Interviewer: preciouspearl20
Interviewee: EttilaSharif
Interview editor: EttilaSharif (pFFT smh Ettila)

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Hi, I am Pearl. I'm here to take the honor of interviewing you for Freak Show. May I ask your name? And what are your pronouns?

Heya, Pearl! It's an honor to be interviewed. My name is Ettila and my pronouns are she/her.

Ettila! Such a unique name. Aye, the feeling is mutual.

Thank you! I adore my name Alhamdulillah. UwU

Because that's such a beautiful name. But can I know the meaning of it as well?

Of course. My full name is Ettila Sharif. Ettila (اطلاع) is an Urdu word and it means "Notification" in English, also could mean "Message" or "News" while Sharif (شريف) is an Arabic word meaning "Pure/Holy", could be Noble as well. So my full name would stand for Holy Message/Messenger in this case.

Ma sha Allah! That's indeed an amazing meaning. I do believe a human's name should have a good meaning as well. As it leads us to make our identity. But yeah, that's another story. So, when did you join CLN?

I do believe that and that's a reason why I'm proud of myself, Alhamdulillah. Well, I originally joined the CLN Open Server on May 24, 2020, at 5:21 am XD. But officially joined as staff on June 8, 2020, at 3:57 pm uwu. One of the most memorable time stamps in my life.

Awww! You exactly remembered the time as well. This really shows how much it means to you. So, what are the positions you have in CLN as of now?

It really means a lot to me, more than I can describe in words. But I probably don't need to anyway, so it's all good.

Oh! Good question. I have been part of many departments before. I had originally applied for Editing and Helpline Helper. But sadly, I couldn't make it to Editing so I was hired to edit interviews instead XD (that's a story for another time), which is now a separate department itself. That's a reason I believe fate literally threw me in CLN lol. The rusty old departments include Magazine and Anthology Contest (They don't exist anymore). Throughout my time here, I've been an Interviewer, Book Club Subhead, CLN Party Services Head, Social Media Managing Head, Human Resources, Communications, Open Server Moderator, and Award Host.

Right now, I'm mainly the Head of Interview Editing (as it is the department I got hired at first and I am also the first member of it), part-time Interviewer and of course, Head of Helpline. So basically it turns out, I'm back to my pavilion.

You don't have to, because it reflects in your actions. As actions speak louder than words, we don't need to go on that part, right?

I see. That's actually seeming like an interesting journey. From the beginning till now, I am sure every department was equally important and enthusiastic to you. But yeah, congrats on your new journey & best of luck! So, as of now, how is everything going for you?

Truest words have never been told indeed. Everything is going as usual I'd say lol. I mean it could be stressful for some, some might say it's a piece of cake, but I got and am slowly getting used to it so yeah, it's been filled with a lot of ups and downs but I'm coping Alhamdulillah. A great friend of mine said, "Live life on the edge" and I try to enjoy my life along with my passion and love. I believe there is nothing one can't achieve with kindness and care.

It's really appreciable, like how you see things. Mostly the answer you have given. Yes, we all do have ups and downs in our life. But the main criteria is, how we are gonna keep up with that. And I do agree with your friend. Enjoy your life to the fullest. You are one of the oldest members of CLN. So, it's obvious you have seen the best and the worst as well. But how has it been for you? Really tough or easy?

Oh dang, thought you'd never ask. Funnily enough, I was just back reading our old chats, and by old, I mean OLD chats. Trust me I've been in 20+ communities before but I swear I've never seen such type of dramas in an online community. It has been such a chaotic journey like someone is pulling me up, then dropping me down, and then catching me right before I hit the ground, and it goes on repeat.

We've had moments when there were two chats active in the same channel at the same time, one is a serious topic while the other is completely the opposite lol. Sure, we had our tough times, patched up roughly along the way, and had some of our greatest moments as well. We laughed, cried, screamed but most importantly, we all did it together, and I'm grateful for everything along the way.

