This Life;

These thoughts,
These feelings,
Loneliness, Emptiness, Numbness
Why all I feel is this.

Life has been blinding me
Because what I thought as a child
Is no where to be seen.

Wanting to fly high, reach the sky
But all I am doing is slowly drowning in the depth of the sea, full of darkness
Where no brightness could ever reach.

They say it's okay to be alone sometimes.
So, I try to be alone
Only to be consumed by emptiness.

They say I am the one who can help myself.
So, I deal with my own shits
Only to be another failure for myself.

It's like I don't know where I am at.

It's like I'm chasing after something that doesn't exist.

It's like I'm stuck in one place wishing to get out of it but unable to find the exit.

It's like I'm only living in dusk

This world brimmed with egocentric, avarice and filthy minds.

Sometimes all I wanna do is disappear,
disappear forever from this world.

Cause, It's not just that I live in darkness but darkness resides in me.

At last, I pen these haunting thoughts here
Had no one to talk to and never will.
With my,

Weariness
Broken Heart
Shattered Soul
and
Incoherent breaths.....

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This is my first time writing a poem.
Hope you all like it❤️
If there's any mistake to correct, do tell me😊

Stay Safe, Stay Hydrated🌈
Love, Sam💜