Look at him, he's so ✨𝓯𝓪𝓫𝓾𝓵𝓸𝓾𝓼✨(so r all the clones)

Plot: You suffer from depression and self harm but you tell your best friend, Fives, instead of ending it all

Angst warning, acts of self harm, mentions of abuse and attempted suicide

If you have history or are currently dealing with any of the things mentioned, I'm not trying to offend anyone in any way and if you want you can talk to me if you feel comfortable with it, I'm willing to listen to your troubles and be there for you not just as a writer, but as a friend and a sister, if you aren't comfortable, however, you don't have to tell me anything and you can skip this oneshot if you'd like

Song of Inspiration: Skillet - The Last Night

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You stared at the newly cut scars lifelessly as the blood seeped from them. You slowly turned on the faucet and brought your wrists under the water, watching the blood wash away. You blinked just as the blood seemed to stop and you turned off the faucet before opening a drawer, pulling out a roll of gauze. You carefully wrapped the gauze around both of your wrists and secured them with tape that was also in the drawer. You put away the roll of gauze and closed the drawer, rubbing your eyes tiredly after doing so. You walked out of the refresher and grabbed the 501st jacket one of the boys had given you, since you treated them with such kindness. You got along with all of them but your best friend is Fives. Everyone else would say he's just a clone and looks exactly like millions of other clones. Not to you, you thought he was different because of his personality and charm. To you, he's perfect.

You slipped on the jacket and walked out of your room towards the training room. You sometimes enjoyed watching the boys train but all of your attention was on Fives. You blushed at the mere thought of him and shook your head as you walked to the training room. You waved at few passing clones on your way as you gave them a smile, hiding your pain. Turning your gaze in front of you, you saw the door of your destination and walked into the room. You saw that the 501st was training with each other and having a good time. Cutup and Hevy were sparring with each other while the others stood around them. They were slowly circling one another as waiting for the other to make the first move.

"C'mon, throw a punch, one of you!" You heard, you think Droidbait, exclaim.

You smiled as you stood from afar and watched them spar with each other. Hevy threw the first punch but Cutup quickly dodged it and delivered an uppercut in Hevy's abdomen. You flinched at the sudden contact as you saw him double over in pain, falling on one knee.

"Aw, is the fight already over? I was just getting started." Cutup said cockily.

Hevy groaned in response and stood up, wincing as he did.

'That'll leave a bruise.' You thought.

Because of that hard hit, Hevy was having a difficult time trying to land a hit on Cutup. Cutup landed a few more hits before Rex intervened.

"Alright, that's enough." He said, standing between the two.

"Holy shit, that hurts." Hevy said as Echo helped him up.

"Let's go get an ice pack for you, vod." Echo said.

"Yeah, that'll be nice."

Echo carefully guided Hevy to the door to get to the medbay.

"Hey, (Y/n)." Hevy groaned as they walked past you, giving a cheeky smile.

"Hey, Hevy." You said, smiling back.

They walked out of the room and you looked to see the others grabbing their things. Fives noticed you and walked over to you after picking up his stuff and putting on his armor.

"Hey, (Y/n), what brings you here?" He asks.

"Oh, um, just came by to watch you guys train. Hevy took quite a few hard hits, do you think he'll be okay?" You inquired with a concerned tone.

"Eh, he'll live, that is if Kix doesn't kill him first."

You laughed a little. "I guess that's true. So, uh, how are you?"

"I'm doing okay, I guess. Nearly got beat the crap out of by Jesse."

"Ouch, that must've hurt."

"Yeah, it did. What about you, how are you?"

Immediately, you casted your gaze down and thought about whether you should tell him or not.

"(Y/n), what's wrong?" Fives asked, concerned.

You looked up at him and nearly let a few tears fall but managed to keep them from spilling over.

"Can I talk to you?" You asked quietly. "Alone?"

"Yeah, of course." He answered, almost instantly.

With that, you grabbed his hand and started to lead him out of the room towards your personal living quarters.

