The next morning, Savannah hadn't expected how much it hurt to see Sirius sitting in the Great Hall. She imagined how last night could've gone. She could have simply went up to her dorm to read alone, but no, the girls wanted to stay and hang out with the boys. Remus wanted to play two truths and a lie. And Dalton just had to ruin it all.

All her life, Savannah always leaned on Dalton. He was her rock, the one person she could always count on and trust. Last night he really let her down.

Knowing that she could have a relationship with Sirius broke her heart. She couldn't hurt him like that. It was better that he get over her. She wasn't good for him. At least, that's what she kept telling herself.

Besides, her mum and dad acted like they couldn't stand each other, so why bother with love or relationships at all? Yes, it was better this way. She was right to do what she did last night.

She spotted him. He spotted her. They locked eyes. Tears welled up in hers before she swallowed them. Still, she turned and left the Great Hall. She couldn't face him. She thought she could, but she couldn't.

Sirius knew better than to go after her. If he did, she would only push him away more. She would probably yell at him or just flat out ignore him. No, it was better to leave her be, no matter how much he wanted to go after her.

Dalton knew not to go after her either, not with how pissed she currently was at him. He would probably end up with a black eye or split lip if he tried to talk to her at the moment.

Neither Remus, nor James, nor Peter felt that it was their place to go after her either. They didn't even know what was going on. They just figured she left her book in her dormitory or something.

And so Savannah was left to wallow in her own heartbreak alone. She went to the only place she could think of: the Astronomy tower. No one would be in there since it was early morning, and it was the one place she could think clearly. As she closed the door behind her- all the while thinking about how she should really exercise more; those stairs killed her- she let the tears flow.

I made a mistake. Maybe... maybe Sirius could help fix me. Maybe I shouldn't have told him to get over me. What if Sirius could fix me? No, I can't put him through that. I can't force him to fix me; that's what I'd be doing if I actually... went out with him. No, I have to fix myself if I ever want to have a chance to be with Sirius.

She tried to ground herself, wiping her tears. She felt silly for crying. She laughed humorlessly, thinking, Isn't it funny? I hated him at the beginning of the year. That was what, five months ago? How ironic. How ironic that now I wish I could run into his arms and press my lips against his. If someone would have told me that I would fall for Sirius Black, I would have laughed in their face and called them crazy.

I swore I wouldn't fall for anyone. I swore I would never end up like my parents. And yet, here I am, crying over a boy who straight up told me he liked me. Merlin, why did my parents have to fuck me up so much? A relationship with Sirius right now wouldn't work; I'd get too jealous and defensive. I have to fix myself. Sirius doesn't deserve to have to tiptoe around me.

Merlin, I want him. I want him so much it hurts. I have to fix myself. If I do that, then maybe, just maybe I could... could have a relationship with Sirius.

Yes, I have to fix myself.

Wait, how do I do that?

She didn't know how long she stayed there. An hour, two? Were classes over? Had they even started? All she knew was that she didn't want to move. She didn't want to see Sirius, or anyone for that matter. She wanted to be alone.

Okay, after today, I'm going to be normal. I'll go to breakfast and sit with Lily, Marlene, and Alice. I'll eat what I want. I'll go to class and keep my feet off of the desk. I'll actually take notes. I'll go to lunch with Lils. I'll actually eat.  I'll be normal.

I just need to take today. I need to take today so that I can be normal tomorrow.

She didn't know when she fell asleep, or how she ended up in her bed. Geez, she must've been out of it.

Sirius had went to the Astronomy tower after classes to think. He was surprised to see her curled up against the wall, hugging her knees to her chest as she slept. He sighed, debating on whether or not he should chance picking her up. It didn't take long for him to decide. He couldn't just leave her there on the cold floor. He picked her up, all the while thinking, Merlin, does she ever eat anything? She weighs practically nothing!

He got past the charm on the girls' staircase, going up the stairs as smoothly as possible so as to not wake the sleeping girl in his arms.

He set her down on what he knew was her bed and pressed a light kiss on her forehead, wishing it were her lips instead and she was awake to kiss him back. One day, he reminded himself. One day she'll be mine.

He was just simply too crazy about her to just let her push him away. He wanted her, but he knew he had to give her time.

He would give her as much time as she needed. She didn't need him pressuring her. He just needed to stay away from her for a bit, give her space to figure things out. He knew this, but he didn't want leave her alone.

Sirius Black and Savannah Stone were just too crazy about each other.