my eyes are closing

i know they must stay open

but i can not resist

sleep beckons me

it is calling

my dreams are calling to me

they want me to join them

i see her

she is smiling

she holds out her hand

but is wiped away

then

i see him

he stands tall and proud

but still reaches out

he is erased with her

they cloud my vision

there are three

one

the girl

she smiles

she is gone

yet she still smiles

her hair is pale and blonde with streaks of darker brown

and her eyes are a pale orange

her skin is black

pure black

black like the emptiness of the void

then i see him

i know his name

but i can not remember

he is like me

but holds a wicked smirk

his eyes are pure black

they leak darkness everywhere

he wears a cape

it holds the number 432

his name is 432

her name is 84

but there is another

her face haunts me even now

even then

the tears rolling from her eyes

those were fake

i convinced myself of that easily

but i still know she saved me

we are drifting again

the dreams call

they tell me that if i want any happiness

i must go with them

but if i stay here

i will never be able to dream again

i am tired of my dreams

they are pointless

and impossible

someone take me from here

someone help me

someone send me a rope

to climb from this pit of eternal sadness

i look over and she laughs

he laughs with her

i can not focus

i must pay attention

she is trying to get me to sleep

i can't sleep

i must not sleep

if i sleep i die

don't make me sleep

i can stay awake

my eyelids

they are burning

let me sleep

LET ME SLEEP

no sleep

if i sleep the dreams will take me

they want me to dream forever

if i dream forever

i will never see them

i will wake up in years

and nobody will remember me

i am

WORTHLESS
UNIMPORTANT
USELESS
CLINGY
BROKEN

but i am mostly WEAK

they are able to force me this far

i am not strong

i can not keep them away

i could cry

but no

it hurts

my legs already feel like stone

my fingers

it is spreading

i am falling asleep

i can't stop it

please

help m