No matter what happens... some memories can never be replaced. - Unknown

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Declan's POV

She was kissing me.

I am tasting the forbidden fruit that I vowed not to taste.

But just like the old saying: Kung ano ang bawal, iyon ang mas masarap. And that was what happening to me right now.

Her kiss took away all my pain. All my anger and grief. Her kiss made me calm and took me somewhere where I could be just myself.

            I've kissed countless of women before. I even kissed Kleng, but Stacey's kiss was one of a kind. I couldn't describe it, but the feeling was so surreal. Her warm, moist lips tasting mine was making me ask for more. Hungrier for its taste. I could feel her kisses were becoming deep. Her tongue exploring inside my mouth.

            No. I should stop. I am taking advantage of this situation. But my body has like a mind of its own. My mind was telling me to move away from her but my body, my hands were embracing her tightly and my body wanted to feel the heat radiating from her core.

            Stop. Fucking stop, Declan.

            I keep on telling that to myself, but I could feel Stacey's hand under my shirt. She sat on my legs, looking at my face while stroking my hair.

            "Stop worrying, Wade. I am here." Titig na titig siya sa mukha ko.

            Umiling ako. "W-we shouldn't be doing this." Hindi ko alam kung paano ko nasabi iyon.

            Kumunot ang noo niya. "Why?" Kitang-kita ko ang disappointment sa mukha niya tapos ay kinuha ang kamay ko at ipinatong sa kanang dibdib niya. "You don't want this?" Tapos ay ang isang kamay ko naman at ipinatong naman iyon sa kaliwang dibdib niya. "This? You don't want to taste these?"

            I cursed under my breath when I felt her grinding on top of my hard bulge. My length was aching already.

            Stacey let go of my hand and she removed her shirt that exposed her proud breasts. I swallowed hard. It was the same effect when I first saw these proud mounds. It was setting me on fire.

             "I am Selma, Wade. I am your wife. We can do anything. You can do anything you want to me," her voice was intoxicating. "I am all yours."

            Upon hearing her said that, I pulled her head and kissed her lips. It was hungrier than before. Our tongues played and toyed with each other. It was one of those hard to breath kisses. My hand was busy feeling her soft skin, her soft body. She removed my shirt. Our hands were busy trying to remove our own clothing.  The heat of our bodies rubbing with each other were both burning our sexual desires that needed to be released.

            I had never had such an urge to devour a woman, but naked Stacey in front of me was waking up all my sexual urge. There were lots of images in my head. I would take her from behind. I would taste her sweet core. I would fuck her good until she begged me stop.

            I let her lie down on the couch. Her beautiful breasts were inviting me to taste it. She let out a soft moan when I tasted one crown and my hand was playing with the other. My tongue made its way down to her stomach, to her sensuous curves, down to her thighs. She was giving herself to me. She was opening up everything. Showing me what she could offer in this feast.

            I could see her wet core. I wanted to fuck her right away, but her beauty demanded a proper discovery. I'll taste every inch of her skin. She deserved to be taken slowly, with great appreciation. I traced my tongue from her inner thighs up to her wet slit. The musky smell of her sex made me like a hungry animal that couldn't control its hunger.

            I heard a loud gasp and uncontrollable moan when I dived in between her thighs. I tasted her core, sucking the sensitive bud that has been hiding. I tasted her delicious juice and I don't want to stop this.

            She was moaning non-stop. Grasping my hair. Burying my face deeper into her wet slit. But I needed to pull away. My cock was hard it almost hurt my groins. It was on fire and I needed to fill her.

            I wanted to be inside her.

            I moved on top of her. She was looking at me while waiting what I would do next. Her arms automatically encircled around my body. Her hand was tracing the muscles of my back, nails were starting to dig on my flesh as I was trying to push myself inside her.

            I could see a puzzled look at Stacey's face when I tried to thrust. Fuck. The hell?
             "Bakit masakit?" Taka niya. Nagtatanong ang tingin sa akin.

            What? I tried to push again. Harder this time. Damn it. Bakit ang sikip?

            "W-wait." Napapalunok si Stacey at napabuga pa ng hangin. Parang kumukuha ng buwelo. "Is this because of the accident?"

            Accident? Bakit naman maaapektuhan ang sex life niya dahil sa aksidenteng iyon. I knew she got terrible wounds and bruises on her body but the thing between her thighs was perfectly good.

            "I-I'll try again," halos pumiyok pa ako nang sabihin iyon. Hindi ako puwedeng mabitin ngayon. I've waited long enough for this to happen. Magwawala ako kung hindi pa matutuloy ito sa pagitan naming dalawa.

            Sunod-sunod na tumango si Stacey at pilit na kinakalma ang sarili.

            I tried to push again but I could see her face that she was in pain. It was so tight and when I looked down, I saw red liquid stains at the tip of my cock.

            Fuck. Realization hit me.

"Is this your first time?" Paniniguro ko sa kanya.

            Halatang nagulat din si Stacey sa sinabi ko. "What? I don't know. First time ba nating gawin ito kaya hindi mo rin alam? Hindi ba tayo nag-honeymoon? You know I don't remember anything."

            Mahina akong napamura. I can't do this. Napakarami ko ng kasalanan kay Stacey. Ang dami ko ng kasinungalingan na sinabi sa kanya and I cannot do this anymore. Akma akong aalis sa ibabaw niya pero pinigilan ako ni Stacey.

