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I don't know why I was sat here. My mind wasn't thinking straight. I just needed to speak to him to end everything between us, to get a fresh start.

That's why I snuck out of Dan's house this morning and came here. He doesn't know I've gone and I hate myself for not telling him but if he ever found out where I was he would hate me forever.

The worst part is that I did to him what he did to me, that night after he first kissed me. I was so upset when I woke up in the morning and found out he was gone and now I'm doing the exact same thing to him.

I bounced my knee up and down impatiently as I fiddled with my fingers. I couldn't sit still. My head was spinning with what I was going to say to him when I saw him.

I haven't seen him since that night and I was terrified to look upon his face again. What if I cracked? What if the barriers I have built all come crashing down on me? What if I'm not strong enough to do this?

And with that thought I decided that I couldn't do this today, I was stupid for thinking I ever could. I stood up from my chair and quickly walked down the corridor.

"Miss Jenkins?" a voice called causing me to spin around on my heel "the patient can see you now" the old woman spoke gesturing with her hand for me to follow her.

I couldn't back down, it was now or never right? I sucked up every negative thought and smiled at the woman before following her to his room.

My shoes clicked against the floor as my palms became sweaty with nerves. Why was I doing this to myself?

'To finish it' my subconscious sternly told me 'to finally get him out of your life'

And she was right I was doing this for me.

"This is his room" the woman smiled stopping at the door "do you want to be alone or should I be with you?"

"Alone please" I quickly answered as she nodded before walking away down the corridor leaving me completely by myself.

I breathed deeply in before wrapping my numb fingers around the door knob and pushing it open slowly. It creaked as I pushed it making the figure on the bed look up from their sleepy state.

"Abby?" they questioned shocked that I was actually here

"Nathan" I squeaked out awkwardly standing in the doorway not really knowing what to do with myself.

"Come in, take a seat" he pointed to the chair next to his bed as he pushed his body to a sitting position causing him to groan in pain.

I really didn't want to sit that close to him. I really didn't want to be here at all so I hesitated before deciding just to sit down.

"So how are you?" I asked looking at his bandaged chest and the yellow bruise which was on his cheek.

"I have a broken rib and a fractured jaw but apart from that I'm totally fine" I could hear the sarcasm laced in his tone and it made me feel even more uncomfortable then I already was.

"Does it hurt?"

"Yeah a lot to be honest. The doctors say I'm gonna have to stay here for another week and then rest at home for 2 weeks after that. That means I won't go back to America for 3 weeks" he spat the words a frown deep on his forehead.

"Oh" the news shocked me a little. Well actually a lot. He would be in England for way longer than I wanted him to be and this saddened me.

"Can we just cut the crap Abby" I snapped my head up to finally look into his eyes before quickly looking away. Those eyes gave me nightmares. "Why did you really come here? It obviously wasn't to see how I was doing."

"Um I ..." his statement shocked me. I really wanted to say a million things to him but where to start. I didn't want him to get upset or angry so I was desperate to stay calm "I just wanted to tell you, that after today I don't want to ever see or hear from you ever again"

I whispered the words out. After all this time I was still absolutely terrified of him. I shouldn't have come here alone. What if he hurts me again?

'That's not going to happen Abby' my subconscious calmed me down 'he's in a hospital bed. You have the power this time'

I listened to her words carefully and soaked them all in. I had the power over him.

"Did that Dan kid tell you to say that" he scoffed

"No, I did" I spoke clearly this time. "it was my decision, he doesn't even know I'm here"

"Oh so he's just another person you've lied to" his voice got angrier

"What's that supposed to mean?" I asked confused

"Well you were obviously hooking up with him when you were with me, weren't you?" he yelled causing me to cower back into the chair

"No" I stuttered. I didn't but why wasn't I saying that clearly. I never cheated on him, I never made any moves towards him.

Suddenly he grabbed my arm in his grasp and squeezed it tightly causing me to wince "Even now you're still terrified of me" he taunted as I whimpered from the pain "who's gonna save you now, you're little boyfriend isn't around to protect you"

Tears started to build up in my eyes. He was taunting me. I was always just his little toy to play with, to break, to throw around and to use.

