Y/N

"...Yoongi, wait!"

You let out a sigh and run your hand through your hair.

You look back at the cashier and smile faintly.

"Did that guy with the black hair just order that?" You ask as he holds out a soda and hotdog.

He nods and hands it to you.

"Thank you," you say as you bow and walk out of the café, hoping to find Yoongi.

You walk into the dance room, as that was your first instinct.

You opened the door to the studio and see Yoongi sitting on the ground with his head in his hands.

You tip toe quietly and slowly over to him and set his soda and hotdog next to him as you sit down.

He looks up slightly and moves his head in the other direction.

"Y/N, go away."

You roll your eyes. "Yoongi, no. You need to eat. We may not be in the best position right now, but I still want you to be healthy."

He lets out a small groan and scoots away from you a bit.

You scoff quietly as you scoot towards him, to fill the gap.

You sit in front of him and lift his chin.

As you look at his pale face, you see tear marks on his slightly chubby cheeks.

"Yoongi, have you been...crying?" You tilt your head in confusion.

He groans again and turns his back towards you.

"Y/N, please go away. I'm not hungry. So there's no need for you to be here."

You get up, walk in front of him, and sit down.

"I'm not leaving. What's been going on with you lately? You seem paler than usual and not wanting to eat. Are you sick??"

"No. I'm not sick, Y/N. Please go back to the café with the others before the others come looking for you, see us in here together, and wanna kick my ass, again."

You gasp a bit. "Is this what this all about? You're scared?"

"No, just go. I'm asking you nicely, Y/N. Just go."

"Yoongi, no, I'm not leaving you in here all alone! You may be a total jerk sometimes but–," you lift his chin up.

"–ou'll always be my jerk. Even though we may not be together, I'll still love you, Yoongi."

He removes your hand from off of his chin.

"What good does that do, Y/N?? Is that supposed to make me feel better?? You still love me yet we're not together?! That just makes me feel worse!"

You fight back the tears forming in your eyes.

"Yoongi..."

"No, don't 'Yoongi' me anymore, Y/N. I'm done! I can't be in this one-sided love anymore! And even if it isn't one-sided, I don't want whatever "this" is anymore," he yells as he gets up.

"I don't want it anymore... I don't want this anymore!"

He walks over to the door and stops before he walks out.

"And don't bother looking for me. Just forget we ever met. We'd be better off that way," he says as he runs out of the studio, disappearing into the hallways.

You place your hand over your mouth in shock and feel tears beginning to roll down your face.

"Just forget we even met. We'd be better off that way."

Did I... just lose...Yoongi?

You begin to cry your eyes out until you hear footsteps approaching at a very fast pace.

"Y/N, are you okay?? What happened?!" You look up only to see Kino and his friends plus Jin and the rest of the guys (minus Yoongi) staring at you in concern.

Kimmi places a hand on your shoulder as she crouches down next to you.

"Y/N, what happened?"

You brush her hand off of your shoulder as you get up.

You look at everyone and cover your face before running out of the studio and to the front desk.

You lower your head and say, "I got a call from my guardian saying I need to come home. I–It's a family emergency."

The receptionist allows you to leave and as soon as you get outside, you run.

The wind hitting your eyes causing your tears to fall even faster, blurring your vision a bit.

Once you can't see the school anymore, you stop and walk to the nearest bench.

You sit down on the bench, hold your head in your hands, and cry.

You don't care who passes by either.

After a good five minute cry, you decide to run home.

Once you arrive home, you close and lock your bedroom door, flop onto your bed, bury yourself in your covers, and continue to cry to yourself.

'Just forget we ever met...We'd be better off that way...'

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Your crying ceases when you hear Yanan and Kimmi calling you.

You gasp, softly and wipe your eyes.

You freeze when you hear a jiggle on your door knob.

"Y/N, are you in here?" Yanan asks.

One of them knocks on the door numerous times.

You hear Kimmi groan as she picks your doorknob lock.

Oof, I never knew she could do that.

Once the door unlocks, you lay back down under your covers and quiet yourself down.

Kimmi checks inside your closet and Yanan looks under your bed.

"Y/N?"

"Why did she run off like that? I bet it had something to do with Yoongi," he says as he sits down in your chair by your desk.

Hearing his name causes you to tear up again and sniffle from all of your crying.

Great job, Y/N. -_-

You hear them approach you as Kimmi pulls the covers off of you.

"Aha! Covers don't sniffle! Y/N, what happened to you??"

You sit up, pull her into a hug, and cry on her shoulder.

She rubs your back in comfort.

When you see Yanan staring at you in sadness, you pull away from the hug.

"Ah, Y–Yanan, why are y–you here? I hate that you have to see me like t–this," you say as you wipe your eyes.

He hands you some tissues from off of your dresser.

"It's okay, Y/N. You're my best friend. I don't care what you look like," he says as you take the tissues and wipe your eyes.

Kimmi places her hand on your shoulder and sighs.

"Y/N, whenever you're ready to tell us or me or whoever what happened, just let us know, okay?"

You nod as you look down and close your eyes.

What have I done?

It's like everything's falling apart.

Yoongi, I'm sorry...