You would never know how much experience I'd gained, how much I'd learned in less than a single year, and still learning even after 2+ years. I've learned friendship, patience, how to fight for what's right, justice, the value of honesty, management, thousand ways to love and spread love, and more beyond words. We know how to celebrate together in our best times, and we know how to stand tall together in our worst. I wouldn't say I had it easy, but I wasn't alone and I proudly say that, Alhamdulillah.

That's something actually beyond my words. Should I be happy you got more mature by that one year? Of course, I am. Everything happens for a reason indeed. But the fact that we learned in that process, makes the journey enchanting even more. Cheers to you & CLN for a more beautiful journey! Now, about you! As for now, I am sure, people only have seen you as their co-worker or a friend. But I want to bring out your actual self of yours. I know it's a hard job since it takes a whole life to know someone, but let's take it slowly. So, what are your hobbies? Or what do you like to do in your free time?

Indeed and thank you, I hope the same too Inshaallah.

Well, there are a few people who know me more than just a friend or co-worker lol. But yeah, the number is really small. My hobbies include reading books (and comics!), writing, listening to songs/nasheeds (Vocals Only), helping people however I can,drawing and sketching, learning new languages, photography, learning anything new, playing mystery games, and solving puzzles.

I LOVE puzzles, they help you develop your brain a lot, you should try it too. I can go on and on if one asks for some suggestions. When I'm free, I like to read the Holy Quran and/or its meaning. I used to take a lot of nature pictures, I still do but not as much as before. Most of my energetic vibe got lost in the quarantine lol. Nowadays, if I'm free, I'm either listening to music, reading, playing games, or working and chatting in CLN.

It's kinda hard to balance tuition, personal studies, home, and work at the same time, that also excluding school. But it's manageable, Alhamdulillah.

Well, that's a lot XD. But as you said, the number is only a few. I'm sure people want a glimpse of this amazing human's life too. So, that's only a mere try. Also wow! These are quite a few interesting things. I love learning new languages too. But yes, you are right! Most of us lost the energetic vibe during quarantine. But it's fine. We shall find other interests too. I can totally relate. I was coming up with that question, you have answered already. But still, I wanna ask, how did you manage it with your real-life schedule?

Lol, I must say it's not easy at all. Like I myself don't know how or what I do every day. I have always been a busy person in real life. I have no idea how a whole new world squeezed into my previous schedule. Though I'm struggling a little now that my school has reopened and my schedule is airtight with exams, but nonetheless, I'm never less glad that it did, Alhamdulillah.

Some things did go on and off, so I believe that affected my balancing too. I used to read a lot, and I mean A LOT, but it has decreased in an unimaginable way. And I used to participate in different contests and competitions, which have also decreased now. So all in all, life itself is managing my time for me lol, I'm ever grateful for it, Alhamdulillah.

I see! Couldn't agree more on that part. Once this reading used to be my passion, but nowadays I hardly find time for that. I guess, priorities do get changed at times. But I hope that everything will be alright in the future for everyone. But it's honestly remarkable, you managed everything efficiently. Being the head and managing everything at once isn't an easy task. So, you have been here for over two years. What's the best time till now for you in CLN?

Thank you! Ikr! This dang quarantine messed up the lives of numerous people beyond count.

Eh! Yes, Inshaallah. I'm both excited and terrified lol. As for the best time in CLN, that's a really hard thing to answer. I can name a few times which felt the best. The night we had a karaoke party in CLN Clubhouse to celebrate Kinky's one-year mark, 6th April was one of the best times I actually had fun. I originally wanted the staff of CLN to have a fun time, and I hope I'd succeed in it. Even though I hosted the party for 5 hours straight (with Sam joining on and off in between), skipped dinner and studies for one night, I sincerely felt it was worth it. Oh, and after the party, I was also bullied by the participants for another hour straight (=_=) XD. I have a couple of memorable moments in CLN, but one of the biggest, which involved a lot of people, was this.

