I feel like I owe you guys an explanation.

It's become pretty noticeable over the last year or so how inactive I've been on this account, and I've continually apologized for that as the occasion arose to do so. I'm still sorry that I haven't updated anything you guys actually give a damn about (Destined for Flames, Celestial Memories, the sequels I promised for Three Fangirls and How to Survive a Host Club), but at the same time... I'm not.

I haven't been writing much at all, fanfiction or otherwise, in the last few months, but I want that to change, and I'm hoping NaNoWriMo will help me with that. But, unfortunately for this account, I don't really plan on including fanfictions in that writing. I just... I'm not nearly as invested in them as I was three years ago when I made this account. I'd just discovered fanfics, then, and they were stunning to me - the ability to alter the worlds of my favorite manga, anime, and books was utterly fascinating, and even addicting after a while. 

But here's the thing: I don't even watch anime anymore. I want to, sometimes, but there's always something else that catches my attention. I sometimes read manga still, but nothing from the major series that my works are based off. I've just lost interest. It's a sad thing, but it happens. 

The other reason I've put aside fanfiction is simple, though it might seem rather overkill to some people. I just turned eighteen this year, and while I am perfectly aware that I have plenty of time to get a novel published in my lifetime, I would really love for it to happen sooner rather than later. I'm going to be busy with college next year, and a job after all that, and who knows how much time I'll actually have to write once I'm properly situated in the "adult" world? 

My point is... I don't know if I'll continue the works I have posted on this account. Even my more recent ones, like Black & White, or The Closed Ward, or Grey Havens... I can't say if I'll be writing anything more for them, at the very least not in the next few months. Again, I'm sorry - and again, not really. If this upsets people, I'll feel awful about that, but this is my writing, and I doubt you guys want chapters from me when I don't have passion for what I'm writing about. 

The last chapter that went up for Celestial Memories was suckish at best, and I copped to that when I put it up; the half-finished DFF chapter I have in my drafts is even worse, and I have no real desire to make it better. 

I... I don't want to be known for crap writing in the end. I'd rather do what I love, and write what I'm passionate about, and right now? That isn't fanfiction. Maybe that'll change, maybe it won't - I don't know. I just wanted to give you guys a proper heads up if my lack of updates continues into the new year.

So... yeah. Thanks for hearing me out, I suppose.