i'm standing alone in an endless world of ice

again, again! the voices cry

they are all around me

those i thought i trusted most

the chasm stretches out before me

without thinking, i kneel

i look into the abyss

and suddenly, the loud honk of a truck brings me back to reality

i am kneeling on the roof

looking out over the city below

my mind screams, you have so much to live for!

and i nod

silently

to myself

it's dark

streetlights

a twisted glow

few cars

ever humming

city

as if static

static

static 

static

stAtic

the static is gone

i see them

they float in front of me

over the road below

they look disappointed

guilty

angry

each one a perfect part of me

there's music

haunting

barely there

nearly...

gone

like me

soon i will be gone

but there she is

she is behind me

at the window

calling out

don't leave me, ash

i love you

the night turns to day

i see them all

friends?

family?

everybody...

they love me

i know they do

and yet...

maybe,

i'll jump

anyway

but of course i don't

i go back inside

and i cry

and i cry

and i cry

because even if i jumped

nobody

would care

except for you

you kind souls

you people who found me funny

you people who understood

you people who cared

and yet

why won't i accept that?

i know you love me

if you really ever did

did you?

maybe i'll jump

maybe

maybe

maybe

maybe...

those last tears fall

and i think to myself, 

maybe

i'll jump

and fly

because what's to live for?

she doesn't let me love the little things

he won't accept me as i am

she 'needs' to contradict

he kicks and yells and punches and bites

she is tired of me

he refuses to respect

she doesn't want me to be clingy

he hates me

she hates me

he hates me

she hates me

he hates me

he hates me

he hates me

he hates me 

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