And on top of that, signs of success in the helpline, occasional hilarious talks among the founders, funny banter on the staff side of CLN never fails to make me smile. I'm genuinely grateful to have them in my life Alhamdulillah, and I hope they can accept me the same way.

Yeah, but what can we do? Just be the sufferer and cope up with it. Well, thankfully I got the chance to join as well. But yeah, I couldn't stay longer there. Yeah, I saw that. That karaoke night, indeed, was the best night as a lot of staff member was present. What do we need more, when everyone is there? XD. Surely, they have accepted you wholeheartedly. I can assure you that. Besides, who can avoid this charming person? ;)

You know as a person, we always learn, be better for the future. But I wanna know, have you seen the growth of yourself as a member of CLN? And how is it?

Indeed! You flatter me lol, thank you. Oh yes, very. I can't exactly describe "how" or "what" changed, but excluding my personality change, my behavior also changed, in a good way Alhamdulillah. I've become way more patient and open-minded than I was ever before, I've learned a huge variety of things, and realized some other things that were buried inside me. When I first joined CLN, I barely talked and was more of a "robotic cheerful".

But right now I can say I'm genuinely happy in CLN, well, maybe not all the time, dark thoughts haunt everyone lol, don't they? But let me tell you, as I'd mentioned before, that I've been part of over 20 communities before, CLN is the only community which successfully caught me, not sure if that's a good thing or bad, but I've left all other communities I've been in, except one more excluding CLN, but they have other reasons, not as strong and fierce as CLN's.

So yes, through all the ups and downs, I'd say the development was initially positive, Alhamdulillah. It was a miraculous journey from an unexpected staff to a determined founder uwu.

You are most welcome. I'm glad to hear that. Thank you for sharing the incredible journey with us. As you have said, you have been in 20 other communities, so you must have great knowledge of how the community works better than me.

But you have acknowledged yourself better in this journey, and for me, this is the most important thing. Because as a human, only you can know yourself better than anyone else. What makes CLN different from any other community according to you? You must have known, as you have been here for a long time, as well as in the other communities.

Everything. Really! From its name to its people, to its working ways, inside out. For the name, most of the communities (at that time) had names like "The Ettila Community" or "The Fantasy Kingdom" (sorry if there's an actual community with that name, I mean no offense), whereas CLN stands for Crazy Late Nighters, though the L in CLN stands for Confusion ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.

I was also very dismissal and nonchalant about the community at first because to be honest, I was already in a lot of communities and I only wanted to join CLN for a personal reason (that's a whole different story XD), so it didn't entice me much, the topics discussed in there wasn't of my favor either. But about one and half months after I joined, there was a huge break in the community in July, and the huge, friendly community was falling apart in front of my eyes.

At that time, something just clicked in me and I was like, I'm not letting this shut down. And surprisingly, many people had the same kind of determination in their eyes (or well, minds!). Only those who were there during June-August know what we went through at that time. CLN had a lot of close calls, but no, CLN has something special in it which saves it every time. It holds a really close bond among the people in it. Maybe not all, but enough to keep it alive. I truly believe CLN is special, and I'm both honored and proud to be a Founder of it, Alhamdulillah.

Couldn't agree more. Well, obviously I know the feeling of a falling community, or to see it fall apart, you know what I mean. I'm glad that it didn't. Otherwise, people would have definitely missed being part of it, like me. I do agree, CLN is different in every way. I'm glad that I am a part of it. I know, rules are always meant to be followed (Or sometimes broken too xD), but what really has been inspiring for you in this journey?

And we're glad to have you here with us!

Heh. CLN is full of inspirations for people of all aspects, trust me. But some things which perked up my determination worked as inspiration here. My whole "joining CLN" was based on the determination. There was a time I low-key had a community addiction lol. I used to apply for any community I saw. CLN was one of the last communities I've joined because by that time the energy burst subsided a lot.