            "Whatever happened in our honeymoon, I don't care. I don't want to know. But let's do it again. This time. Let's do our honeymoon this time," she was smiling at me. Her face was showing me full approval of what she wanted me to do.

            Fuck. My head was telling me to stop this craziness but my head in between my thighs was telling me a different thing. I looked at Stacey's face when I felt her hand grabbed my dick and stroked it slowly.

            "Come on. It's fine. I want you," she pulled my head at kissed me on my lips.

            And I couldn't say no this time. I thrusted again. Pushing all of my length inside her. No inhibitions at all. Never thinking that this might hurt her. The feeling of her tight and wet slit was all I could ever think of.

            And it was perfect.

            Our union was perfect.

            I slowly moved myself on top of her. I knew she was in pain, but she was gathering all her strength to move with my body rhythm. I couldn't hold myself. My movements became faster. Her moans became louder. I was getting deeper and deeper with my every thrust. I don't want this to stop.

            Our body was rocking rhythmically into each other. She was just looking at me. Her eyes were begging for more as I was moving faster on top of her. Groans were escaping from our throats.

            I kissed her again. I wanted her to remember our first union. I wanted this to be a part of her memory. I wanted to last long but the tight feeling of her walls around my length was too much to handle. I couldn't control it anymore.

            "I want you to remember this moment. Me. I want you to remember me." I whispered in her ear while I was slamming myself hard on top of her.

            No words escaped from her mouth just soft ohhs... and ahhs...

            I felt Stacey's body spasmed as I came inside her. We were clutching each other. Her breasts pressing on my chest. Rapid breaths enveloped the whole place. We were both gasping as we were looking at each other. She was smiling at me. Touching my face like she was looking at it for the first time.

            "I love you, Wade."

            And those words brought me back to reality.

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June's POV

            Nakatingin lang ako kay Wade habang mabilis siyang lumayo sa akin tapos ay mabilis na nagbihis. May nasabi na naman ba akong mali? Bakit bigla na naman siyang nagbago?

            Hindi ako kumikilos. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya. Gusto kong maiyak. Bakit ba siya ganito sa akin? He was giving me mixed signals. One moment he was the sweet and loving husband then all of a sudden, he would become the cold and distant individual.

            Nakita kong tumingin sa akin si Wade. Ngumiti ng mapakla tapos ay lumapit. Dinampot ang t-shirt na suot ko kanina at tinulungan akong isuot iyon.

            "Do you want a warm bath? It will help you ease the pain," mahinang sabi niya.

            Tumango ako. "I think I'll like that."

            Akma akong tatayo pero nagulat ako nang bigla akong buhatin ni Wade at walang imik niyang dinala sa kuwarto. Inihiga niya ako sa kama at sinabing ipi-prepare lang niya ang panligo ko. Ilang sandali pa at lumabas na siya doon tapos ay nilapitan ako sa kama. Hinubad ang t-shirt na suot ko at muli akong binuhat at dinala sa banyo. Umuusok ang tubig sa bathtub.

            Dahan-dahan niya akong inilagay doon. Napapikit ako sa ginhawang naramdaman ko. Totoong nakakawala ng sakit ng buong katawan ang maligamgam na tubig.

            "Call me when you're done. May kukunin lang ako saglit." Paalam niya at lumabas na. Pinabayaan kong nakababad ang katawan ko sa maligamgam na tubig.

            Ang daming tanong sa isip ko. Three months na kaming kasal ni Wade pero wala pang nangyayari sa amin? Ngayon pa lang? Paano nangyari iyon? Hindi kaya iyon ang dahilan kaya siya malamig sa akin? Ano kaya ang nangyari sa aming dalawa bago ang aksidente? Bago ako magkaroon ng problemang ganito sa isip ko.

            Biglang kumabog ang dibdib ko sa naisip ko pero gusto kong alisin ang pag-aalala na iyon.

            Hindi kaya may itinatago sa akin si Wade? Mayroon siyang hindi sinasabi sa akin.

            Maya-maya ay pumapasok na siya sa loob ng banyo at may dala ng tuwalya.

            "Okay ka na? Come on. Para makapagpahinga ka na." Inalalayan pa niya akong makatayo at makaalis sa bathtub tapos ay binalutan ng tuwalya sa katawan. "Naka-prepare na ang damit mo sa kama. I'll take a shower." Paalam pa niya at isinara na ang pinto.

            Hindi na ako kumibo. Nagbihis na lang ako at humiga na sa kama. Hindi pa ba ako nasanay sa lalaking ito?

            Tumalikod na ako ng higa sa kama nang maramdaman kong bumukas ang pinto ng banyo. Sigurado naman ako na lalabas din siya dito. Kung hindi ko naman siya pinipilit, hindi naman niya ako tinatabihan sa kama kaya sigurado na ako ngayon na aalis din siya.

            Pero nagulat ako nang biglang lumundo ang kama sa tabi ko at may pumulupot na kamay sa beywang ko. Nakaramdam pa ako ng maiinit na hininga sa bandang batok ko at siksik na siksik ang katawan niya sa katawan ko.

            "Good night." Mahinang sabi ni Wade at lalong humigpit ang pagkakapulupot ng braso sa katawan ko. Hindi nagtagal ay naririnig ko na ang malalalim niyang paghinga.

            Napangiti ako. And I like this. Kahit ano pang mixed signals ang ipinapakita niya sa akin, kapag ganito na siya tinutunaw ang lahat ng pagdududa ko sa kanya.

            Sleeping beside him was the best feeling.