I always sit upon memories,
Seeing those queries flew thickly in wilderness with vapor of doubts on it,
That anytime it will fall soon,
Making me weep again and again,
Dripping through the roofs,
Reminding me of the things I haven't done which I wish I should have,
Deafening rumbling of what ifs and repentance.

When can I repay you?
When can I be endebt to a person whom I owe my whole life?
When can I?
When I can't even looked into your eyes with utter fondness instead all it reflects is sympathy.

Sympathy to you for saving me from hanging in the cliff of hopelessness.
Why did you?
Look at me now?
Can you still vividly imagine your cheerful niece?
Shouting at you from afar,
With a genuine smile?
You can't.
Because you only save me from any physical harm but not my soul.
It was left in cliff hanging,
At 10, it gave up.

I kept on asking myself...

When can I repay you?
When can I be endebt to a person whom I owe my whole life?
When can I?
When I can't even looked into your eyes with utter fondness but you hugged me and you told me," I must fight for myself"

The thick mud clothe me,
I thrive to withdraw myself,
But I got no strength
His voice echoed for a million of times, until I can't count it anymore
I gathered all my strength
And as I cleaned my body in the stream
He's there,
He stare at my reflection in the water
And he saw his cheerful niece, once again.

When can I repay you?
When can I be endebt to a person whom I owe my whole life?
When can I?
When I can't even looked into your eyes with utter fondness instead all it reflects is sympathy.

I think I know now how I can repay you,
Living my life,
Living as your cheerful niece is enough for me to be endebt
Now, as I looked into your eyes I saw the fondness through those crystalline liquid.