Once Karen had pinged me and another person in the chat and asked if we wanted to apply for anything. I applied then because why not XD. However, as soon as I applied on Wattpad, a friend of mine on Wattpad "advised" me not to join it, for various reasons which apparently didn't make sense to me lol. Sorry if you're reading this but it's true XD, and I don't really mean it in a bad way. I was, and still am, never a person to believe something negative from another person till I see what's really going on by myself. I was curious how a community became so notorious that people are warning me not to join.

So I was kind of determined that I want to pass the interview and join the community. And well, here I am lol, I sincerely thank that friend of mine for this. It was the best impulsive act I've taken, in my opinion. Another inspiration to go on was, some people once said CLN is going to fail miserably (this is during mid-August 2020 or around that), it just ticked off my bomb to prove them wrong. There were many times like this. Probably because I'm a person who loves to accept challenges (for goodness ofc).

I gladly accept any kind of challenge that is thrown in front of me (which could be why I love solving mysteries and puzzles). Of course, not all of them end well, but my intention was good so I stand my ground on this. I'm ever grateful for my successes, Alhamdulillah, and hope to learn from my failures.

It would be a lie if I said that I didn't know your obsession with communities XD. I should thank you for that as well. Why? I will tell you one day. ;)

But yes, people here themselves, are the biggest inspiration. Because everyone has different stories. They all come together when it needs to. Love challenges, huh? Well, that's good. Challenge yourself every day to do better, to be better. May the Almighty Allah bless you as well. I know, everyone loves you as you are indeed a great person, a great co-worker, a friend. I mean, everything XD. But have you ever received any negative feedback? How did you deal with that?

Ameen uwu.

Thank you, I'm highly flattered! As lucky as I may sound, I haven't received any negative feedback till now, Alhamdulillah. At least, not from CLN. And even if I did, it wasn't as severe enough to scare me. But yes, I often faced sarcasm from people as well as subtle hints, but I believe I handled them fine, another talent I'm ever grateful for, Alhamdulillah uwu.

Honestly, the amount of love I get from people is just too much to think about hate remarks or such, I can't ever thank them enough ;-;, nor do I know why or how they even tolerate someone like me lol, let alone like. But nonetheless, I feel like the luckiest person living on earth ;-;.

Especially when I've sometimes seen my close friends and co-workers get negative remarks. My blood boils at it lol. I tend to be quite possessive about this when it comes to my family, friends, and religious belief. If I had the chance, I'd teach all those people a good lesson so that they never ever get the nerve to even think about doing the same thing again, not only to my close ones, but also anyone in the future. If you can't say anything good, then stay silent. People have enough on their plate already to take in hate from a completely irrelevant person.

That's good. Yeah, I agree with you on the last part. Why do you even care, when you don't know anything about me? 乁( •_• )ㄏ

Moving forward, What do you think about Hinos?

I can't believe you asked this o.o But if you really want my honest opinion, I truly don't like "it". It's not a lie. I have two main reasons for it. One is that the word is just another word for butt -_-. For the Almighty's sake, I started saying LMHO instead of LMAO just to avoid the word ass (×_×).

It's actually Head and I repeat, HEAD only. I won't disclose much information about my thoughts on this tho ;p. But for those who have concerns if I get mad at the mention of "HINOS", no lol, I don't get mad. And that's all you need to know pfft.

Well, what can I say, I am really unbelievable ┐( ∵ )┌. But this was needed. Everyone wanted to know about our glorious Hinos. On the contrary, I like your answer too XD. Nevertheless, only the people here know how this non-existent thing got existence XD. As you have said, you like to solve mysteries and puzzles, what do you think about our real-life puzzles? Do you have anything to say about it?