'Show him Abigail, show him he can't use you anymore'

I could be strong, I wasn't his anymore , he couldn't control me.

I snatched my hand away ruffly before rising to my feet quickly "don't ever touch me again" I seethed as I took a step backwards. Nathan just looked shocked that I was finally standing up to him.

"For years I have dealt with your shit. I have let you hit me, hurt me, push me around but not anymore. You can never hurt me ever again because if you do you will regret it. I am not the same timid girl you thought I was. I know how manipulative you are and you are not going to control me anymore. We used to be friends Nathan but then you changed into this horrible monster that I now know and I want nothing to do with you. I don't want to hear or even see from you again. You disgust me and I will never forgive you for what you did to me"

My hands were shaking but in anger after I shouted the words at him. My chest was rising up and down quickly as I tried to get my breathing back to normal.

Nathan just sat there. His body was slumped against the pillows behind him. He didn't know what to say and neither did I.

I didn't know I had that in me. To finally stand up to him. I was so proud of myself that a smile crept onto my face.

A nurse came running into the room "I heard shouting is everything okay" she hurriedly asked looking at both of us.

"Everything's fine" I smiled at here before looking at him "isn't it Nathan" I taunted smirking at him

"Yeah" he grumbled out looking down.

I had won. He knew I wasn't his anymore.

"Well I better be going" I started walking towards the door "oh and by the way Nathan" I span around "we are completely and utterly over"

And with that I walked out of the door and out of the hospital finally feeling free.

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I stepped through the front door of Dan's house as quietly as I could. I sneaked out really early so it was now about 8 in the morning. I closed the door silently and then leant my head against it in exasperation.

"Abby" shit. I obviously wasn't quiet enough "where have you been?" Dan quickly walked down the stairs coming towards me. He looked really sleepy and his hair was all matted. He was wearing a baggy T-shirt and shorts and still managed to look amazing.

"Um I don't really want to talk about it" I whispered and tried to step around him but he just grabbed my arm causing me to whimper in pain.

His eyes widened when he lifted my arm up to his eye line "what the fuck is this?" he seethed.

Where Nathan had grabbed my arm there was now a yellowing bruise. It looked worse than it felt. It didn't really hurt at all.

"I said what is this?" he asked again his voice going a octave lower.

"It's nothing" I smiled at him trying to walk around him but he just wouldn't let go.

"Abby, tell me now" his voice wasn't angry anymore it was concerned.

"What I'm gonna say is going to annoy you so just don't interrupt me okay" I tried to reason with him.

"I went to see Nathan ..."

"Wait you did what?" he yelled

"I went to go and talk to him and tell him that I wanted nothing more to do with him" I whispered the words.

"And he did this" Dan seethed his eyes darkening

"Yeah but then..."

"I'm going to fucking kill him I swear" he cut he off again dropping my arm and walking around me. His face was screwed up in anger and his fists were clenched.

"Dan stop" I pulled on his arm but he just shrugged me off "Dan please..."

"No, he can't hurt you Abby. He needs to understand that"

"And you need to understand that I can fight my own battles. I appreciate that you are trying to protect me, I really do, but I can't let you keep getting in trouble when it's my problem" I pulled on his arm so that he had to face me

"But Ab's .."

"No, I'm here now and he will never hurt me again I could count on that" I grabbed his cheek running my hand across it slowly.

There was silence for a while as I tried to calm Dan down. His eye line was facing the floor and he was slowly breathing at a normal pace again. With each breath he took his hands started to unclench a tiny bit until they were back to their normal colour.

"Why did you leave this morning?" He whispered finally bringing his eyes up to meet mine.

"I didn't want you to know where I had gone" I answered truthfully taking my hand away from his face.

"I was worried" he grabbed my hand in his and rubbed his fingertips over my knuckles.

"I know I'm sorry"

"Don't ever leave without telling me again" He spoke sternly but I knew it was mainly out of concern

"Okay" I lifted my eye line to his so he knew I was being serious "I promise"

"Good" he smiled before pulling on my arm making me fall into his chest giggling "because I missed you this morning" he whispered into my hair before leaving a kiss on my cheek.

"I missed you too" I laughed before grabbing his hand and pulling him to the kitchen "Now where has Phil put the crumpets?"

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