You come to me with scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night
Feeling like this

Fives sat down after you after entering your room and closing the door. You bit your lip as you kept yourself from looking at Fives and he grew even more concerned. He gently lifted your face and you stared into his alluring brown eyes.

"Hey, tell me what's wrong." He said softly.

You averted your eyes before pulling back the sleeves of the jacket you wore, revealing the slightly bloodied bandages. He looked down at them and held your wrists tenderly as you let a few tears fall.

I just came to say goodbye
Didn't want you to see me cry
I'm fine but I know it's a lie

"You know all those times when I said I was fine?" You asked. He looked up back at you nodding as you continued, "I was lying. I was never fine."

You instantly broke down into tears and covered your face with your hands. Fives immediately brought you into a comforting hug, shushing you softly.

This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be

The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be

"Shh, it's okay, I'm here, cyare." Fives soothed, rubbing your back slowly.

Slowly, your sobs turned into quiet sniffles as Fives still held you. Fives then began to pick his words carefully before asking you another question.

"What caused you to do this? You don't have to tell me if you don't want to."

You sniffled before looking up at him and wiping your eyes.

"I almost did it yesterday." You whispered.

"Did what?" He asked.

You looked away as he put the pieces together in his mind. He brought you into another hug as a way of keeping you calm.

"What made you change your mind?" He asked.

"You. You did." You mumbled.

He held you lovingly and placed a kiss on your head, not wanting to let go. He became happy by your answer but quickly went back to being concerned.

"Do your parents know about this?" He asked.

You stayed quiet for a moment as you fiddled with the strings on your jacket.

"No, they don't care." You simply answered.

Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you
They don't know you at all

"They say it's my fault that we ended up living in the lower levels."

"Why?" Fives asked.

"We got evicted one day, from our apartment, which caused us to have no place to live except in the lower levels."

He stayed quiet as you explain what happened.

"I started becoming depressed after they...they..." You couldn't finish your sentence.

"They what?" Fives asked carefully.

"After they beat me for what happened." You started to cry.

I'm so sick of when they say
It's just a phase, you'll be okay, you're fine
But I know it's a lie

Fives started to become angry upon hearing this but didn't let it show. His expression softened as you spoke again.

"M-My dad started to d-drink more and vented his anger o-onto me." You explained. "I n-never should've told them I w-was depressed."

As he heard the sadness in your voice, he pulled you closer before you continued.

"They s-said it was a phase, a-and that I'll be fine but t-that only made it w-worse."

This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be

The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be
The last night away from me

"Where are they now, if you still know that is." Fives said.

You started to calm down. "Somewhere in the lower levels still, I think. Why?"

"It's nothing. You should get some rest, you need it."

He then brought you further onto your bed and tucked you under the covers. Instantly, you fell asleep as soon as your head was placed on the pillow. Fives leaned on the floor next to you and gently kissed your head before standing up. He left the room and before he knew it, he was walking down the hall with such anger you could basically feel it radiate off of him. When he passed by a few of his brothers, none of them dared to even ask why he was so damn angry.

Coming back to his senses, Fives calmed down a little and found himself outside of Captain Rex's office. He wasn't sure what he was doing until his mind went back to you. He roughly knocked on the door and waited for a response.

"Come in." A voice on the other side said.

Fives walked in and Rex looked up seeing the expression on his face, slightly becoming scared a bit.

"Uh, what's got you so riled up Fives?" Rex asked, almost trembling.

"I need you to do a background check on (Y/n)'s parents." Fives replied.

Not wanting to anger the ARC Trooper even more, Rex did exactly what Fives requested. All of the information on your parents was now exposed to your very, very angry best friend.

"Send me their location." Fives said sternly.

"Alright," Rex sent him the location of where they were. "What do you plan on doing?"

Fives pulled out his dual DC-17 blaster pistols. "I'm just going to have a friendly chat with them."

He then walked out of the room and towards the hangar to have a 'chat' with your parents.