I very much do. And yes, I agree that life is a puzzle itself. Not just "real life". I even low-key hate the term "real-life" lol. It makes me want to ask, is online not real life? O.o It could be a different platform, but you only have one life to live lol. Then again, I understand the use of it but I like to call them my "online life" and "offline life". 

As for solving the life puzzle, the key to staying happy in this bittersweet journey is positivity. Trust me. If you believe in God, then you'll know that whatever happens, He will always, always guide your way back, only if you ask for it. As for non-believers, just remember, help always finds its way to those who ask for it.

As Dumbledore had said, "Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light." Find something positive in everything, and I mean EVERYTHING. Even if the world is turned upside-down, assure yourself that it happened for a reason and everything will be okay. Another thing is, Love, Kindness. Most people nowadays don't know the value of it actually. You don't know how powerful love is unless you've experienced it yourself.

When it feels like everything is ruined, love can make you move on. On the contrary, when you think nothing can break you, love can shatter you into pieces. And by love, I don't mean romance or physical affection. There are so many more definitions, so many aspects of love, by any chance if I start talking about it, imma just writing a whole book itself lol, so I'm gonna refrain now.

But yeah, don't hate in response to hate, trust me, it won't do you any good, except perhaps mere temporary happiness of revenge. But even so, talki to your enemy with a smile on your face, show them kindness when they least expect it and help them when they are vulnerable. That is the best of all kinds, I can guarantee you that. I'm sure anyone reading this is not a stone. If only people realized these, the world could be a whole lot better.

Sadly, even after all this, very few people would really understand and do as such, thus our world might stay as shitty, if not more, forever lol. Excuse my language btw.

Well, yeah! You are right, we have only one life. But as much as you hate to admit that, it's true, we have a life outside of this virtual world which is actually considered to be a real one. Nevertheless, I ain't saying it's not real life as well. Obviously, it is, only the perspective is different from seeing it.

Thank you for sharing your beautiful thoughts. Indeed, it's true that happiness only lies in satisfaction. If you aren't satisfied with what you have, you won't be happy even if you have all the money in the world. And, very much well said at the love point XD. Finally, someone agrees with me that love has many definitions. It depends only on the perception of the viewer.

What are you intending to do in your future life?

Well, the future is really a hard thing to say, isn't it? My "aim in life" has changed numerous times in my life lol. At first, when I was around 7 or 8, I wanted to be a teacher. Then it changed to the artist at 9(?), the teacher again a year or two later, then scientist from 11/12. Then it eventually roamed around being an architect, engineer, astronaut, archaeologist, writer, and if more, I can't remember atm.

One thing was, I was hell-bent against being a doctor, as 80% of kids want to be a doctor, be it by themselves or parents. When I was 15 or around that, my thoughts eventually led to being a doctor lol, mostly psychiatrist, cause our country lacks it a lot. Finally, I burned everything down. Right now, I don't want to do a job anymore. I pray that my husband will earn enough for our family, Inshaallah. As for myself... eh, personally, I don't want to live past 20 lol, the highest is 25 lmho. And that's for a perfectly valid reason, but I don't think it's appropriate to say here lol.

But even so, life and death are all in God's hands. So as long as I live, I just want to be a good person, you get what I'm saying? I don't want to be famous, I want to be memorable. I wish to be remembered by that person who only has talked to me once or twice, but will remember me forever. Not because of my name, not because of my brain, but for being me. I want to be known for my behavior, my actions, for myself. To be honest, the amount of love I already get is really unimaginable, Alhamdulillah ;-;. That's all I want in life now, for people to love me because of who I am.

There could be hundreds of Ettila in this world, perhaps thousands of Sharif, but there would be only one Ettila Sharif. And that's me.

Surely, you have said many things. I do agree on that part, like how our ambitions get changed with the time being. Like at a certain age, we want to be that, at some age we don't want to be. And how our parents and relatives, overall everyone controls our wishes on how we should choose our profession for our future life. I don't know why you don't want to live, but I am sure people would be sad to lose a person like you. May the Almighty Allah always grant you a long life. Even if you don't want to, people do want you to be here, on the earth.

