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panic disorder (not that bad but i'll still put it just in case)

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a sort of calm rage washes over me

it settles within my chest

before rearing up

ready to trample my insignificant body with it's hooves.

my heart beats against my chest.

I feel it

I hear it

and then,

suddenly,

I see it.

they stand up with a knife

my friend has betrayed

on this small boat in the middle of the universe.

it'll be over.

I hyperventaliate-

my ribs bursting open.

"Not real, not real, not real."

I mutter, in a useless attempt to reassure myself.

I'm told it's all in my head-

but is it really?

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omg what the actually heck????

1 I have readers that are adults which wows me for some reason, but yayyy i'm not the only one and i'm not crazy or insane 

2 omgg i have readers in the US, India, Canada, UK, Turkey, Cameroon, Uganda, South Africa, Indonesia, and the Philippines??????? sry but this is crazy to me cuz I haven't even heard of some of those and gahhh thank you guys so much for reading and voting and stuff!! I had a bad day and then I came home to a ton of notifications :)

3 ok i'll stop rambling now cuz almost everyone probably saw that I wrote this novel down here and decided not to read

4 ok rlyrly ill stop rambling now- I just wanted to have a 4th point cuz it made me sound smarter in my head for some reason loll