not meddle in their relationship."

"If you want to hear a thought then it's definitely difficult to hide a relationship in the industry. Idols in relationships tend to distance themselves from others if they have overlapping schedules in music shows and that action itself is already difficult." (she tilts her head)

"There's so many idols out there who are unexpectedly in a relationship." (Laughs)

❝have you ever fallen in love with an idol?❞

"Honestly, yes — I've fallen in love and got my heart broken. I won't say who but-" (sighs) "I don't know why but it felt like I expected too much, you know? I thought things were going well then oh! Heartbreak was greeting me." (laughs)

❝was there a time where you thought it will go well?❞

"Yes! A few times before the waterfall suddenly stopped flowing. I was saddened by it but then — it wouldn't have given me this feeling. It wouldn't have inspired me to write the songs, so at least, something good came out from it."

❝are you and that person still talking to each other?❞

"We haven't talked to each for a week now. It just seemed to awkward..." (laughs)

❝will you ever talk to that person if you haven't talked for a long time?❞

"Unless it is for business purposes- I don't think I have the courage for that. I will try to talk, but I cannot guarantee that I will end up doing it." (she takes the stuffed toy from the side and hugs it.)

❝have you moved on yet?❞

"Hmm... Pass question."

❝is this feeling new for you?❞

"It definitely was a new feeling. Just the feeling of love for me is new. It was very overwhelming and confusing. It felt like I was in a labyrinth full of mixed diamonds and coal."

❝have you ever felt loved?❞

"Of course, I have, that's what got my hopes up after all." (Chuckles) "there are a few moments where I felt loved but those were all acted, so I'm not sure. It definitely made me feel something and I can say that it felt nice."

❝is there someone that's making you feel loved at the moment?❞

"Romantically, no." (Chuckles) "platonically, there is one person. They're my co-worker for an upcoming- ooh, how do you say this? Uh-" (laughs). "You know what? They're my co-worker for an upcoming drama."

❝do you think you can see yourself being attracted to this person?❞

"Another pass please."

❝do you want to start anew without the person who broke your heart?❞

"I mean... That's the point of my new album. A new type of love with or without a person to include in your life. I genuinely think people should start normalizing that we can receive love from ourselves, it doesn't have to be from someone else." (Smiles) "so yes! I can start anew without them in my love life."

❝are you afraid?❞

"I'm afraid of many things, to be very honest," (chuckles). "But if it's in the land of love then yes, I am afraid. Even if love is like a process of trying again, it's scary to that how many times you can feel heartache from the person you became fond of."

Ahnji noticed the staff member putting down their card before looking at her.

❝thats all, can you say goodbye and your regards?❞

(Nods) "thank you for having me for the first episode of this series. I hope other idols who will be featuring will feel the comfort and security the staff gives. Goodbye~."

With the interview coming to an end, Ahnji thanks the staff team bedore leaving the room; unaware that she was already trending on Twitter.

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I hope this was good enough 😔