"I know I can't help myself. You're all in the world to me. It feels like the first time."

~Feels Like the First Time by Foreigner~

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Warnings: abuse, domestic violence, sexual harassment/assault, smut, language, violence, and other mature themes

A/N: THIS CHAPTER IS ALL (REVISED AND NEW) SEXUAL CONTENT SO DON'T READ IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT.

Otherwise, enjoy;)

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Hawk closes the laptop and sits up suddenly.

I roll on my side with a frown, "Why'd you turn it off?"

"There's one last present I wanted to give you," he says with a small smile.

"Couldn't we have watched to the end of the movie?" We were almost to the end of Spider-Man: Homecoming.

"Yeah, but your birthday is almost over," he shows me his phone that reads 11:42pm.

"So? We could have-" Hawk cups my face in his hands, "I have one more-" "You're making this too big of a deal; I don't need anything else-" I try to stand up.

Hawk pulls me back and pins me between himself and the mattress, shirtless, "There's one last present I wanted to give you."

"Oh?" I ask in realization.

He practically rolls off of me and walks over to his closet. I peek over at him as he rummages under his suitcase and some shoes until he finds whatever he's looking for.

He turns back to me with a little something in his hand: a condom.

"Are you sure?" I sit up almost too eagerly and look him straight in the eyes.

"So sure."

"This would be your first time-"

"Z," he sits down with me. "I love you and I don't think there's a better time to show it. Let me give you this last present."

"You know virginity is a social construct," I remind him, "but also that it can still mean something to you. I don't want to pressure you."

"I want to do this. With you," Hawk tells me honestly.

I debate it for a second. "Okay," I nod with a smile. "Let's do it."

Hawk brings his hands down to the hem of my shirt timidly. I pull it over my head and reveal my black bra; his eyes widen. I grab his hand and press it onto my chest and I note the shift in his stance. He's so tense now.

I reach over and pull him in for a deep kiss as he rolls my nipple between his fingers. I smile into the kiss and straddle him. His other hand grips my thigh hard to keep me steady.

After a minute or so of us just making out, I begin to grind on him and his breathing becomes erratic.

"Tell me if it's too much," I whisper in between kisses.

Hawk undoes my bra and I help him slide it off. He picks me up by my thighs and I hold onto his neck as he spins us around to switch places. "You tell me," he counters.

"Pretty cocky for a v-" His fingers grip my bottom lip and shut me up.

"Not for long, baby." Hawk's hands pull down my shorts and underwear.

He stands up and I try to curl into myself since I'm fully naked. Hawk gets rid of his remaining clothing and then grabs the condom. I wait impatiently as he struggles with opening it.

I grab ahold of his wrist; he stares at me with furrowed brows. I take it from him and pull it open with my teeth.

I unwrap it and reach over to him. I stop and get some precum on my finger and then lick it off. Then, I slide it on him and he grunts.

Hawk pushes me back by my shoulders onto the bed. The action looks hostile, but he's gentle about it.

"Spread your legs." I do so. He taps his dick on my inner thigh before planking himself back over me.

"Wait," I stop him, "you're just going to put it in?"

He stares at me in confusion, "Yeah, why?"

I smile slightly, "You're so cute."

"What?" he gets defensive.

"I'm not... wet enough yet," I admit softly.

"Oh," his face falls, "sorry."

"You didn't know," I forgive him. "Foreplay is important."

"Yeah, yeah, I knew that," he sighs and stands up. He paces around the room as I look down at my hands awkwardly. "So..."

"Come here," I tell him. He stands back between my legs and I press down on his shoulder until he falls to his knees. "You know what to do."

He smirks up at me and then moves his head between. One hand reaches up and grabs my breast. He plays with the nipple at the same time he moves his tongue through my slit. I gasp in pleasure. My hands grab his mohawk and guide him as he turns my body to jelly.

A few minutes later, sweat rolls down my forehead as I pant and whimper for a release. "Hawk, I..."

He groans as he continues. I moan in ecstasy at the feeling.

"Beg for it," he moves his head away and glances up at me. I whimper desperately at the sudden loss of contact.

"What?" I ask in disbelief.

"Prove to me you want it, you deserve it," he squeezes my thighs tighter. "Because right now, I don't believe you."

"Hawk, please."

"That's right, baby. Beg," he slides two fingers in at once and curls them.

"Oh," I gasp.

"I don't care if it's your birthday. I need to hear those beautiful words come out of your mouth," he breaks away from playing with my pussy and I grunt in frustration.

"Please, please," I let go of my dignity.

"Please, what?" Hawk smirks up at me as I throw my head back.

"Please, make me cum. I'll be so good for you," I moan in a submissive tone.

He resumes his work and adds another finger. I feel him sucking on my clit and I grip the sheets in agony.

"I'm close, I'm close, I'm close," I whimper.

My body shakes and I collapse on my back when the orgasm finally hits me. A tear rolls down my cheek from the feeling. I can't feel my legs.

It's then that I realize that Hawk isn't stopping.

"Hawk," I gasp and reach over to pull on his mohawk. "I finished."

He smiles as he stands up with a face covered in my cum. I stare in awe at his glow. "I was going to keep going."

"It's too much at once," I admit as I pant.

"Do you want to stop for the night?" he asks. I glance down and see the condom already soaked with precum.

"Why don't you," I sit up and pull him close, "finish what you came for?"

I kiss him and bite his lip as he lays over me on the bed. I readjust so he can get it in.

"Are you ready?" I ask cautiously as he lines it up.

"So ready," he nods.

"I love you, Eli," I tell him to make sure this is good for him.

"I love you, Z." I gasp as he slides in and fills me. "Holy... Holy shit."

After only a second, he thrusts his hips back and forth and rocks the bed at a brutal pace. I can't keep up as he works toward his pleasure and I reach down to stimulate my clit.

He lasts maybe two minutes before coming undone and collapsing beside me. "Fucking hell..."

I watch Hawk's chest rise and fall as he peels off the condom. I roll over with the blanket to cover us.

"That was awesome," Hawk smirks. "I can't believe we hadn't done that before."

I smile to myself. I'm glad he enjoyed it because I hated when I lost my virginity to Dylan. It was in his parent's basement. It was not special. It was awkward and gross and it was abundantly clear that he didn't know anything about the female anatomy.

"Did you have a good birthday?" he looks at me with wide eyes.

I can see his self-conscious side peeking through and smile, "Yes. Second best birthday ever."

"Second?" Hawk asks in offense.

"My dad and I had some fun birthdays together," I shrug. "They were fun in different ways."

"God, I'd hope so," he smirks.

I nudge him in the ribs.

"Ow."

"I love you, idiot."

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It's one am now. I snuck out of Hawk's room so Mrs. Moskowitz won't know what happened. Hawk and I parted ways after a good hour of just relaxing in each other's arms and talking about anything and everything. Words can't describe how much I love him.

I grab my phone to call Jess. I told her I'd call her tonight and I know I still can, as long as I whisper.

"Hello?" she picks up the phone. Of course she's awake; she's a night owl like me.

"Jess!" I whisper-yell.

"Zion! Hi," she says. "How was your birthday? How have you been?"

And from there I tell her everything.

Well, maybe not everything.

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A/N: Aw, Elion.

Aw, love.

Goodnight.