May 20

I woke up and I looked all around.
It was 7:38...

Was it all a dream?!

I saw that I was in my clothes from yesterday...which in other words means that it wasn't a dream...it was reality...and everything really happened.

So I didn't bother changing...cause why not?

Anyway...
My dry No basically broke Justin into pieces on the inside...
He didn't show it emotionally and physically but you could tell he was hurt...

I do feel bad...cause he's been so nice to me lately...and he once all of the school year never even looked in my direction.
I was basically a nobody to him at that point in time...but then I had to go to that party...
The same party that changed my relationships with my friends and even with Justin but sadly...I ruined what friendship me and Justin had by turning him down.

But what was I supposed to say?
Was I supposed to say yes to someone that my friend likes?!
Say yes and be friendless?!
Or say no and keep my friends?

I'd rather keep my friends than having a boyfriend that will break up with me because eventually he will break up with me and then I'd truly be alone.

Plus he's the bad boy and I don't want to be caught up in drama.
And he's a senior...so In just a few weeks he's going to...well I don't know if he's going to college or not...but basically he's graduating and I'm going to be staying behind and we all know he's going to break up with me.
And I couldn't blame him...
He'd find a different girl who isn't in school still and isn't hiding stuff from him.

My mom ran in my room, her hair in rollers, noxzima covering her face, wearing a big fluffy robe, old man slippers, and in her left hand she held a men's health magazine.

"Dear, what are you still doing in your bed??"

"Uhh...thinking...?"

"No time to think, you'll be late for school if you don't get up and get ready." She scolded me, waving her magazine around dramatically in my face as though if I'm a dog that just pissed in the house.

"Okay mom, sorry." I muttered, getting up and heading to my bathroom.

I got undressed and hopped inside my shower.

Afterward I got out and I grabbed my facial cleanser and squirted some out into a tissue and started scrubbing in on my face thoroghly.

I don't usually miss days of washing my face...only one time and last night...
The one time was after my first party...mainly because the face wash kaeli uses is complete shìt...it at least is for my skin...
It honestly irritates my skin to the extent of where my skin starts to peel...which is so weird because Kaeli uses it everyday and it makes her skin as smooth as a player when he's smooth talking to hook up with some random bimbo.

Anyway you get my point...
I have to use special face wash...that's totally not expensive.
It is Cereve.
It's not like noxzima...which is great because noxzima is so uncomfortable...it makes my head feel pounds heavier.

I washed the face wash off and combed my hair out a bit and grabbed a rubber band and put my hair up in a -really- messy bun...it's still slightly wet but it should dry out soon into my naturally straight locks.

I grabbed my clothes and started getting dressed.

I quickly walked out and grabbed my backpack.

Before I walked downstairs I poured some puppy chow into Peppers food bowl.

I grabbed one of her toys and waved it around, Pepper became alert and quickly jumped up and happily jumped around trying ttt get to it. I quickly threw it to the left side of the room and she went blazing after it.

Pepper isn't that plays with anything even without the help of her owner type of puppy
She needs her owner to play with her. Rarely ever she plays on her own. She's more like a cat because she just lays around and loves laying on people's laps.

I got up and headed out my bedroom and into the kitchen.

I noticed Aaron wasn't there.
He obviously already left for school...while me...the so called good girl as Justin Ritch the bad boy called me...is still here..

I quickly grabbed a piece of toast and and ran out the door while eating it slowly, making sure it digest properly.

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When I got to school...
I ended up being 15 minutes late.