"Did you have sex with both of them?" I asked Tommy as I sat beside him on his couch. I had drank a lot of whiskey as we spoke the entire night. I just wanted all of my questions answered, it was the least Tommy could do. 

"No. I had sex with May but Grace and I never got there." Tommy answered and it was heartbreaking to hear. These two girls knew that Tommy and I were getting together. Tommy knew how much I cherish him and love him but he still did it. 

"Were you planning on it before I stopped you both?" I asked him sternly. 

"Yes." Tommy answered and I just groaned loudly. 

"Fuck off Tommy." I spat angrily and Tommy just looked at me sympathetically. "I want to leave you right now. I just want to pack my bags and go." I confessed as I stood up, Tommy calmly drank some whiskey. 

"So you are going to run away again, eh?" He asked me rudely and I looked at him in shock. 

"Run away?" I asked him pissed off. 

"Is that not what you did last time?" He asked me pointedly. 

"Fuck off Tommy." I shouted as I pushed him a little angrily, how fucking dare he. 

"There you go again." Tommy whispered and I pointed straight at him. 

"I did not run away from you, you pushed me away." I screamed as a tear cascaded down my tiny face. I was very petite but very strong. 

"You push everyone and everything away." Tommy shouted back at me and I just looked at him hurt. He could see it in my eyes. 

"I do not." I argued and Tommy raised his eyebrows. 

"Your birth mum, she said no so you have not tried again, you pushed me away because you were scared." Tommy explained and I just shook my head. I could not be hearing this rubbish right now. 

"That is a load of bollocks." I shouted at him.

"Prove it." Tommy challenged and I looked at him confused. 

"What?" I asked him with furrowed brows. 

"Prove that you do not push people away." Tommy challenged. 

"I said yes to your proposal." I stated and Tommy shook his head as he slipped his hands into his trouser pockets. 

"Two fucking days later and look where the ring is sat." He stated as he pointed to the table where my engagement ring was sitting next to my gu. 

"Because you were with fucking girls!" I screamed back at him like it was obvious, which it was. 

"Because you did not give me anything back." Tommy argued. 

"I was scared because I knew this would happen." I continued. 

"Or did you just push me away so this would happen and then you would have a reason to leave me, eh?" He asked me and I was over thinking it in my head. Maybe he was right.  "Am I right?" Tommy asked me and I did  not know so I just stayed silent. 

"I am gone Tommy. Roma and I we are leaving." I stated as I walked over to my coat, leaving my coat and ring. 

"Go ahead. Run away." Tommy mocked and I marched straight back up to him angrily. 

"You did this Tommy, not me." I shouted. 

"You only wanted me for the adventure. You never loved me, it was me who loved you." Tommy explained and I think it was because he wanted to me to continue to fight with him. 

"You were stringing both Grace and I along." I added and Tommy just stayed quiet. "If Roma was not here then would it be Grace or I?" I asked him seriously and he did not even have to think about it. 

"You." He answered automatically and I could tell that he was telling the truth. I do not know how but I just knew. 

"Would you?" I asked him mousy, I needed him to say it again. Maybe Tommy was telling the truth. Maybe I was just trying to drive him away accidentally. 

"There you go. That doubt that drove us apart." Tommy stated and I just sighed as I looked into his ocean blue eyes, that once drew me to him. 

"I want to forgive you Tommy, but I don't know how." I admitted honestly. I was too scared to let him back in my life, incase this happened again. 

"Four words- I forgive you Tommy." Tommy replied in a jokey manner but I was just not in the mood. 

"I should go." I whispered as I  walked over to my coat, again. 

"Don't." Tommy replied and I just sighed as I turned to face him. 

"Why?" I asked him frustrated, Tommy walked towards me and wrapped his big arms around my petite waist. 

"Because we love each other." Tommy whispered, our faces were inches apart. I just sighed in defeat before I crashed my lips onto his. I was drunk, overwhelmed and I did not know what else to do. Tommy began to take off his shirt.

"I can't." I whispered and Tommy just sighed as he looked at me. "I am scared." I admitted and Tommy shook his head as he placed his strong hands on my delicate cheeks.

"Never be scared of me." He replied before we started to kiss again. This time I did not fight it, I just let it happen. 

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"This is the last time." I murmured as I cuddled up into Tommy's bare chest. 

"We fuck?" He asked me confused and I just laughed as I shook my head. My girls bouncing as they moved. 

"No the last time you do anything to hurt me." I warned and Tommy nodded his head. I knew that he was not going to do anything to hurt me. I let him off easy this time, so just imagine me if there was a next time. 

"I told you I made an-" Tommy was away to say but I interrupted him. The word that he was away to say,  the 'm' word, just made it one hundred times worse. 

"Do not say the word." I instructed and Tommy just stayed quiet. Then there was a knock on my door. "Why do you people exist?" I groaned very loud, Tommy just laughed before he kissed me on the head. I smiled at him like a child. 

"I've got it." Tommy groaned as he slid out of the bed. 

"Yes you do." I smirked at him jokingly as I watched him walk out. God he was gorgeous. A couple of minutes later Tommy came back into the room. 

"Guess who is here?" Tommy grinned as he walked into the room. He was holding Roma, my mum must have dropped her off. She had to go buy an outfit for the Darby.

"My baby." I exclaimed happily as Tommy handed me over Roma. I sat up a little and Roma plonked herself onto my stomach. I grinned at her happily as Tommy got into bed beside me again. 

"You want to know something?" Tommy asked me as he looked down at me, I nodded my head at him. 

"Tell me." I instructed as Roma sat on my stomach, she was giggling at us happily. 

"This is all I have wanted." Tommy smiled at me and I nodded my head back at him. It was weird after everything we had been through, I was feeling my strongest right now with Tommy. 

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"What are you doing?" I asked Tommy as I walked into his office. I was going to pick up my dress and get changed into it before I helped the boys load up the cart.

"You look beautiful." Tommy smiled at me as I placed a hand on his broad shoulder. "Writing a letter." Tommy answered as he sealed the envelope. 

"For?" I asked him curious. I wanted to know everything, before we got to the stage we were once at. 

"I am going to assassinate someone at the derby." Tommy answered honestly and I looked at him in shock. "This is a letter explaining the guilty party of it all." Tommy added and I had so many questions. Tommy knew that though. "I do not have time for questions. I need to know that you love me and that you will keep this letter incase I die." Tommy explained. 

"Do not be ridiculous." I shrugged it off and Tommy looked at me serious. 

"Say you will do what I ask." Tommy replied and I shook my head laughing. He was not going to die, I would not let him die. 

"Tommy-" I sighed but Tommy cut over the top of me. 

"Clara, please." Tommy pleaded, he really needed this. I just sighed before I sat myself down on his lap. 

"I love you and you are not going to die." I whispered before we kissed each again. I took the letter and walked out of the room.