But the last part really touched my heart. Like it's not important, what's your ambition, or what you intend to do as a career vise, but like you actually want to be a good human being. Ma sha Allah! What a noble thought! I pray that you will succeed in your goal. Surely, there will be only one Ettila Sharif. You have seen the people here as a member, but if you have to say something about them in a few words, what will it be?

That another thing I'm ever grateful about is that my parents never pressed me for studies, ya know? Like right now, I want to study either Psychology, Food and Nutrition or something else in the future Inshaallah. My parents know about it. They also know I don't want to work in the future and they support me, Alhamdulillah. I really got supportive parents which a lot of children lack these days. I do consider myself one of the luckiest humans on earth lol and I'm honestly forever grateful for it. And lol.

Only Allah (SWT.) knows why I don't want to live a long life lmho, so I'm counting on Him with that. But please, don't wish for my life to be long. I hate it lol XD, sorry. I'd rather ask y'all to pray for a better, happier, successful life and may achieve Jannah (Heaven) in the latter period. As for people being sad, I shouldn't live for people, should I? It's my life after all. If anyone reading this gets hurt at this, please know that I love you, a lot. But also remember, death is constant and it's gonna come for everyone sooner or later. The faster you accept the fact, the happier you will be. If you also love me, wouldn't you want me to be happy? Thank you. Also, thank you so much, please keep me in your prayers. <3

inhales

YOU. YES, YOU. I'M TALKING TO YOU. To the past, present, and future staff of CLN, Thank you for being here with us. You all are the life of the community, do you know that? If today, all the staff suddenly decided to leave the community altogether, where would we stand?

Exactly. Not all of you have been here for a long time, those who are, know what CLN goes through lol. And those who aren't, you're in for a life-scarring ride ;). Thank you for putting up with your criminally insane Founders lol. We all are not close to normal and I think pretty much everyone knows it by now XD.

Remember, in a community, the staff is no less important than a Founder. As a staff can't work without a Founder, the same as a Founder can't function without its staff. You are the part and parcel of our community, never let your position bring you down. You are the ones who ultimately bring us success and you all are in charge of our betterment, so never hesitate to express your thoughts with us.

I can't say "don't be afraid, we don't bite", because unfortunately, we do, but don't be afraid anyway XD. I love each and every one of you, whether I know you or not, and am visibly proud of y'all. You all are like stars, so keep shining bright like the star you sparkle and keep making me proud 💖

The thing is- I can say many things now, but I would rather not say it now, because words do have lots of interpretation. Like you have just done right now. As your wish, but when I was asking for your life length, I meant it, also with a better life, successful life. Then again, nothing is in our hands. Everything happens by the wish of one supreme power. Of course, you shouldn't live for people. But deep down, in the heart of people, for whom you mean a lot, they will surely be sad for you. Won't you be for your beloved ones? In sha Allah, you will be always remembered in prayers.

Aye, aye! That's true. Everyone is equally important here. As I believe, a team can't work properly even if one isn't cooperative. That's actually most important in any teamwork. Thanks for the wishes and your kind words. We, surely, are glad to have you as our leader. Because it's the puller which pulls us to go ahead always. Coming back, are you a night owl or an early riser?

I would be sad, of course, I'm not denying that. But it's something inevitable and unavoidable. And I'm mentally prepared to embrace it, is what I'm saying. And thank you very much, I'm highly flattered for the compliment ^_^.

As for your question, I'm both a night owl and an early riser, Alhamdulillah. I can sleep at 2 am and then wake up at 4 am (which is NOT healthy so don't ever think about doing it). Of course, I'll either need to slow down for that day or sleep at the daytime, because I don't feel good when I don't get my sleep (who does?).