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          𝐀 𝐋𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐁𝐢𝐭 𝐋𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫
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Fives arrived at the location your parents would be and made his way towards the front door. He knocked on it harshly and heard shuffling coming from behind the door. Then, the door opened to reveal a woman who looked stressed.

"What do you want?" She asked bitterly.

"Are you the mother of (Y/n) (L/n)?" Fives asked, trying not to yell.

"What'd the bitch do now?"

Fives grew more kriffing angry when he heard those words leave the woman's mouth. She had no kriffing right calling you that, because to him you are an amazing girl.

The night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me your hand, I will help you hold on
Tonight, tonight

"She is the sweetest girl I've met in my entire life, and calling her that is one of the worst things you could say about her!" Fives snapped.

"Tch, who are you supposed to be? Her best friend?" The woman asked sarcastically.

"I'm her damn boyfriend with an overprotective attitude." Fives glared at her and she grew fearful. "I don't want you near her ever again after what you did to her, you understand?"

Scared for her life, the woman nodded and Fives walked back to the speeder. He stopped before getting on it and glared at the woman again.

"You should be glad I'm part if the Republic," he started. "Because you'd be dead if I wasn't."

With that, he got on the speeder and left the area to get back to you, hoping you were doing okay.

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         𝐋𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫
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You slowly woke up from your nap and sat up while rubbing your eyes. You heard your door open and looked up to see Fives come in and sit next to you on your bed. He took slow breaths as you looked at him with a worried expression. You lifted a hand to make him look at you and you saw that he was very angry.

"Hey, what happened?" You asked softly, not wanting to rile him up more.

After saying that, he immediately hugged you and buried his face into your neck. You hugged back and comforted him as much as you could by saying calming things in his ear.

"I'm glad you didn't end yourself yesterday." He mumbled, pulling you closer.

"Why is that?" You asked curiously.

He pulled back and looked at you. "Because I wouldn't be able to do this."

He then leaned forward and captured your lips in a sweet kiss. You reciprocated and kissed back as you wrapped your arms around his neck. After a few more seconds, you both pulled back and stared at each other.

"Will you be my girlfriend?" He asked.

"As long as you're my boyfriend." You answered.

He laughed at your answer. "You got yourself a deal."

You both smiled and held each other, enjoying one another's presence.

The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything you need me to be

I won't let you say goodbye
And I'll be your reason why
The last night away from me
Away from me

Bonus:

Cody walked into the break room to see Rex nervously holding his cup of coffee. Confused, he walked over and grabbed a cup, pouring himself some coffee.

"You good there, Rex?" He asked as he put the coffee pot back and leaned against the counter.

"Fives came into my office earlier today and-" he started.

"And?"

"He was so kriffing angry and I nearly freaked out, right then and there."

"What was he so mad about?" Cody sipped his coffee.

Rex then explained what happened and Cody nearly spit out the coffee in his mouth.

"It was a good thing you didn't question him then." Cody said.

"Yeah, I've never been so scared in my life and I hope he doesn't get that angry ever again." Rex said, taking a sip of his coffee.
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Poor Rex, I feel so bad for doing that to him, I'm sorry bby, please forgive me 😓

Like I've said before, if you have history or are currently dealing with the things mentioned, I am not trying to offend anyone in any way possible, if you're comfortable with it, you can talk to me as I'm willing to listen to your troubles and be there to comfort you as a friend and a sister, but if you aren't comfortable, you don't have to say anything you don't want to, I only want to make sure you're okay and that I'll be here to comfort you ❤

For those of you who made a request, I'm still writing them, they'll be done hopefully by the end of this month. Sorry they're taking so long, my procrastination isn't helping at all and I'm trying to get a few of my 12 drafts done, I have so many ideas, my drafts says it all-

But overall, I hope you enjoyed this oneshot and have a great day/afternoon/evening/night, y'all!

(Rex, I'm very sorry for doing that to you, forgive me for what I wrote 😓)