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"So you just walked out?" Phil asked his body leant forward in curiosity.

Phil, Emily and I were sat in the dining room at school. It had been three days since the incident at the police station and I haven't talked to or even seen Dan.

So here I was, sat down eating a sandwich after telling Emily and Phil the whole story. I told Emily about Nathan as I trusted her and she was one of my best friends. She was shocked at first and then she started crying. I think she just felt bad for me and she is quite a sensitive person overall.

I didn't mind her tears. I didn't mind that she was pitying me. Sometimes it's good to have a little pity and a cry.

Emily was sat next to me holding my hand the entire time I was telling the story and it felt nice to have someone helping me through this. Phil just sat opposite me on a emotional roller coaster. One minute he was laughing at what I said to Dan's father and the next he looked like he wanted to strangle Dan with his bare hands.

"Yep" I answered popping the 'p' "I needed to get out of that place so I just left, if Dan isn't there for me why should I be there for him" I simply stated sitting up straighter and taking a bite of my sandwich.

"Good for you" Emily smiled squeezing my hand in reassurance giving me a little smile.

"Thanks" I mumbled giving a small smile back at her.

I saw the way Phil was looking at Emily and smiled. Their affection for each other was endearing.

"So when are you two going to tell me you're going out" I stated casually brushing the crumbs of my fingers.

Phil chocked on his water nearly spitting it everywhere, his eyes becoming wider and he coughed awkwardly "we're not..."

I cut him off "oh please, you have secretly been dating for like three weeks. I'm not that stupid" I chuckled glancing at Emily who had a dark red blush on her face.

"How did you know?" Emily spluttered

"Oh come on" I jokingly sighed "you both look at each other in the most memorising way. It's adorable. Every time Phil holds my hand, you have this jealous look on your face" I laughed "also you both hold hands when you think no one is looking" I winked at them.

"We're not very sly are we" Emily chuckled looking at me in embarrassment.

"No you're defiantly not. Probably the most un-sly couple I have ever seen" I laughed and slowly Phil and Emily joined in.

"So come on guys" I let go of Emily's hand "hold hands, kiss, whatever, it is valentines day after all"

"We...um.." Phil stammered awkwardly

"Yeah yeah lovebirds, I'll leave you two alone" I stood up from my chair throwing my rubbish in the bin "I have to get to my next lesson anyway" I walked away from them waving other my shoulder "have fun" I yelled smirking.

I walked down the corridor, plugging my headphones in. When you have you're headphones in you can completely block out the world and pretend all this is a dream.

I skip down the hallway, glad it was completely empty so no one could see my horrible weird air guitar moves I was doing.

I quietly sang along to the song as I rounded the corner but as I did I chocked on the words, my mind spinning around me.

Dan was there and he wasn't alone.

He had a girl pushed against the lockers and was kissing her ruffly. This wasn't any girl either it was Angel the school slut.

I couldn't look away. His hands were traveling down her beautiful model perfect body as his lips attacked her mouth. Her hands roaming in his hair as she dragged him closer.

I felt the tears prick my eyes and then I felt them fall down my face. I turned around running down the hall in the other direction until I hit the girls bathroom door and slammed it open.

Why? Why did he kiss her? I knew I had no chance with him. I'm just stupid to think that he ever cared about me. Im not beautiful like Angel. I don't have perfect golden hair and perfect curves. Im not popular and got all the boys chasing after me. I'm just me. Brown hair, Brown eyes, normal
height, average body. Of course Dan doesn't like me.

I stood in front of the mirror, my hands gripping the sink as I slowly lifted my head up to see my reflection.

I hated myself for falling for him. I hated that I thought some part of him cared for me. I hated how stupid I was.

I also hated him.

I hated how Dan led me on. I hated how I told him one of my darkest secrets and then he left. I hated how I had let him kiss me then walk away.

Tears blurred my vision as I ran my hand under my eyes trying to catch the fallen tears. I breathed in a deep breath calming myself down.

I couldn't stay here anymore. I couldn't be surrounded by every loved up couple on valentines day whilst I had no luck in romance or anything linked to love. I was jealous of all those people who actually had someone to care for them while I had no one.

