SEPTEMBER 26

it is cold again

warmer

but cold

i haven't seen the light in so long

dark and cold

i feel lost

sometimes i see her

pale orange glows far away

i know it is her

he watches although i can not see him

drew is searching

searching for something

maybe someone

ciara wants him to find a source of evil

pure evil

my thoughts are drifting

cass

cass

is cass okay

i miss cass

where is cass

where am i

my sister will save me

i am sure

she is a hero

i need her to save me

彼女は私を救った

助けて

i am falling asleep again

it won't matter

sleep is meaningless here

ciara wants me alive

i hope

they have not hurt me yet

all my mind can go to now is river

they make me think river is evil

but

but is she?

why don't i remember her?

why are there people crossed out in the pictures ciara shows to me?

SEPTEMBER 27

everything hurts

everything is flashing

orange

black

orange

black

ciara and drew are watching

they are listening

私は誰かが私をこの地獄から救うために必要としてください彼らは私を殺したい

"Ash, you don't want to say that."

"Maybe I do..." Their voice was broken.

"Why are you still trying?" She circled around them, eyes glinting orange.

"Why did I ever try..." They mumbled.

"Ciara, this is a bad idea.." He cut in,

"Silly host, thinking they have any control over their characters. The Admin never has true control when the characters aren't characters anymore, and I am no exception."

Ḯ̴̢͇̰͓̺͓͔̥̝̯̼́͛́͌̀͒͝ͅͅ ̵̨̛̮̻̰̜̝͈͔̯͉̻̤̣̤͚̍̽ȧ̴͎̖͉͓̱̠̮͚̤̟̾̔̒͛̒̽́̂͐́̈́͋͝m̷̡͖̠̺̭̘̱̓̏̇̿͛͂̃͒̾̈́͝ ̵̡̗̬͔̲̮̗̣̩̞̺̙̉͗̌̔̉̇̔̾͋̆̍̎n̷̗̮̱͎̫̖̠̰̻͊́̂͌͗̔͗͊̄̐̐͠͝ͅơ̷̢̦̅͛̇̄̅̾̎͊̇ͅť̶̛̙̙̤͖̤̘̿́͑̀̓̋̈́͠͠ ̷̧̣͕̩̦̠̲̖̙̘̙̄̉̒̿̽̀͌̈́̏̕͝a̷̩̖̠͕̼͔͂͗̓͗̀̉̄̈́̓͝ ̶̡̹̪̩̯̟̯͈̉̋̓̐̋ͅḧ̸̢̧͈̖̭̦̻̝̼̟̙́̒͑͒͒̅̇͆͘͝ȩ̵̬͕̙̘͔̙̌̆̈͛̅̒̓͆͑͘̕͝r̶̨̤͈̙̦͎̝̹̳͖̻̥̲͍̈́̓̀̊̒̉̂̍̿͠o̴͎̺̯͚̼͈̪̎̓̂͒

it is all a fake...

why did i ever try...

why did i want to continue?

why did i...

why...

why?

なぜ

おやすみ