You're beautiful and suicide is never the answer...

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I can't do this

It's too much..

No one loves me, I'm ugly and not beautiful

You stood on the edge of a bridge that had cars passing left and right. You stood there, watching the water move and crashing over the rocks. You felt tears pour down your face as your arms went up, ready to fall forward.

You felt your feet move forward not even having control over your brain.

"No!" You heard someone scream. Your eyes shot open and looked at the black figure standing about 10 feet away from you in the night. "Please," his hands were up in defense as his voice softened.

"Why?" You said putting your hands back down and looking at him with tears pouring out of your eyes. He looked at you with sorry before he slowly crept towards you, "no! Don't come closer!" You said. He kept coming a bit closer. "Stop! I'll jump!" You said. He paused in his tracks and stood there.

"Don't is this. You have people-"

"N-no I don't. I don't. Stop saying that!" You covered your ears with your hands shaking your head.

"Please, yes you do. You need to except the fact that life doesn't always throw nice and positive things at you? It makes a part of your life a horrible experience but it doesn't mean you can't get through it. Listen to me. You - I believe you deserve better. Just come down and talk... talk to me. You have people that love you." He said with the softest voice you've heard. You stood there watching as his eyes sparkled in the light he walked into. A kid with brown longish hair and light eyes came into view. "Come down.." he put his hand out. You felt a bit safe.

"I-I can't" you looked down at the edge and stood there. He had tears in the brim of his eyes.

"Yes you can. I can't experience this again.. please" he said getting closer. You looked at him with sadness in his eyes. "You're not alone.." he finished. You were about to get off before your foot slipped and you started to fall. A hand wrapped around both your arms as your body hung over the ledge. The man helped you get back up. While your legs hit the ground you felt a feeling of relief. The guys arms were still around your arms before he realized and let go.

"Colby," he said randomly. You looked up at his now red and puffy face. He stared down any you, admiring your beautiful face. His hands got removed from your arm and now rested upon your waist.

"y/n," you lightly cried looking down. He tilted your head up with his thumb and pointer finger on your chin. A small smile crept onto his face.

"y/n!" You both turned your head in the direction your name was called. You saw your mother and best friend running towards you. Colby let go of you and backed up for your mother to get to you. She engulfed you into the biggest hug. y/bf/n joined the hug of your mother and you. They broke split apart as your mother stood there watching Colby .

"Don't touch her," she said pulling her closer. "Who are you?!" She said more than furious.

"H-he saved m-me" you cried. You let go of your mother and walked up to Colby. Your arms wrapped around his torso and your body felt safe and relaxed in his arms. His arms wrapped around you resting his head on yours as you cried into his hoodie. The mother walked over hugging the both of you.

"Thank you for keeping my daughter in this world," she said light enough for him to hear.

"I've lost my best friend to suicide." He said. You looked up at him and cried harder.

"C-Colby I'm sorry.." you hugged his tighter making him close his eyes and tears come out. You all let go and walked down to your house. You all went in and sat on the couch talking about... what happen or what would've happen if you jumped.

"Thank you again," you said to Colby as your mother and best friend was in the kitchen making food. Colby let your body rest up on his chest. Your body wrapped with a blanket, his arm around you trying to comfort you. He smiled down at you knowing he saved someone. "What happen to your best friend?" You asked before he could say anything.

"Oh-yeah," he coughed nervously.

"I mean I'm- you don't have to say anything" you said getting the feeling he didn't want to talk about it.

"No no. You're fine. Um, he overdosed because well we 'were' YouTubers and he got fed up in so much hate and pressure it lead him to kill him self. I've been so depressed about it and never found my happiness.." he swallowed looking down at his gently bouncing leg. You let your hand hang on his leg stoping it from bouncing.

"How close?" You asked. He looked at you.

"We were together for 12 years" he said. "His names sam" he said pulling out his phone. He went through his camera roll looking for a picture which were all over. He pressed on one and it was him and his best friend laughing and smiling. You wrapped your arms around Colby and rested your head in his neck as he quietly sobbed looking at the picture.

"I'm so sorry, Colby. I didn't -" you said but couldn't finish as he cut you off. His lips were placed on your head before his connected your foreheads together. Your hands collapsed onto his and his breathing hitched at your touch. You both called your eyes just listening to each other's breathing.

"Im okay. promise me though.." he said. You nodded making sure he felt it, "you won't try to commit this ever again.." he whispered.

"Promise," you felt tears fill your eyes. You stayed there until you both laid down. His body curved around yours and his arms around you. The blanket that had been around you was now over the both of you. Your body fell into a deep sleep as Colby's hands went through your hair softly making sure you were okay. He then fell into a sleep not long after you.

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Please excuse this but my cousin tried to overdose 2 weeks ago and he was my protector. He was always there for me when my father died and when my mother had breast cancer. He always told me I was his number one priority and his favorite. He's 16❤️love you zachary