Harry trying to see if Anna is really pregnant or not ^^

• Chapter Sixty Nine •

"Thank you" I passed a small smile to the cashier after she handed me the plastic bag. I walked out the pharmacy and into Harry's Rover "Here" He handed me a bottle of water and I opened the cap, placing the morning-after pill onto my tongue and downing it with the water. I slid back onto the passenger seat, tugging on the seat belt as Harry drove off from the parking spot. "How are you feeling?" He glanced towards me and I shrugged "Not any different" I fidgeted with my fingers and kept my gaze out the window

"Anna, babe, you're going to be fine. It's not like you were ovulating, were you?" Harry's hand reached over the console and encapsulated mine, I intertwined our fingers and let out a deep breath "No, not that I know of. I-" I widened my eyes as I realized I didn't get my period this month "What's wrong?" I cleared my throat "I didn't get my period this month, that's all. It's probably got to do with my iron levels being really low so I have no blood. I'm not pregnant that's for sure" I said in a small voice "Anna, you haven't taken your medication" Harry sighed tiredly and I pursed my lips "I know, I forgot to take them. It doesn't matter, I'll be fine" I assured him and he nodded

"What if I did fall pregnant?" I asked, my voice breaking the silence that we sat in "It doesn't happen that easily as in with one instance even if we add the time in Manhattan" Harry said but I shook my head "No I know that, unless you have really fast sperm but I'm just saying, in the future or whenever, what if?" I finally looked up at him to find his bottom lip caught between his teeth, his green eyes were distant as he glared out the windshield. I took this, crucial, moment to admire his side profile and how his jawline accentuated his entire face.

"I'd be the happiest man if you get pregnant by me" He said thoughtfully, "I'd probably start planning how I'm going to decorate the nursery for our baby, I didn't get that with Noah because I wasn't prepared beforehand so this would be like a second chance," He added as he turned his focus on me ", but not right now. I'm not ready to be a father again, we just found our footing and I'm not saying that a baby would jeopardize that but I want us to be before we even think about taking that gigantic step in our relationship" Harry's hand squeezed mine and I only nodded my head in response "I understand that and I feel the same way, it'll happen when and if it does"

"Harry, can I ask you something?" I played with his fingers as his hand rested on my lap "Sure" He answered and I cleared my throat before speaking in a soft voice "What was your relationship with Brielle like?" I peered up at him and he looked at me with wide eyes, taken aback by my question "Well, it definitely wasn't like the typical boyfriend-girlfriend kind of relationship. We didn't put a label to it because it was only physical, I wasn't looking for a relationship at that time and neither was she. She showed me things I never knew existed in sex" He said, sincerity in his voice.

I rolled my lips into my mouth, taking his words in "Like what kind of things? Like the one last night where you tied me up?" I spoke further "Yeah" He nodded, guiltily before adding "There are, however, much more extreme things" Harry sighed and I noticed how he drummed his fingers against the steering wheel and his eyes looked everywhere but me "It's because of that, because of Brielle, I turned into this sadistic person. I found pleasure in inflicting pain on others, it aroused me to an extent where that's all I ever wanted to do. That then developed into this notorious reputation and that is why social services are so hell bent on checking up on Noah every month, they don't think I'm capable of taking care of him"

"What made you stop that sadism?" Harry let out a dry laugh "The death of my brother" He answered truthfully "I still don't understand what went through my mind but the only thing that did make sense was the fact that being a kind of person who gets off on other's pain, was ruining my life from having something real. Oliver died then Madeleine, I lost so many people in my life that I didn't want to lose myself. So I picked myself up and I guess you could say, I matured. Better late than never, right" Harry confessed, a deep sigh leaving his lips as he finished and somehow I now see him differently, I understand him. I understand what drove him to be this kind of person even though his childhood did have a hand in it.

Harry's the kind of person that needs a release from his anger, he channels all of it into hurting someone else, sexually. If I can be that person for him, then so be it. I saw the look in his eyes last night, he looked tranquil as if he was in his element. Granted I was taken aback by the sadistic glint in his eyes when he flipped me over onto my back, I realized that that's who he was, who he is. He's opened up so much about his past to me, he's put his trust in me and I'm afraid for the moment I tell him mine, the moment I tell him about my life growing up in Manhattan. I'm afraid he might think differently of me, in a sense that he might take pity on me and treat me as if I'm some fragile charity case.

Manhattan to me is the place where all my demons rest and when I went back there it was as if all of those demons flooded me. I was followed, I was never the type of person that had dates with guys or girls to party with because I was too scared to. I feared what the next tabloid might say about the prestigious Mr and Mrs Montgomery's eldest daughter. My parents were ashamed of me, it's not like I did anything drastic as a teenager, and that's when I decided to change. What did take a toll on me was the death of my grandmother, she was the only one that understood what I went through.

In times like these is when I really miss her, I need her lap to rest my head as she runs her frail fingers through my scalp, assuring me that everything will be okay. "Anna, are you okay?" Harry's worried voice reached my ears and I shook my head, realizing I had zoned out again "Yeah, I'm fine" I passed him a small smile "You got me worried, I called your name nearly 5 times. Are you sure? You look tense, what's bothering you?" Harry spoke and I took note that we were parked in his usual parking spot at Styles Inc. "I'm fine, don't worry" I told him, hoping he'd be convinced and thankfully he let the topic go "Alright, well I have a meeting in an hour and I need you to go check up on the sculptures, there's another exhibition this weekend" Harry sighed and got off the Rover.

I joined him by grabbing my bag from the back seat, "You know I was going to open your door for you" He smiled and I chuckled "Maybe next time" I slung my bag over my shoulder and took a step towards the door only to be pulled back, Harry's arms went around my back, his hands clasped together. "Are you sure you're okay? You can tell me if something is bothering you, we can work it out" Harry's eyes flitted between mine as if trying to read my mind "Harry, I'm fine. I'm just tired I guess" I shrugged and went on my toes to kiss him "Uhm, you shouldn't have done that, Miss Montgomery." He muttered against my lips before kissing me harder and I let out a giggle, sliding my arms around his neck.

"Okay, stop, we have work to do" Harry pouted when I pulled away "However, we can continue this later because I see that someone is a little too excited" I whispered, smirking as I felt his erection against my lower abdomen "What can I say? You gave me a taste last night and now I have an appetite" He winked and my jaw dropped slightly "You nasty" I pushed away from him and he laughed "Not what you said last night, baby girl" He said with a smirk and I shook my head at him before heading inside the building, Harry was hot on my heels.

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