You sigh as you look up and walk to the bathroom to look in the mirror.

You face is all red and puffy around your eyes.

You have faint tear stains on your cheeks.

You wipe your eyes off with the tissue in your hand and just stare at yourself for a while.

I'm a mess. And it'll always be because of you, Yoongi.

You cut off the light in your bathroom and walk into the living to lay down on the couch.

You sit up to kick your shoes off and then turn the TV on.

Kimmi and Yanan walk out of your room and into the living room.

Yanan walks over to you and pulls you into a warm hug.

"Y/N, I just want you to know that I–" He says before being interrupted by a sudden buzz by his phone.

He looks at you and then takes his phone out of his pocket to see what was wrong.

He turns his phone off then looks at Kimmi and then back at you.

"Ah, I have to go. Hongseok needs me home. He said that E'Dawn being emotional and none of them can seem to calm him down," he explains.

You nod as you grab his hand.

"I'll text you later, okay?"

He nods as he sends you a quick wink before waving goodbye abd walking out of your apartment.

Kimmi walks over to sit on the couch next to you and raises an eyebrow at you.

"What do you think he was gonna say?"

You shrug your shoulders and lay back down.

What was he gonna say?

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Min Yoongi

Once I leave school, I run straight home.

I guess this means that Y/N is no longer my friend or whatever we were.

I think it'll be better for the both of us, in a way. She can finally be free to date who she wants and not have to worry about my happiness.

And for me... I don't really know what the advantage is for me at this point.

My life is falling apart everyday. So I think, maybe I just made things worse.

She said she'll always love me. And I think I'll always love her, too.

But we can't be together anymore. All I do is make her cry and make our friends emotional.

I'm just a walking disappointment, I guess.

I guess I just need time to improve myself, alone.

Meaning, no more Soo-Jae, no more hurting the people I love.

I'm gonna try and turn my life around.

But, in order to do that, I have to shut Y/N out. I can't keep wanting to run back to her or her wanting to run back to me.

We can't keep doing this to each other. It's toxic.

She needs to be happy.

Without me...

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Once I arrive home, I unlock the front door and walk inside only to see Jin hyung and the rest of the guys scrambled around the living room.

When Jin spots me, he gets up and runs over to me.

"Yoongi, what did you do?? What's wrong with Y/N? Answer me," he yells as he glares at me.

I let out a long sigh and roll my eyes.

"Jin-hyung, if you're so concerned about Y/N, why don't you ask her? I'm done with her and whatever we had. I can't keep going through this with her anymore!" I drop my bag on the floor and run upstairs.

Namjoon calls after me but I just ignore him and continue to run until I get to my room.

I walk inside and lock my door.

I stare at the floor as I slide my back against the door.

I take my phone out of pocket and cut it on.

If I'm shutting her out, we can't be able to talk to each other anymore.

I open her messages and delete her from my contacts.

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[Are you sure you want to delete 'Y/N 💕' from your contacts?]

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Am I? Should I?

No, Yoongi, you have to stay strong. Delete her from your contacts.

You didn't yell about at lunch for nothing.

I sigh as I delete her from my contacts once and for all.

Afterwards, I throw my phone down on the ground and run my hand through my hair.

"Yoongi-ah, open the door," Namjoon says as he knocks on my door.

I roll my eyes and groan, "Namjoon, please. Leave. Me. Alone. I'm not in the mood to talk."

He knocks on the door faster this time.

"Yoongi, don't forget I'm the 'God of Destruction'. I'll break your door down, I'm not joking."

I relunctantly get up and unlock the door.

"What do you want, Namjoon?" I ask as I hold onto the doorknob.

Before he can even get a word out, I stop him.

"And if you're here to try and ask me about what happened earlier, you're wasting your time."

He lets out a small laugh. "I'm not here for that. I just wanna talk. Just a little casual conversation."

I step aside and let him enter.

I sit on my bed and he sits at my desk.

"So, Yoongi, how have you been? You never seem to talk to us that much anymore. At dinner, you barely eat or talk. And when we text, you don't say much. Is everything alright?"

I roll my eyes. "Why does everyone keep asking me that?? I'm FINE! Okay? I'm FINE!"

He holds his hands up in front of him and laughs.

"Dang, chill out. I was just asking a simple question. No need to go psycho on me."

I sigh and look down at my feet.

"I'm sorry, Joon. I–I've just been so stressed lately. So many things running through my mind, school work. It's just so much to handle, you know?"

"I get what you're saying, dude. I felt like that too in the 10th grade. I was just a lost teen. I felt hopeless. I stopped eating, lost all my friends, and just shut everyone out."

I look up at him. "Really?"

He nods his head and spins around in my chair.

"Yep. I know what you're going through. Especially with Y/N."

I look back down at the ground.

"Namjoon, don't–"

"No. No. No. I'm not gonna talk about her because I don't wanna stress you out even more. Just know, if you ever need to talk or cry to someone, I'm here for you, hyung."

I nod my head. "Thank you, Namjoon. I really needed to hear that."

He gets up, pats my back, and walks out of my room, closing the door behind him.

I lay down on my bed and stare at the ceiling.

I'm a mess...

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[A/N]
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