I needed to get away. I had skipped school once with Dan so I knew how to get out. I walked out of the bathroom, the corridors still mainly empty. I speed walked down the hallways until I reached the back door. I looked around to make sure no one saw me before slipping out and running to my car driving home.

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"You sure you'll be alright on your own" my Mum asked pulling me into a hug.

"Yes of course i'll be fine" I lied giving her a fake smile.

I had just been told that my parents were going out for a meal to celebrate valentines day so I would have the whole house to myself all night.

Most kids my age would love this but after the day I've had I really just needed some comfort. Of course I hadn't told my mum anything but I still wanted company.

"Alright sweetheart" Mum pulled back "there is some cash for a pizza on the side so you don't starve and ..."

"Mum I'm fine" I smiled "go and enjoy yourself you look beautiful"

"Thanks love" my mum smiled gratefully kissing my cheek before taking dad's hand and pulling him out the door "bye" she called as they got in the car and sped away.

I closed the door, sighing as I did so. This was gonna be one long night.

After about an hour I ordered the pizza and was currently sat in front of the TV watching 'The fault in our stars'. Yep typical cliche teenage girl I know.

Tears were running down my eyes as the last scene played on my tv. This film gets me every time.

Suddenly the door bell rang and I jumped up smiling ready to eat the pizza I had ordered.

I ran down the hallway quickly opening the door with a smile.

"Oh!" my smile quickly dropped from my face at the person stood outside my door.

"Hey" Dan said awkwardly rubbing the back of his neck

"What do you want" I spat crossing my arms across my chest.

"What have I done now?" Dan sighed in frustration obviously confused at my angry state.

"Well let's see" I spoke in such a pissed off tone "for starters you're dad was a complete asshole to me ...."

"I know I'm sorry" Dan cut me off

"Don't interrupted" I snapped "then what do I find, you beat up my old boyfriend and then I walked down a corridor to see you pushed up against a locker kissing the schools slut" I yelled at him throwing my hands up in the air.

"What..you saw that" he stammered his eyes becoming wider

"Yes I saw the whole thing" I grimaced at the memory.

"Oh" Dan shamefully looked down "I'm sorry, I didn't know what I was doing ..."

"No" I yelled "you don't get to play the victim here, you don't get to be sad about this. I do" I tried to slam the door in his face but Dan caught it with his hand.

"Look Abby I'm sorry I didn't mean what I did, it just kind if happened" he looked right into my eyes

"It just kind of happened" I mocked "that doesn't just kind of happen, you could have stopped it at any time" I shouted pushing his body back in anger.

Dan stumbled backwards before running his hands through his hair "why are you so annoyed by this anyway? It's not like I'm your boyfriend!" He yelled back at me

"Because I like you, you asshole" I shouted before lifting my hands to my mouth in shock. I just admitted it. Omg he's going to laugh at me or something.

Instead Dan just completely stood still his eyes locking with mine. His chest slowly rising up and down along with mine. We both just stood there in complete silence taking in what I had just said.

Finally Dan took a tentative step forward towards my body "you like me?" he asked

"Yes" I whispered back not ashamed to admit it. Tears were pricking my eyes now. I seriously need to stop crying as much.

"Well I kind of just screwed this up didn't I" he sadly spoke gesturing towards me and him. His eyes showed so much emotion. The sadness, the guilt and most of all the pain.

"Yeah you did" I sadly stated hugging my arms around my chest in sadness.

There was an awkward silence as both of us didn't really know what to say or how to finish his conversation.

"Well I'm sorry" Dan said turning around to leave. He placed his hands in his jean pockets hunching his shoulders up.

I slowly stepped back towards my house grabbing the door handle and closing the door behind me. I slid down the door grabbing my knees as I curled up in a ball crying. The emotion was too much. I was angry, sad, tired, crushed and most of all un-loved.

Suddenly the door bell rang again.

I stood up and rubbed under my eyes before opening the door again.

" I'm really sorry, what I did was really stupid and I shouldn't have kissed her and ...." Dan stumbled over his words as I just stood there watching his every move.

" I just wanted to ...oh fuck it" he groaned grabbing my face in his hands and slamming his lips to mine.

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