(this will be going in all of my published books, save ya reading thrice)

hii dear readers,

i feel at this point that i'm infamous for yapping about updating my books and never following through. plus, i always have excuses.

i promise, i'm trying, but this year has been so demanding, especially since it's my final year of school. i thought things would be easier because i didn't take the subjects i found difficult, yet here we are! i failed my history assignment, i am failing geography and deadlines for every other class are looming and i have nothing to present. it feels amazing!!

may has sucked. so i'm gonna rant about that :]

on top of failing miserably at school right now, my parents are seriously starting to ramp things up about moving cities, and it's scaring me.

i can't find a job to pay for my driving tests when my parents keep hounding me to get my license.

i also had a falling out with my friends, which plagued my mind for a few weeks. they broke my trust, and it hurt so much, particularly because i knew what they did, they knew i knew and never spoke a word about it. it's so nice to know that my friend doesn't even have enough of a conscience to tell me when they've riled through my stuff, looking for personal shit. it just hurt, ya know?

i do write, though. i can't publish anything because it's awfully rough, but i promise, i still write. especially when people vote and comment cuz that makes me think my books are worth writing. i think i'm just one of those people who, if you don't tell them they've done a good job, than they assume that what they've done is absolutely horrible and deserves to be wiped off the face of the earth :]

i'll get there soon. i promise that a time will come soon when i can actually sit down and write for an hour or so. there's just a lot going on right now ;–;

love,
bean ♡