[i've recently re-watched endgame,
so spoilers ahead warning]

"Tony Stark. My Hero.
My very first Superhero.

i saw that movie when i was so young. when it first came out. even at the age i knew, i knew that this man, was good. purely and wholly good. at least he tried to be. he was a man who changed, and i believed in him, i still do. even though he's gone.

when the second movie came out, i was so young and fixated. i loved him. him sarcasm, his love, his passion, his brain, everything. i loved him. he was my first superhero. he was good, at least he tried to be.

that's when i started reading the comics. illegally, bits and pieces wherever i could. i wanted to see him and see more of him, i wanted to stay with him though everything, i still do.

avengers, i saw a team, and i saw tony grow. grown from a man who preferred being alone, to a man who could work with a team. who let someone else take control, i saw a character arc.

Iron Man 3, i saw my favourite superhero become even more human than he already was. panic attacks, flashbacks, PTSD, anxiety, depression, i saw a human, not a superhero, i had never seen that before. i've never connected with a fictional character so much before, never, i believed in him even more, broken, lost, trying. he was relatable, he showed weaknesses that i myself have or still am dealing with, he showed the trials i saw him coping and i knew it was okay. he'd fallen so far and yet, he was still alive and pushing on, i knew i could as well.

[fūck scarlet witch lives btw (mcu her, not comic her okay i love comic her), don't even @ me]

age of Ultron: a broken man trying to save the world. a broken man screwed up so badly? he could barley fight it, a broken man who still tried. a human, with flaws, i still loved him.

Civil War: a man becomes even more broken, an embodiment of brokenness. he tried to fix things, because he saw a future no one else did, and he paid the ultimate price because of it.

a broken man, becomes more broken, a broken man sees a tape of his parents getting murdered and he sees betrayal in who he thought was his best friend.

"Did you know?" he reacts, in anger, in pain, as a human, so very plainly human, i believed in him more so.

spider-man homecoming. he's a father again, after iron man 3. he's a mentor now, again, proving yet again he's a human. he doesn't want to make the same mistake as his father.

Infinity war: a man is willing to die, always so willing to die thats what makes him him, others don't see it but so many of us do. under all his wit and fake apathy he cares, so much more then anyone else because he's been through so much he sees how broken the world is and yet he still wants to protect it because he sees good in people and potential in all.

a smart man tries to save those he loves. he's a human who was able to draw blood from a god, the people ceased to believe in said god.

what hurts more was a man saw one of his children, his son, become dust. he wished to die, but of course, he didn't. he hurt, he saw one of the few people who understood him and loved him for him cease to exist. there was only one way they lived.

Endgame, of course, in the endgame. there was only one way this was to end, we all knew it, a man sacrifices himself. of course the one with the most to lose, the most to come back to, is the one who doesn't come back.

selfish to selfless,
his full character arc.

he went from being war profiteer to the man who ended the war.
a man who has a family, the one he always wanted...

he tells his daughter, a beautiful daughter, he loves her, she tells him she loves him. a man who took on so many people as children, he was a mentor to so many and finally he got his own family. he deserved it.

3000. i love you 3000. a man sees that there is only one way to save them. to save his daughter, his family.

he tells a god,
what kind of a human he is:
"I am Iron Man"

it's such a powerful statement, its the saying that started all of this,
started the mcu.

he was a human, he could never rest without this. too compassionate, too beautiful, to understanding, human. he could never rest because he was human. if there was one thing you can't take away, he was iron man. he did it for them, it was always for them.

he saved a world that never loved him. he was just Tony Stark.

he was my first superhero, he will always be my first superhero."

[sorry for the rant from:
@Under_The_Lamplight & me]