But yeah, I've also pulled up an all-nighter only twice in my life (not really proud of breaking my record) DO NOT PULL ALL-NIGHTERS. It harms your body more than you can imagine. You wouldn't understand it now, wait for a couple of years, you'll get your results then, trust me.

It's a really good thing that you can be both. But Ettila, you know that it's a very unhealthy schedule ;-;. But it's good that you take a rest. All-nighters! Woah- never have done it. But was the experience good or bad? And yes, we will keep the advice in mind only if you do the same too XD. So, we are reaching the end. Lol! But to be honest, I don't want to end it. A very important question. You know, CLN stands for its craziness as much as we have other talents too. As for that, do you define yourself as a crazy person too?

coughs I know lol. I try to keep my eating and sleeping habits on track. And as for my all-nighter, it wasn't the worst, but I felt heavy and tired all day. Point is, it may help some of you, but know that it's really temporary and it will harm you more than doing good. Please whatever you do, however you can, avoid pulling all-nighters, as well as messing up your eating and sleeping. I promised myself I wouldn't ever pull all-nighter unless I have to or if I'm influenced. Kidding lol, seriously.

And aww ;-;. It was fun to be interviewed as I've never been interviewed before. Though, I think I pretty much spilled too much tea for people to even approach me now lol XD. Sorry if I scared people off before even knowing the real me.

As for craziness, DUH, I wouldn't be a Crazy Late Nighter if I wasn't, would I? ;) But I believe my craziness is good and under control, Alhamdulillah. I like to be carefree, without any bindings by other humans. Most of the time, I know what I'm doing or saying. And I retreat from what I know I don't know nor I want to know. I have my limits but that doesn't stop me from being myself, and Ettila and Craziness walk by hand in hand. And besides that, I think the people around me can tell more about my craziness, no? ;)

Indeed! You better not pull an all-nighter again. Pretty much tea XD. I guess I have succeeded in my work then, not fully though but still at some point. Of course, you wouldn't be. ;) Aye, I like the definition of your craziness. Be crazy, live your life to the fullest, but have control over it too. Obviously, they can, at least they are the one who always sees you XD. The last question of this evening, I know you adore all the people here. But who influenced you the most here in a good way?

The Ettila definition of Craziness is the best Craziness. uwu

That's a really hard question to answer tbh. Influence is not something that gets to me easily. But yes, what I can say is, I got Inspiration and Determination from the people here. I can't pinpoint who, but any and all my past and present friends taught me something important, like a life lesson.

I've gotten closer to God Alhamdulillah. I've learned communication. My patience increased to an unimaginable limit. I guess all the variety and the diversity in activities influenced me to be better, and I'm grateful for it Alhamdulillah. Influence isn't something I'm very familiar with, but one thing that does get to me is my weakness, which I don't have a lot nor is as common as most people have. Some know some don't. Directly or indirectly, I have some pretty uncommon things that can break me in half, and death, abusive threats, etc aren't in them.

Indeed! That's the best definition XD. That's true, inspiration is a better word than influence. Like, you can get inspiration from someone but not get influenced fully. Because then I guess, you will lose your own uniqueness. Glad to hear that people here inspired you a lot, they all actually do. I don't know about your weaknesses. But yeah, we all have some. I hope you will be able to cope up with yours, In sha Allah. And yes, you aren't weird at all. Because even if you are, that's only in a good way. At the end of the day, we all are weird. ;)

This remarks the end of our interview here. As much as I want to keep talking with you, some things are always bound to end. It was a great pleasure to talk with you, Ettila. We got to see a little glimpse of your life. Thank you so much for taking your precious time to be here. We are really grateful for that. Wishing you all the luck in your upcoming life. Keep shining, keep rising. May the Almighty Allah always keep you healthy and happy.

Thank you so much for interviewing me! Trust me, I had no less fun than you had. It was an honour to be interviewed and I think I already told too much lol. Thank you for the good wishes, I wish you the same too.<3 Have a nice day/night ahead.