// SO SORRY FOR LATE UPDATE!!! I left my left my phone on the bus and didn't get much time to work on dis. Only 5 more chapters after this one ToT

"Don't try to keep your hands clean. That's right.....the world is cruel." -Eren Jeager [or Yeager or Jagër] (Attack on Titan) \\

Saru's POV

February 5, 2016

I have the perfect gift for Misaki for Valentine's Day and I'm nervous to give it to him.

But for the past few days, he's been tense and avoid everyone, especially Mr. Ikki, even though he said he wanted to meet him.

Misaki also hasn't want any sexual activity sense being released from the hospital, I'm truly worried about him.

"Oi, Fushimi, stop spacing out in my class."Ikki said, throwing a pencil at Fushimi.

"Gomen, Sensei, I zoned out for a moment." I replied.

Ikki shrugged and looked over at Misaki with a smile and Misaki tensed before Ikki went back to teaching the lesson.

"Misaki, you okay?" I asked, glancing at the pale Misaki.

He could barely shake his head yes as he stared out in front of him.

I growled slightly. I hated not knowing everything, it's hell for me. And now that Misaki isn't telling me why we can't have sex nor why he's still ill, pushes me over the edge.

I grabbed Misaki's wrist and pulled him toward me, forcefully kissing him. His eyes opened wide in shock and I quickly slide my tongue in.

Good news: Misaki wasn't resisting.

Bad news: we sat in the center of the class so the whole class turned to watch us French kiss.

Misaki was clearly embarrassed because his cheeks were flaming red and burning hot. I wasn't bothered but I did shoot glares at a few who looked at us in disgust.

I pulled back and looked around o find that we had everyone's eyes, even the teachers.

"If you're going to make out, leave my classroom!" Mr. Ikki shouted, true anger in his voice.

All the kids turned and looked at the furious red-faced tracer in surprise, even myself.

Miskai hide behind me in fear and I was speechless. Never, in my month of knowing Ikki, had I ever heard him get mad, even raise his voice, for that fact.

Mr. Ikki cooled down and cleared his throat."Sorry, students, I'll get back to the class." He said, pointing back at the whiteboard.

Misaki eased a little but still held onto me.

I stared off into space, my mind racing and my thoughts tripping over one another.

Then, one question formed and came clear in my mind:

Why does Misaki fear Mr.Ikki so much?

Time Skip

February 6,2016

I heard whimpering and crying behind a bush on the way to Mr.Ikki's class.

Misaki wasn't with me currently because he went to go talk to, you guessed it, Mikoto.

Curiously, and cautiously, I steadily walked toward the bush. I spread apart some of the bushes so I could see who or what it was that was crying.

My eyes bulged out of my head and my mouth gapped open at the horrific sight in front of me.

There was a deep cut in Misaki's right cheek, almost to the bone. Knife cuts covered his bruised up body and his once white shirt was covered in fresh, red blood as he was stabbed in the left hip. On both sides of his neck, small and thin cuts on each side were dripping small amounts of blood.

The grass around Misaki was red with blood and his red jacket was darker than usually.

I ended throwing up and Kuro walked up to me, wondering what was wrong. As soon as he spotted an half-conscience Misaki, his skin turned white and he fumbled around for his phone.

"Yes?! 911? My friend is bleeding badly! No! I don't know how this happened!!! If I had kno......" His urgent voice was drowned out by the beating of my pounding heart and the memories of high school rushing through my mind.

' "Oi, Tom, do you know what love is?" I turned to look at my best friend and he flushed red.

"Baka! Of course I do! I have an girlfriend!" He exclaimed, his cheeks red.

I just shrugged, blowing away an sakura petal that got close to my laid down head. A soft breeze went by and I closed my eyes, engaging the sent of spring.

"Why do you ask, Saru?" Tom asked.

I merely shrugged."Never in my life have I ever experienced it. Not by my parents...... By no one....." I mumbled, pushing my rectangular glasses back up onto the bridge of my nose."I just wanted to know how it feels to be in love......."

Tom laughed."Then I'll be there when you find out! It's kinda like this moment, the peacefulness you enjoy, the bright blue sky above you, the soft spring breeze bringing in a new beginning, and most of all, the light shining through the branches of the sakura tree, making everything bright and beautiful......"

Of course, now that I've experienced true love, Tom isn't my friend anymore and I can't tell him this one fact:

That he was right.

The love I have is just as he described.

But the friendship I had with him was ruined along the dark path I took to get here.

My emptiness and the live I didn't feel sent me into a dark place in my life when I broke Tom's trust.

I dated his girlfriend.

Behind his back.

" I HATE YOU, SARU!!!! YOU FUCKING WENT BEHIND MY BACK AND WENT OUT WITH MY GIRLFRIEND!" Tom shouted, shoving me up against the bathroom wall.(I tried so hard not think dirty but it was impossible, no matter how serious this scene is)

I coughed and spit a little at the force of Tom's strength.

I only smirked at him, my glasses catching the glare from the bathroom lights."So? She's an great kisser, how could I deny?" I asked innocently.

Tears filled Tom's eyes and he released me."You bastard, you are like everyone said, an player. You use girls to try and fill the emptiness in your heart, you use your parents from your image and their money, and you used me, to get my girlfriend. Thank you, Saru, I learned an valuable lesson.

"One day, I will come back and take what's dearest to you. And, I'll watch as your heart shatters into dust and you fall to your knees in helplessness as I kiss your love in front of you. That'll be my revenge, to steal your only love in your life." Tom spat.

I smirked up at him."Lucky for me, I'll never have a love."

Tom turned and started to walk out of the boys bathroom but stopped half-way out of the door."We'll see about that."

And with those words, all was silent.

But now, Tom was right and my heart is shattering just seeing Misaki like this.

And it's even worse than what Tom had said it would.

Time Skip

"Who in the world would do this to Misaki?" Kuro asked, looking at sleeping Misaki in the hospital bed.

I continued to pace around."I don't know, he has no enemies that I know of!" I shouted in dismay.

Dark laugher was heard from the door.

I whirled around to see who it was. It was Ikki.

"You fools, I'm the one who did this to my play toy." He said with an devilish smile.

"Hey Saru, I'd like to introduce you to Misaki's dad;

Me!" He laughed darkly.

//I swear, I am trying my best here to update. There might be a small delay in updates for the next two weeks as one of my brothers wedding is coming up. The reversal dinner is this Friday.\\